I breathed in, then I breathed out – slowly. It was still a shock to me what I was about to do. It felt like it wasn't real, and I felt like I would wake up at any moment and realize that this was a dream. But as I saw the dark blue convertible pull up to my house, I knew it was real.

I, Sora, was about to cheat on my girlfriend, Kairi, with my best friend, Riku.

Riku, Kairi and I have known each other since we were little; Riku and I since I was five and he was six, then we met Kairi about two years later. The three of us were always together, until around high school started. Riku was popular and good at everything he did, so he started hanging out with the other popular kids. Kairi was also pretty popular, but she and I still talked all the time. As for me, I was the normal kid that no one hated, but no one necessarily loved either – at least that's how I felt. I wasn't the super smart kid, I wasn't the emo kid, I wasn't the stupid kid – I was just Sora.

Kairi and I started going out a couple of months ago. According to a mutual friend of ours, Selphie, she's been dying for me to ask her out for years. She when Selphie told me this, I asked Kairi out. I loved Kairi, but not in the way that most people might think. I saw her more as a sister than anything else, but people – including her – thought that I was in love with her.

There was a time when we were younger that I did have a crush on her, but that hadn't lasted for very long. It was probably around when Riku and I first met her, and I had thought she was the prettiest girl I had ever seen; actually, I still felt that way. Kairi was absolutely stunning, but I just couldn't feel that way about her.

I was about ten when I realized I was gay. And even though I say that I'm gay, I'm not really sure that I am. I know that the person I want is a boy, which is why I consider myself gay. But I don't like guys, I just like one and it's Riku.

Even when Riku ditched me to be popular, I was still in love with him. I knew I didn't have a chance – I had always known, but it didn't stop me from loving him as much as I did. He and I would talk when we had classes together, though we never had many. But with those classes, it always felt like the old days, when Riku and I were best friends and nothing mattered except us.

And now, here he was, pulling up to my house. We were going to his house, since he'd be home alone for the whole weekend, and my parents were home the whole weekend.

"Hey Sora," he said, getting out of his car with a perfect smirk on his face.

"H-Hey, Riku," I said, smiling at him. I couldn't help it. He was Riku – he was my weakness, and no one could replace him in my heart. As much as I wanted and tried to replace him with Kairi, it was impossible.

And when Riku told me that he was gay, it made my world spin and I no longer wanted to replace him with Kairi.

"Riku," I said his name, looking at him straight in the eyes. I was about to tell him something that I had been wanting him to know for the better part of ten years.

"What is it?" he asked me. His eyes looked at me curiously.

"I...I'm in love with you." And there it was, out in the open.

Riku didn't say anything. He just stood there, his eyes wide as he looked at me. I only looked down, not able to look at him as he looked at me.

It felt like hours had passed by, but it was probably only seconds. That's when I felt a finger underneath my chin, pushing my face up and I looked straight up to Riku. His eyes weren't filled with shock now, but with something else – something I couldn't read. However, I didn't get a long look at them because that's when Riku pressed his lips to mine.

It was slow, soft and perfect. His lips pressed to mine and I pressed back, unable to stop myself. I had wanted to do this for so long, so even if it was one kiss, I was glad I got to have it.

It was short, but it was wonderful, and I knew my cheeks were red.

He had asked me if I wanted to spend the weekend at his house, and I told him I would. It wasn't a hard question to answer.

His smirk was still on his face as he walked up to me. Riku was a good foot taller than me, so I always had to look up at him when he stood in front of me. Even when we were younger, he had always been taller.

"Ready?" His voice was deep and it practically hypnotized me.

"Yep," I said, grinning up at him.

We got into his car and headed off to his house. I still remembered the way, too.

"You won't regret this, will you?" he asked me. I looked over at him, but he was focused on the road.

I smiled. "I could never regret anything I do with you."

He didn't look at me, but I could see his smile. "Good."

We arrived at his house ten minutes later. It was just a little bigger than mine, but it was in the nicer part of Destiny Islands. His parents were really rich, and the reason he was home alone a lot of the time was because they wanted to continue being rich. Although I remember Riku hating it when we were younger, he didn't seem to care much anymore.

"I wonder how much your room has changed since I last saw it," I said, grinning wide as we walked up to his door.

He pulled out his key, unlocked it, then opened it and let me in first. "How long has it been, anyway?"

A part of me felt sad that he didn't remember how long it has been since I'd been to his house, but I shook away the thought. "Last time I was here was on your birthday, freshman year," I told him, smiling happily as I always did.

It was quick, but it looked like a pained expression passed over his face. "Has it really been that long?"

"Heh, yeah..." I said softly. I hated how long it had been since we were best friends. Even though we talked in the two classes we shared together, it still wasn't like how it used to be.

"I'm sorry, Sora," he said softly. He had been forgiven a long time ago. "I just...I lost sight of everything-"

"It's okay, Riku," I told him, and I meant it.

"No it's not, Sora."

I sighed, before looking around his house. It had definitely changed, but it still had the same vibe around it. "I got used to not being your best friend anymore, Riku. So it's fine."

Before I knew it, I felt myself being grabbed and I was soon pressed against a body, Riku's body. He was hugging me and I had to stop myself from gasping. His arms were wrapped around my waist, tight.

"I'm so sorry, Sora," he said softly, his voice muffled in my hair. I felt his lips pressed to the top of my head and I shuddered.

For the first time in a long time, I let myself cry over Riku. I cried for him abandoning me, for leaving me to be with the populars. I cried for him letting me be with Kairi and forcing me into the situation of trying to replace him, even though I had always known it was impossible.

"Why did you do it, Riku?" I sobbed, though holding back as much as I could. My hands reached out and I grabbed onto the front of his jacket, squeezing it tightly.

"I don't know, Sora," he told me, crushing me closer to him. He knew I was crying and I knew he was trying to make me feel better.

We stayed like that for probably five minutes, before he started to pull away, but I wouldn't let him. I made sure he stayed close to me.

He chuckled. "I'm not going anywhere, Sora," he said, looking down at me. "I just wanna' look at you."

I nuzzled my face into his chest. "You'll just see a very red Sora."

He chuckled again and I could guarantee he was smirking. "A very red Sora is a very cute Sora."

My cheeks burned with his words, but I looked up at him anyway. My eyes met with his and I felt lost in that instant.

He kissed me then. It was similar to our first kiss, but this one wasn't sweet for long. I felt his tongue run along my bottom lip and I shuddered again. My mouth opened up for his tongue and I groaned the second I felt our tongues meet. It was magic and I wanted more.

I didn't know when it happened, but I soon felt a wall at my back and then Riku's kisses all of a sudden getting more aggressive, more powerful. Our tongues fought for dominance, but I eagerly let him dominate me. My personality was much more submissive anyway, and Riku was practically built for dominance.

His tongue ravaged my mouth, and I let him do whatever he wanted. He sucked on my tongue, bit my lip and it merely made me groan in his mouth. But soon, I felt his hands that had been on my back lower and tentatively land on my butt. He was hesitant and it was the most endearing thing in the world to me.

I pressed my butt into his hands, letting him know that I didn't mind. In that moment, his hands then grabbed my ass and I merely groaned in his mouth again. Whatever he did to me felt great and I simply wanted – no, needed – more.

"Riku," I moaned out softly against his lips, which seemed to turn him on more because suddenly he picked me up. "R-Riku?" I asked, still against his lips.

His breath was heavy. "My room," was all he said, before his tongue was again ravaging my mouth.

We reached his room in seconds and he walked me over to his bed, where I suddenly realized that he was on top of me. Our lips were no longer connected, and we were just staring at each other.

"Are you sure?" he asked me.

I nodded. "I've been sure for a long time."

He smiled, before he leaned down and kissed me once again. His tongue was immediately in my mouth and of course, I didn't stop him. His arms were on either side of my head, while his lower half straddled me.

The way he kissed me made the world fall away and made me feel like I was on cloud nine. There was nothing but Riku and me, and that's how I wanted my world to be like. Nothing else mattered when I was with him – hell, even when we're apart, nothing matters to be except Riku. He meant everything to me. And having him on top of me, kissing me, knowing that we're going to have sex...it was the most amazing feeling I had ever known.

His lips moved down, going to my neck and I eagerly arched my neck to his mouth when I felt him nibbling it. Before long, he was biting on it and sucking it, probably creating a very large hickey. But I didn't mind in the least. If he wanted to claim me as his, he could, and he could make it as obvious as he wanted.

"Riku," I groaned out, arching my body into his. His groan was deep and husky and it turned me on even more.

He pulled away from me, and while I was about to whine, I stopped as I saw him pulling off his jacket, followed by his shirt. My eyes grew wide as I saw his shirtless form. I had seen him like this numerous times, like when we were kids or when we were both in the locker room for P.E. However, I had never seen his naked chest this close before, and it was all I could do to not drool.

"Like what you see?" he asked. I could hear the smirk in his voice, but I honestly didn't care. How could I not like his body? He had a six pack, but it was bulging out and disgusting. Riku was lean and muscular, and his body was absolutely perfect.

I nodded to his question.

"Your turn now." The smirk was still in his voice.

I finally tore my eyes from his body. "Uhh..." I didn't want to take my shirt off. Compared to his body, I was extremely thin.

"Come on, Sora," he said, his voice taunting now.

I was about to retort, but I felt his hands suddenly on the bare skin of my belly. His fingertips had reached underneath my shirt, then slowly moved up, moving my shirt along with his hands. I gulped as I let him pull my shirt off completely, tossing it in a random direction.

He stared at my body like I had stared at his, only I'm sure his wasn't in awe.

"You're so beautiful, Sora," he said, his voice soft.

My cheeks burned once again at his words and I had to look away. I was too embarrassed.

He merely chuckled, but didn't say anything. I gasped out as I felt him nip my collarbone, and I looked down to see his silver hair, covering his beautiful face as I felt his tongue, teeth and lips go after my collarbone. And it didn't take him long to go further down.

When his lips reached my nipple, that's when I full out moaned. I couldn't help it as his teeth and tongue teased me beyond belief. My body arched into him and I groaned more, louder. I could feel his lips form a smirk against my nipple, but I was in too much ecstasy to care.

He switched to my other nipple and I moaned out again. His hands caressed my upper body, teasing and pressing down in various spots, but it all felt good to me.

It didn't take him long to find the button on my pants, and when he did, I immediately arched into his fingers.

"Someone's eager," he told me, his lips moving away from my nipple as he looked up at me.

"Well yeah..." I said, before looking away from him. I was too embarrassed.

He chuckled. "You're so cute, Sora."

My cheeks became redder and I knew that I would be read for however long this lasted. Riku just had that kind of effect on me; whether it was a good thing or a bad thing, I was still debating.

He undid the button, before zipping down the zipper. I felt him pull down my pants, and I lifted my butt so it would be easier for him to remove them. When he was done, I realized he had taken down my boxers as well.

My body shivered as I looked at him looking at me; he eyed me with lust and I think I hardened even more from that thought.

A louder moan escaped me when his hand grasped my cock.

"Riku," I moaned out, arching immediately into his hand.

"Yes?" he asked, his voice teasing. His mouth had gone back to my neck, where it nibbled, sucked and licked. It was a total overdrive to my senses and it was hard to think, much less talk.

"More," I groaned out, arching into his hand again.

"Oh yes Sora, much more."

He kissed his way down my body, and when he got to the bottom of my belly, I realized what he was about to do. But before I could protect, I felt a long lick against my cock. A loud groan escaped me this time and I couldn't stop myself from arching into him. His mouth took in my head, his tongue licking it all around as he sucked on it.

"Riku," I breathed out.

I felt him smirk, before he took more of me in. I groaned again as he did this, trying to control myself from thrusting into his mouth. It felt too good to be real and I could only imagine what sex with him would be like.

It seemed almost easy to him when he took in the rest of me. I mean yeah, I wasn't the biggest, but I definitely wasn't the smallest. But, he took my whole cock in as if it was easy, and from all the stories I had heard, doing that wasn't the easiest thing to do.

I didn't dwell on that for very long, though. He was sucking on me, licking me and even scraped his teeth against me, which surprisingly felt really good. I groaned throughout all of this, as he sucked and as he pumped me with his mouth. It felt like he was trying to milk my cock with his mouth and I was doing whatever I could so I wouldn't cum so quickly. But it was Riku, and I was in his mouth! It was a miracle I hadn't cum just from him kissing me.

"Riku..." I groaned out again. "I can't...last...I..." Another groan. "I'm about...to..."

He suddenly sucked harder than he had before and I saw white. I came in his mouth and I couldn't hold it, no matter how hard I tried. But as I watched him, of what I could see since it was hard to keep my eyes open, he swallowed it easily. He swallowed everything that came from me and it was making me even hotter somehow.

He slowly removed his mouth from my cock, probably trying to tease me even more than he already was. And it was definitely working.

I groaned as he removed his mouth from me, and I knew I was breathing hard. However, as I looked up at Riku, my eyes half open, he was smiling at me. Not smirking, but an actual smile. It was nice.

"You sure you're ready for more?"

Although I thought it was fairly obvious how much I wanted Riku, I couldn't help but think how much I loved that he kept asking it.

"I'm ready for whatever you're willing to give me," I told him softly, looking right into his eyes.

He breathed harshly. "Damn, Sora," he said, the lust in his eyes growing. "You make it impossible to resist you."

"Good. I don't want you to resist me."

His smirk was back, and soon, so was his mouth on mine. I eagerly kissed him back, not minding that I could taste myself on his tongue.

Suddenly, he got up and I felt my eyes widen. Why the hell was he getting up? I noticed him go into the bathroom then, and I was suddenly even more confused. But then, he brought out a bottle – and it said the word 'Lube' on it. I then knew why he had gotten up.

How long has he had that, I wonder.

I shook away my thoughts as he got back in top of me, opening the bottle, squirting some of the lube onto his fingers, before setting it down on his nightstand. He looked at me for a moment, before his lips descended upon mine once again and I felt his hand go towards my ass. I lifted it up to make it easier for him, and I felt one of his fingers probe my entrance, before it slowly went inside.

My eyes were already closed from our kissing, but I squeezed them closed as I felt his finger inside of me. It hurt, but I knew it wouldn't be for long. And when it no longer hurt, I rocked myself against his finger, wanting him to go deeper in.

He kissed me deeper, probably trying to distract me from what he was doing to my lower half. I didn't mind of course, and I even felt brave enough to bite his lower lip, pulling it into my mouth. It seemed as though he liked that, because he was suddenly kissing me harder and his finger was going even deeper inside of me, before he shoved in the second finger.

I groaned as I felt the second finger, in pain and pleasure – but more pain. It hurt bad, but I wouldn't let Riku realize just how much. I wanted this, so bad, and I didn't want to risk him stopping. And I knew it would go away eventually, but it would just take longer.

Riku's fingers pushed inside me just as his tongue pushed inside me and it was making me crazy. Even with the pain, the fact that Riku was touching me like this was driving me nuts and made me want only more.

When the pain in my ass started to subside, I sucked on Riku's tongue and groaned into his mouth at how good it felt to have him inside of me. He put in his third finger then, what I assumed was the last. It hurt of course, but it surprisingly didn't take too long to adjust to it, and I was eagerly bucking against it as he thrust it inside of me.

He removed his fingers then, and I knew what was now coming. I didn't know when, but when I looked, Riku's pants and boxers were off and I got to see his cock. I had seen it once, when we were little, and that was when I had realized I liked Riku. His length was incredible and my breath hitched in my throat as I noticed the girth of it. It was going to hurt – a lot.

He grabbed the bottle again, before squirting more of the lube into his hand and rubbing it along his cock. I licked my lips slowly as I watched him rub his length, suddenly craving to touch it. I think he noticed me looking because he chuckled and pressed his lips to mine again, though it was quick.

"Someone looks excited," he said, smirking at me. Yep, he definitely knew that I was staring.

"Yeah," I said, not denying it. Why should I? He knew how I felt, and he knew that I wanted this.

He smiled again at me, and it made me melt. "Turn around," he told me, his voice rough all of a sudden. Maybe he was just as excited as I was.

I immediately did as he told me, getting onto my hands and knees, my ass sticking out. Damn, I was ready. I had been ready for years, and now I would finally have it.

He pressed his cock at my entrance and I shivered. He pressed it in more and I groaned out in pain.

"Sora."

"Yeah?" I asked, gasping out as I spoke.

"I love you." And then he thrust his length inside of me.

I groaned out from the pain, and my breathing was coming out in pants. But still, that didn't stop me from questioning him.

"You...what?" I asked, wincing from the pain.

His breath was harsh as well. "I love you," he told me.

I felt my heart soar. Was it possible? Could Riku really love...me?

I turned my head slightly, just so I could look into his eyes. I wanted to look at them as he told me.

"Are you sure?" I asked him. I could feel myself about to cry.

He smiled at me again, that one smile that was suddenly so clear to me. "Yeah, I'm sure." Riku loved me.

I turned my head back then, looking down at the bed. Riku moved from his position, so his body was pressing against my back. He was pressing soft kisses into my shoulder blade, then my neck and even nipped my ear a bit.

"I love you, Sora," he said again, and I couldn't help but to buck against his cock. It no longer hurt.

He groaned as I did, and then suddenly, we were moving together. He was thrusting inside of me, and I was thrusting back against him. I wanted to take all of him into me and never let him out. It just felt so good that I couldn't believe it.

"Riku," I moaned out, arching my neck back as he thrust roughly inside of me.

"Sora," he groaned out against my neck.

I felt a hand on my cock then, and I moaned even louder. Riku was rubbing my length at the same intensity and rhythm as he was thrusting inside of me, and the friction was making me crazy and my entire body was hot.

Riku hit my prostate and I screamed. I could feel myself cumming already, unable to help it as Riku continued to thrust roughly inside of me. It was too much for me and I felt like I could barely breathe.

"Riku," I moaned out, louder than before. "I can't...I...Nnn."

"Me too, Sora," he breathed into my ear. "Just wait a bit – cum with me."

I held myself back as much as I could, but Riku slammed his cock against my prostate again and I could no longer hold back. I came in Riku's hand and onto his bed, before feeling him cum soon after me as my ass squeezed all around him.

He moaned out as he came, and it made me grin. I was glad he enjoyed it; I wanted him to. Maybe if he liked it this time, he'd want to do it again.

When he was done, he removed himself from being on top of me, as well as inside of me, before landing next to me on his side. He pulled me into him and I was suddenly in his arms. His arms were a place I had longed to be in for so long, so I eagerly got as close to him as I could.

One of his hands was snug around my waist, while the other was woven into my hair. It wasn't possible for me to be happier than I was at that moment. Everything was absolutely perfect. I had Riku, and that was all that I needed.

"When did you know?" Riku asked me, his mouth pressed to my forehead.

"Know what?" I asked him, my voice sounding a little tired.

"That you were in love with me."

My cheeks flushed. "Well...probably when I was ten."

"Really? That young?"

My cheeks darkened. "Yeah..." I told him. "I didn't care about being with anyone else, as long as I was with you. I thought I was into guys in general, but when I thought about it, it wasn't guys. I was just plainly into you, and it hasn't changed since."

"Sora," he said softly, that smile on his face. He pressed a soft kiss to my lips and I smiled against his.

"What about you?" I asked him.

That smile was still on his face as he looked at me. "Around the time when you were crushing on Kairi."

My eyes went wide at his words. When I had a crush on Kairi...that was like three years before I realized I was in love with Riku.

"Why didn't you ever tell me?" I asked, my voice in a whisper.

"Why didn't you ever tell me?" he repeated. "I was afraid that you didn't feel the same way, and I didn't want to risk you hating me."

Riku hid it for the same reasons I had. He was afraid like I was and I had never felt so close to him in my entire life. Riku and I were the same.

I crushed my lips to his, nipping his bottom lip before tugging it into my mouth. He growled against my lips before his hands started going all over my body.

"Can we do it again?"