Promise Me

Tis a song-fic with a hint of death. So, I wrote this for a song(mentioned at the end) Just head to type something sad!

Have you ever felt like you had just lost something so important to you, that you had lost all drive to do live? I sure have. I Lucy Heartilia lost something more important to life itself. Something I thought I had, and always will have, was actually someone else's. So that's why I'm here today, standing on this ledge, staring down at Magnolia, telling you my sad story that I thought was perfect like a fairy tale. The day I met him, the day he stole me from my bad beginning in life, the day he took me to the best family I could ever ask for, the day he stole my heart. I was absolutely sure i stole his. The way he would smile at me, the way he would come over at ungodly times just to see me, or the way he would do anything humanly possible to keep me alive not caring for his well being.
I guess he didn't really love me the way I loved him. I was so sure! But she came back. Sure I liked her, honestly we were so close I would consider her my sister. He began to be around her, he stopped smiling at me, stopped coming over, eventually stopped taking me on missions. Sure he would say hey to me, have small chat with me whenever Lisanna and I were together.
Natsu, his name is Natsu. The idiotic dense pink haired fire dragon slayer who I thought loved me. Apparently I thought wrong. The day after lisanna came back from the dead, they both walked through those guild doors, hand in hand. My heart shattered.

The guild doors burst open. Everyone turned their hands to see who caused such a ruckus. "Yo minna!" Natsu Dragneels voice rang through the guild. I perked up from my seat at the bar hearing his call. I turned around, with a big smile. My face slowly went into a deep frown. Lisanna was standing next to him, really close to him, with their hands intwined. I blinked, fighting back a cry of anguish.
"Guess what! Natsu and I are dating!" Lisanna yelled out happily, hugging natsu closer.
There it goes, my hopes and dreams right out the window. So he never liked me. All those signs, lies. I took a deep breath, holding a hand over my chest, trying to stop the hurting sensation in my heart.
I put on a fake smile seeing Natsu make his was towards me. "Lucy! Did you here?" He grinned, his big famous grin that would make my day. Now it just feels empty. I nodded fighting my tears. "Congratulations." I said blankly, giving him a friendly hug. Not like I use to do. I hugged lisanna aswell.
"When did you start?" I asked, I have no clue why though. "Just last night." Lisanna replies with a smile. "That's... Great!" I smile the best I could. "Yup!" Natsu yelled, pulling lisanna into a hug, kissing her on the lips.
Fuck. There went my sanity. Tears started pouring out my eyes before I could stop myself. He turned to me looking at me concerned. "Luce?" He asked. No. Not that nickname. I let out a sob I couldn't control. Causing everyone to tern towards us. "P-please don't c-call me that anymore." I whispered, wiping my eyes the best I could. He gave me a confused look. "Lucy what's wrong?" Lisanna asked, holding onto my sholders. I shook my head slowly. Looking up with a smile "it's nothing! I have something in my eye. That's all." I began to walk away. "I got something to do, see you later." I said waving half heartedly.
"Lu-chan..." I herd levy say. She knew about my crush for him. Sympathy etched her face. I shook my head, giving her a reassuring smile before exiting the guild. I didn't go to the guild until a couple months after that.

Three years past now, I'm at the ledge like I told you before. I forgot to mention, it's Natsu's and lisannas wedding day. A lone tear escapes my eye, then another, and another until it was out right sobbing. Why couldn't it be me? Why did I have to fall so damn hard for him? Just...
"Why?!" I screamed out in a sob. I stand here crying for about 30 minutes before I calm down, hearing steps behind me.

"Luce? Why are you crying?" I laughed silently to myself. I turned my head to face the voice. "I thought I told you to not call me that again Natsu." I said. "Sorry, it's a habit. So why are you crying?" He asked again walking to stand beside me. By now the sun was setting. What a perfect time to do this. I smiled softly.
"Do you know how bad it hurts to lose something you never really had?" I asked Natsu. He looked at me confused. "No.. Why?" He asked. I smiled softly. "Of course you don't." I whispered softly. We stayed silent for a good 5 minutes before I spoke again.
"Natsu. Promise me to think of us, as a time so beautiful?" I said, stepping closer to the ledge. "Yes, of course Lucy." He said.
"Promise me to think of us, still bright, still colorful?" I asked. Getting a little close to the edge. I herd natus shift uneasily. "Yeah I will. What are you doing?" Natus asked, a hint of awareness I'm his voice. My feet now at the edge I turned my head to see his face one last time. "Natsu, your my best friend right?" I asked, a tear falling down my face. He smiled his big toothy grin I love the most. Just what i want to see before I leave. "Yeah!" He laughed. "Great. Promise me one more thing." I said. Turning to face him completely. His smile dropped, finally getting what I was doing. "No.. Wait Lucy!" He yelled, walking closer to me.
"Promise me to look back at us, as a time in your life, you enjoyed." I said beginning to fall backwards closing my eyes. "Lucy!" He screamed running to me as I fell.
I opened my eyes one last time, to see Natsu, tears running down his face reaching out to me. "Don't cry. Smile." I whispered. Closing my eye one last time, seeing the smiling face of my best friend... The love of my life.

I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something you never really had.

- song -

Into the fire on my own. I know I won't see your face again. Hey.
Are you sitting there alone, hey-ya-hey. Are you thinking like me, of the laughing times.
Or all the sad and loving times?
Everything that's left of us is fading away!

Promise me to think of us, as a time so beautiful
Promise me to think of us, still bright, still colorful
Promise me to look back at us, as a time in your life, you enjoyed

Surrounded by flames everywhere. What I used to be, and not even there
The absence of you is killing me, hey-ya-hey. Are you thinking like me, of the laughing times,
Or all the sad and loving times?
Everything that's left of us is fading away!

Promise me to think of us, as a time so beautiful
Promise me to think of us, still bright, still colorful
Promise me to look back at us, as a time in your life you enjoyed

(Promise me, promise me) I will be fine without you
(Promise me, promise me) There's more in my life to see you
(Promise me, promise me) I will be fine without you
(Promise me, promise me) There's more in my life to see you

(Can you promise me?) to see you
(Can you promise me?)

Promise me to think of us, of a time so beautiful (so beautiful)
Promise me to think of us, still bright, still colorful (still colorful)
Promise me to look back at us, as a time in your life you enjoyed

Promise me to think of us, as a time so beautiful (so beautiful)
Promise me to think of us, still bright, still colorful (still colorful)
Promise me to look back at us, as a time in your life you enjoyed.

XOXOXOXO

so... Did you cry o.o I hope not. Cuz I sure as hell teared up a bit, and I was typing this! Lol so yeah the song his Promise Me by Dead By April