OK ok Ok im back again

i feel really bad im sorry.

Ok well i know its getting kinda boring with depressing Cammie but she blmes everything on herself and is shutting herself off away from everyone as a kinda punishment to herself.

Yeah it wont last that long it'll plunge really bad but Zach will come and save her ass like always and ZAMMIE will happen.

Yep so review and stuff.

CAMMIE POV

I walked into the library and sat in a dark corner pulling my phone out and putting my earphones in. I put the volume higher until i couldnt hear anything apart from the music, then i pulled out my book 'Torment'. After a while i realised i wasnt concentrating on the book anymore i was listening to the lyrics.

'Cause i cant take anymore. Ill draw the shades and close the door. Everythings not alright and i would rather...

I had recently became obsessed with a band called Pierce the Veil the song was called Hold on till may.

It was about a girl her parent didnt give a shit about her and i guess she was suicidal but he cared about her and tried to help her but in the end she kind off just gave up and it doesnt finish the line above but i guess die would go there.

This love was out of control, 3-2-1 where did it go.

I could relate to that bit alot i loved Zach more than anything but the feeling was no longer mutual.

I felt so stupid for falling for him for letting him in for trusting him with my thoughts and i guess i only had myself to blame, i had heard about him and how he was a player but i still fell for him, still believed that maybe i was different.

But now hes in fucking hospital and its all my fault.

I haven't told anyone this but sometimes i wish i had different parents that i didnt have the famous Mathew Morgan for a dad so the circle wouldnt be after me so i could just live a normal life, without all this bullshit. I would have a boyfriend that wouldnt know how to kill people. I would go to a normal school and only worry about my grades and getting a normal job. Then i would grow old and wouldnt have to worry about my kids being stalked by a psycho group wanting to kill them.

The next song came on, 30 second to mars.

What if i wanted to break, laugh it all of in your face. What would you do? What if i fell to the floor couldn't take this anymore.

I honestly felt like that ALOT. Everyone would always talk about the famous Cammie Morgan and how i was so strong NO i wasnt im just another teenage girl that couldnt grieve for her dad properly and was then shoved into a world that made me feel like i couldnt have emotions and that i had to be perfect because of my parents.

I guess it finally got to me i had finally broke.

Im not okay i promise

Zach POV

Cammie hadnt visited me yet today and it was starting to get dark outside so i started to think maybe she wont.

Everyone else had come and seen me even some people i didnt know came to see if i was ok.

Currently only Bex was here.

"Have you seen Cammie today?" She asked, i bet i looked like one of those loved up wierdos.

"Um no not yet, have you seen her? Is she okay?" I asked worried about her.

"I dont know i saw her this morning she ran out i guessed she was coming to visit you but apparently not." She frowned, "She didnt go to see Macey either, Grants really worried about her and so am i now."

"She thinks its her fault doesnt she?" I said, "She needs to realise shutting herself away from everyone isnt going to help her."

"Well shes going to carry on doing it isnt she."

"Shes so frustrating." I said, rubbing my forehead.

"Hey dont do that your going to make your head worse." Bex said, sitting on my bed and pulling my hands away from me. She was holding them down. I felt someone staring at me and looked up and saw Cammie, she smiled sadly at me and walked away.

"CAMMIE." I shouted trying to get her to come back. What was wrong with her.

"Bex go get Cam please please." I pleaded with Bex i had to see Cammie.

"You owe me." She said and got up running after Cammie.

Bex POV

I ran down the corridor and reached out and grabbed Cammies arm. She flinched jumped away.

"Hey its just me Bex." I said soothingly. She turned around and looked at me her eyes looked to big for her head.

"Are you okay?" I asked, she nodded.

"Well Zach just sent me to get you, he really wants to see you." I said softly, her eyebrows furrowed together,

"I cant sorry." She whispered, un tucking her hair from behind her ear.

"He really misses you." I said trying to get her to look at me but she looked anywhere but at me.

"Does he?" She said plainly, "Im sorry but im really busy maybe later." She lied it was so obvious she was lying, there were all the signs but i didnt say anything.

"Come on Cam please for 10 seconds, youve barely seen him since he woke up." She looked down and then looked me in the eye her eyes wide,

"I havent have i?" She said combing her hand through her hair. "Ok ill go see him now." She said. I smiled triumphantly.

"Tell him ill see him later ok." She nodded and started walking back to the hospital.

Zach POV

I waited for what felt like forever and finally there was a quiet knock on the door,

"Come in." I said, and Cammie walked in her hair over her face.

"Hi." She whispered and she door closed behind her.

"Cammie." I smiled. She looked up at me her eyebrows furrowed briefly but then she smiled back at me, it was only small but it made my day so much better.

"How are you feeling?" She said,

"Im good, ive just really missed you." Her eyes widened a little at that bit and her small smile vanished.

"Thats nice." She said, and looked around at my room. Thats when i saw she had earphones in. Oh.

"Are you okay?" I asked, i said reaching for her hand. She suddenly jerked her hand up and played with her hair. Well i felt stupid i sat back letting my hand fall back on the bed.

"Im fine." She said, "Im sorry but im busy so i have to go." She said and quickly walked out.

Ok well if anyone actually still reads this can you just like leave a review or something.

It would be appreciated :)

Hope your all good x