Maura sat staring at her computer screen, she'd been sat there for nearly an hour, her mind blank as she looked at the autopsy sheet that she filled in every day. The red pen circling a mistake she'd made, she didn't make mistakes, she was Maura Isles. When did she become this person who threw sarcasm and bitter remarks. Well she knew the when and she knew the why but she had no idea how she could get back the semblance of her former self. Her anger was beginning to show as she picked up a pen and threw it across the room. It was no good, she couldn't go on like this any more. Her mind drifted back to earlier that day, when the mistake she had made was pointed out to her by her intern. Usually she'd have praised them for noticing such a simple mistake but instead this time she reduced the poor girl to tears by her out burst of. "Get out! I'm only human, just like you! Go! Now! you make me sick to look at." The look on the girls face haunting her now as she had burst into tears apologising to her as she fled the room. The guilt was weighing heavily on her mind, as was her current situation. This had to stop, she'd have to find a way to get over this.

Jane waited patiently for the elevator to arrive. The pending conversation she was currently planning out in her head had been foremost on her mind all day. Taking a deep breath she stepped into the small space and pressed the down button, her mind recalling the last real conversation that they had, which actually didn't involve work. It had been two weeks ago she had called Maura to make sure she was alright and to let her know that her phone was near her if she needed her during the night. Maura had been calling her in the middle of the night, after she'd had nightmares involving her ordeal with Denis. This had been a twice weekly thing since she was nearly taken to her death with him. The nightmares usually consisted of Jane not saving her and Denis taking her with him as they fell, her looking up to see the horror on Jane's face as she was falling backwards down a never-ending tunnel.

Jane was no novice when it came to nightmares, her plight with Hoyt had made sure her nightmares were usually about him, so she didn't mind the frantic calls in the middle of the night where she would talk her friend down, listening patiently as she was replayed yet another dream about falling to her death. Jane had been glad that she could repay the favour for all the times Maura had helped her, so was sad when the calls stopped suddenly.

For nearly two whole weeks Maura had been avoiding her. The refusals to go for lunch dates, drinks in the robber, film night at hers. At first she'd thought that Maura had just needed time to get over what had happened to her, but now after hearing that she had made one of her young interns cry...yes cry, Maura the sweetest, kindest woman she had ever met, had reduced the poor girl to a quivering wreck and Jane had had enough, she wanted her friend back. Exiting the lift she took confident strides to the autopsy room, determined to get to the bottom of the problem.

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Maura was sat at her desk as she entered the office. Her face fixed on the screen as she typed out a report. There was a pause before she actually looked up to see her, before quickly looking back at her screen, her body language giving away that she was uncomfortable having the detective there.

"Jane...this really isn't a good time, I'm up to my..."

The words died on her lips as she squealed and tried to grip on to the desk as Jane spun her chair around and pinned her shoulders to the back as she searched her face.

"Talk to me Maur', I know something's wrong."

Maura shifted uneasily in the chair, well aware of how close the detective was to her, who if she admitted to herself had been foremost in her dreams of late. Glancing down away from her searching eyes she came face to face with her chest and felt the blood rush to her core at the sight of that tight white tank that was clinging to her slender frame, the perfect exoskeleton that she had been avoiding was standing straight in her view.

Trying to muster up what little she had left of her voice she gave her a small nervous smile, she knew her avoidance tactic wouldn't be able to last, she was surprised she'd gotten away with it for this long. "Jane..please. I'll be fine. Honestly." This must have been true she thought as she didn't feel any hives forming on her chest and neck. Giving Jane another small smile she tried to sit up and force Jane to remove her hands that had pinned her in place.

Jane smiled back keeping her in place with one hand as she grabbed another chair and sat straight in front of her, her long legs trapping blonde's between her own and placing her hands on Maura's knees.

"No," she said shaking her head. "I know you Maur, something's up and I want to know what. Is it me?, did I do something wrong?." Her eyes scanned the face in front of her, seeing a look of shock pass over Maura's features as she shook her head slightly, her mouth opening and closing before she actually spoke.

Maura squirmed in her seat, she couldn't risk telling Jane what had happened that night on the phone, how could she tell her friend that as they had been talking that her hand had migrated down her body not even aware that she had begun caressing herself again, or the fact that Jane's groan as she reached over for what she can only presume was something on her night stand, made her voice deepen and sent her crashing into a climax at the primal groan in Jane's voice. Then that ever since that night she couldn't get Jane out of her head, her best friend Jane. Her only true friend if she was being honest.

The thought process she was having was stopped when Jane spoke again. "Talk to me, whatever I did, just let me fix it"

Maura's face blanked and she shook her head...oh what had she done?, looking up at Jane's concerned face she realised that she had unknowingly made Jane feel that this was her fault.

With a deep sigh she spoke. "It's nothing you've done wrong Jane. It's something I did. I'll be fine, I just have a few things to work out," she'd hoped that Jane would leave it at that but seeing the look on Jane's face she knew that she needed more of an explanation

Jane took hold of her hands, her thumbs caressing across smooth knuckles. "Just tell me Maur', whatever it is I want to know so that I can help. I know you, you're skirting around the truth."

Maura looked at her, that small frown, the concerned brown eyes staring at her own...sighing she gave in.."Okay...yes there is something that's bothering me, but if I tell you then it could spoil our friendship."

Her eyes softened as she looked at her friend. "Maura, there's nothing that you can say that will ruin anything, unless you really did kill small animals as a child," she squeezed her hands as she smiled and felt Maura squeeze back. "Just tell me."

Maura felt a rush of adrenalin as Jane caressed across her knuckles again and just blurted out what had been playing on her mind for two weeks. "I can't reach climax when I masturbate."

Jane dropped the hands immediately and looked at her friend in shock. "Well that's sooo not what I expected to hear," she said blushing slightly. "Why would that ruin our friendship though Maur?," she asked suddenly interested in as to why it had anything to do with her and their friendship

Maura took in her look of uneasiness, she knew Jane hated talking about sex of any kind. After a brief pause she shook her head. "Jane, we really don't need to talk about this, honestly I'm sure I'll be back to my usual self satisfying self again soon." Studying Jane's face she felt sure that this topic was now over. Wrong!

Jane looked at her for a few moments, thinking about what she would say. Yes she hated talking about sex, of any kind but imagining Maura trying to pleasure herself was an image she couldn't shake. "Erm...why can't you...er..well you know," she said nodding her head at her

"Climax...you mean Jane. It really isn't anything to be embarrassed about, pleasuring oneself is a natural thing, how else do we expect sexual partners to please us if we don't learn how to please ourselves... there's actually a scientific discovery that women are far more likely to achieve orgasm with a partner if they masturbate on a regular basis. The study.." the words where never finished as Jane interrupted her

"Stop with the google mouth Maur', I get that you're frustrated, you made your intern cry, but what I don't understand is why you've been avoiding me. What did I do wrong?." Brown eyes searched her face again waiting for the honey blonde to answer her, she could see the small frown forming as she tried to think of what to say.

After a few minutes of warring with herself Maura took Jane's hand between both of hers. "Jane, there's no easy way to say this, so I'll just say it, but please know that I value our friendship very much and although you mean more to me than anything I don't want this to come between us. So you need to promise me before I tell you."

"Now you're scaring me Maur', please I promise, just tell me."

Maura looked at her anxious face and swallowed slowly, giving herself a minute to compose herself. "You know how that when I've had a bad dream I've been phoning you"

Jane frowned. "Mmm yeah, have you stopped having dreams?, you haven't called in a while."

"No, the dreams are still there." Maura replied matter of factly with a small shake of her head

"But you haven't called me, why haven't you called me?."

"Jane, please let me finish before I lose the nerve," she gave a nervous smile. "The last time you phoned me, you caught me while I was enjoying some, " she searched for the words that would make Jane the least uncomfortable, "alone time," she hoped that Jane would catch on to what she meant so she could spare the embarrassment for her detective

"Oh," Jane said. "Oh," her eyes widened in realisation. "You mean you was," her head nodded again in the direction of the Dr's centre, "while we were talking, is that why you hung up?."

"Yes, Jane I don't know if you're aware but you have a very sexy voice when it's laden with sleep. It's very husky," Maura paused again, hoping that Jane may catch up with what she was saying. The realisation she saw on Jane's face when the penny dropped made her smile, then frown quickly.

"Eww, no Maura, you got yourself off to the sound of my voice...that's just...no..ewww." Her face scrunched up and she shook her head in disbelief.

Maura pulled her hands away as her cheeks blushed. "It just happened Jane. I wasn't deliberately keeping you on the line so I could climax, you must have reached for something and it made you sound so sexy...it just happened." Maura watched Jane stand and begin to pace the room, her fingers pinching the bridge of her nose as she shook her head again. "Jane you promised remember. This is why I didn't want to tell you. Why I've been keeping out of your way. I'm going cold chicken"

"Turkey, it's cold turkey Maur'." Jane said trying not to smile at her friends misquote

"So why have you been horrible to your interns?, this isn't like you Maura." Jane said finally looking over at her.

"Because, since that night I can't think of anything else and I can't climax. I've tried everything, all my usual toys haven't worked," she ignored the faces Jane was making and continued. "I've slept with four men in the last two weeks and none of them has satisfied me. I'm so frustrated that I can't seem to concentrate and I keep getting angry. I just keep thinking that if I can climax at least once then I might be able to get over this..." she waved her hands between them. "Infatuation, but the more I try the more I can't and... I...urgh I'm just so frustrated" she let out a soft sigh as she brought her hands up to her face, covering her features so Jane wouldn't see

Jane looked at her as she continued to pace the small office, seeing her anguish she decided to bite the bullet and ask the question. "So...okay, what can I do to help?."

Maura dropped her hands to her lap and looked at her detective. "Seriously Jane, you want to help me." A look of hope passed over her features. "I can think of several positions we could try off the top of my head." Two prominent dimples popped out in her cheeks as she stared up at her friend

"What...no, Maura, I'm not going to sleep with you," she pinched the bridge of her nose again, more to cover her embarrassment at the thought of the positions she'd like to try with her friend...her mind quickly reminding her that this was her friend, as she thought about what to do. "Look," she said after a few seconds of thinking. "Why don't I ring you tonight, say... after ten, when you're in bed and you can take it from there." Her cheeks coloured as Maura stood and pulled her into a hug, small arms wrapping firmly around her body and head resting on her shoulder

"Jane, thank you. Really that means a lot to me. Can I give you some things I'd like for you to say?," she said looking up searching out her eyes

"Are you inferring that I lack game Maura?." Jane replied raising an eyebrow to the challenge

"No, Jane... you have a wonderful athletic frame, I'm sure you're suited to many games."

Jane laughed at Maura's serious face deciding she would let that one slide. "Well thank you Dr Isles, I'll call you later, okay?."

Maura smiled her full dimpled smile again, pulling Jane's own dimples to her face before she headed out to the bull pen. This was going to be a long day, she thought as she hit the elevator button again.

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Maura laid patiently waiting for her phone to ring, she'd lit scented candles had a favourite cd playing softly in the background, her silk camisole felt luxuriously soft against her skin and her nipples were already hard at the expectation she was feeling. When the phone rang dead on ten Maura's heart started to beat faster, "Jane," her soft voice said with a hint of playfulness

"So before we start this, I just want to say a few things, set some rules sort of thing," Her voice sounded confident as she propped herself up against her pillows, the covers pulled up to her chest as she laid in her white vest top and pale grey boy shorts, the mis-matched colours just so uniquely Jane. "This is a one time thing, just so that you can stop being so...unlike you, okay?. Secondly, no one ever finds out about this, it's between me and you Maur', that means you don't get to talk about it to me either, like ever.."

"Jane is this really necessary?. What we do tonight will stay between us."

"Erm we?, Maura this is about you okay, it's not for me. I won't be... participating with you."

The blonde frowned, shifting her body so she was sitting a little higher in her bed, "Why won't you?,"

Maura's question took her by surprise the only response being a child like "because, okay?."

"No, I don't understand. You are just going to talk dirty to me and not touch yourself?," it just didn't seem right somehow. Yes she had thought that Jane may have some feelings towards her, especially as it was the detectives idea to do this, but now hearing this she didn't quiet know what to think.

"Yes, er no. Jeez Maur', just let it go and focus okay. This is about you, now how do we do this?." The tone in her voice relaying just how nervous she was becoming

"Well I'd like to start, to set the scene that I want. Then I will describe an action I'm doing to you, and you will tell me your reaction and so forth." The excitement in her voice making it sound a higher pitch than usual.

"Okay, I can do that," Jane was relieved when Maura suggested that she would start, she had no experience in this sort of thing and her confidence had dropped since she heard the excitement in her best friends voice. What if she wasn't any good and Maura was left feeling worse than before?. These thoughts where still going around her head as Maura's voice pulled her out of it

"Jane..I said," *Stands in front of you looking up into your big brown eyes, my fingers playfully tugging at the tips of your soft hair, straining my neck to place a soft kiss on your lips.*

Jane thought for a moment...*kisses you back*

Maura laughed, "Jane, you can't just say kisses you back, I need to know how you'd do it, describe it to me, describe what you're doing"

"Jesus Maura, Can't you just fill those bits in yourself?"

"If you don't want to do this Jane we don't have to," she waited a few seconds, she could picture Jane's face thinking over what she had just said and hearing Jane's sigh she was sure that Jane was going to call the whole thing off.

"Okay, just give me a second Maur'," I can do this, she thought as she pondered on what to say. *Leans down to kiss your lips, my hand reaching behind your neck to pull you towards me as the other holds on to your hip,* she smiled to herself, this actually wasn't that bad.

"Mmm." *Gasps as our lips touch for the first time, sucking the bottom one into my mouth, sliding my tongue over it's plumpness as I let it go and pull you closer to me, devouring your lips with my own as my hands rest over your heart against your chest*

Closing her eyes Jane smiled and imagined Maura's mouth on hers, the way she thought that Maura would kiss was actually pretty much the way she was describing to her, but Jane was going to lead this dance now. *I slow the kiss down, my tongue slipping in to play against your own, mouths opening and closing against each others, hands caressing your hip and neck as I yet again deepen it, while walking you backwards till you hit the edge of the sofa* she smiled to herself as she heard Maura say her name

"Jane," Maura said on a whisper, her lips tingling at the thought of Jane's mouth on hers. *I break the kiss and start to undo the buttons on your shirt, one by one, slowly watching you, looking into your eyes as I slide it down over strong shoulders, thumbs tracing the skin as it slips down your arms and off your fingers, then sliding my hands under your vest to stroke against your skin, thumbs brushing the underside of your breasts as my mouth latches onto your collarbone and begins to kiss and lick up to your neck* her eyes closed and she touched her own neck, lips curling into a smile as she brushed her fingertips over the spot she'd just kissed on Jane

Jane felt the heat rise in her face, the gentle throb below was unexpected when she started this, she had no idea that Maura's words would make her feel like this, in fact she had no idea that this would be like this at all, she had thought that she'd just talk about something and that Maura would take care of herself, but now she was actually doing this she was determined that she was going to do her best to get her worked up. *Pulls my vest over my head, then takes your face in my hands as I start to kiss you again, my hands moving down to cup against your breasts, kneading them with the palms of my hands tracing my thumbs across and around your nipples through the material of your dress. Snaking one hand behind to unzip you with one fluid movement, then sliding it off your shoulders to land in a heap on the floor.*

Jane chuckled to herself as she knew that Maura would want to stop and pick up said imaginary dress and hang it so it didn't crease.

Maura smiled at the image she could almost feel the material sliding down her skin and pooling at her feet. It'd be one of her good designer dresses...ooh maybe the black one that Jane seemed to like her in the last time she wore it and those new heels she had yet to wear out, she thought. *I kick it away from my feet, my hands tugging at your belt, loosening it till I can get to your button and pop it open, sliding my hand inside the top of your panties, letting the tips of my fingers feel those tight curls pushing through your folds and parting you to slip down further, teasing your entrance, then drawing your own essence back up to circle your bundle of nerves.* Maura closed her eyes and bit her lip as she slid her hand inside her camisole bottoms, the silk sliding over soft knuckles as her finger slid down the full length of her core, she had never been so wet before. Taking a moment to play in it, before pushing a finger inside herself easily, only to then pull it out and slide it up to the centre of the ache she was feeling. Her soft moan escaping into the phone as she continued to touch herself.

Jane closed her eyes, her face reddening as her centre began to ache. The way Maura's words pulled up the images of her tugging at the belt, knowing that her body would be moving with each pull, making her lose balance and grip her shoulders, the small frown that Maura would have on her face, maybe she'd bite at her lip a little as she concentrated at the task at hand. The deep throb made itself known again and she closed her legs tightly trying to ignore that her core was now pulsing at the same rate as her heart

Maura realised that at this rate it would take seconds before she would climax, she could already feel the deep coil beginning inside, the fluttering inside building up higher, she gave in to her own need as she plunged two fingers in deep, curling towards her gspot as her palm massaged against her clit, Jane's voice raspy with it's own need echoing around Maura's head as she cried out Jane's name and went loudly over the edge, her core pulling her fingers inside deeper as it pulsed and throbbed, squeezing tightly around her digits as they continued to massage deep inside, drawing out every bit of pleasure she could take.

Jane gasped out loud as she heard Maura's orgasm hit her. The sensation between her legs growing even stronger, as she slipped her left hand down, pushing inside the cotton boy shorts, the evidence of what Maura's words had said becoming apparent as she played in her own wetness. Fingers playing a slow beat as she rubbed around her swollen nub. Her hips rocking up to meet her fingers as they slid up and down, hitting it on both the up and down stroke. Maura's heavy breaths sending her over the edge quickly, releasing her breath through her gritted teeth as she tried her best to be quiet. Her thought process being that she didn't want to end this phone call as she was still wanting more. It may be the only way she'd ever get to touch her friend and she was damned if it was ending this quickly.

*Arches into your touch, before laying you back on the sofa, my body laying over yours and hands holding on to your thighs as they wrap around me. Slowly I begin to roll my hips towards you. Kissing my way up your stomach, my hands squeezing your breasts, teeth nipping at your soft flesh before taking a nipple into my mouth, my tongue swirling around it, teasing it to a hard point.*

"God Jane...I," she was silenced again by Jane's voice as her body began to hum again, her centre throbbing with want

"Ssh Maur'," *Hands travel up slender hips to your ribs, caressing your sides as my kisses trail back down your stomach, licking, biting, sucking, only stopping to circle your belly button before dipping my tongue inside, eyes staring up at you, as I move lower, my arms wrapping around and over your legs as I kiss your hip bones and settle between your thighs. My eyes watching you as I make the first swipe of my tongue the full length of your core*

Maura groaned raising her hips to the fingers that were still inside herself, moving against her own hand, feeling the muscles start to burn in her wrist at the angle she was at. *Raises hips to meet your face, urging you to do it again*..."Fuck me Jane," Maura crashed over the edge again, her loud curse word still echoing in her head, her inner walls collapsing in on themselves, clenching, throbbing deep inside as her heart raced and the phone dropped out of her hand and to the floor with a thud. "Jane...oh god... Jane..." she gasped out as she slowly started to come down from the intensity of her orgasm.

Jane felt her second orgasm approaching and pushed inside herself, her body trembling as she moaned out Maura's name into her empty room, her long fingers hitting the sweet spot inside that sent her into an earth shattering spasm, the pulse racing through her core, that deep sensual throb not subsiding, making her body arch off the bed.

Maura recovered enough to retrieve her phone, her breathing still hard as she heard Jane calling out her name. The sound of that raspy tone making her realise that she would be ruined for anyone else from now on. "Jane...Jane," she said loudly, smiling as she heard Jane's heavy breathing still on the line. "I'm unlocking the door, use your siren." A smug look formed on her face as she ended the call and poured out a glass of wine which she had waiting in an ice bucket on the bedside table, taking a quick sip then looking at the beer she had waiting for Jane she smiled. Her plan had worked, she knew Jane was more than interested in her when she agreed to do this. All those subtle touches, eye glances that they had shared over the years had made her realise that they had always been more than just friends

The sound of Maura calling her name had quickly made her body react and she was up and pulling clothing on grabbing keys and slamming a door shut. The siren being flicked on the moment her key was in the ignition. This night was going to end the way she had secretly always wanted. The way it was meant to be, in the arms of her only true love.

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