(A/n: This story popped up in my mind out of the blue and didn't wanna leave, SO I wrote it down. It hasn't been beta'd so bare with me on the punctuation and grammar and I know the concept is a huge Mary Sue but oh well :3.

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN FAIRY TAIL.

Please enjoy the first chapter, its not very long, but like I said its just an idea right now so BARE WITH ME.)

That day wasn't my day, I had never felt as useless in my entire life. Sure, no one was talking to me about it, no one had dared to so much as mention it. Natsu and Gray had been suspiciously quiet, Erza was quiet as usual but she had this extra angry stomp in her step and Happy was completely unhappy (pun intended.)

It was all my fault and I knew it, it wasn't the first time I had messed up on a mission, it wasn't the second either, or the third or the tenth. Anyone would get tired of me messing up mission after mission. Except that time was worse, all the other times it had only been my life at risk, that time I nearly killed the entire team.

We drifted back into the guild after a long three days of thief hunting in a random village, I instantly split up from the group and sat myself down at the bar. When I thought about it, I was a major misfit in Team Natsu, Erza was an S-Class mage, Natsu and Gray were nearly there and then there was me. I wouldn't be on the team if I hadn't decided to tag along on the search for Lullaby but I was useless for most of that too.

"Mira-san, can I have a glass of water please?" Mirajane drew her attention from cleaning the bar's chipped table top to looking at me, her smile faded and her brow lined itself with worry.

"What's wrong Lucy? Didn't the mission go well?" She conjured up a glass of water from under the bar and set it down in front of me.

"In the end it did," I sighed, "Let's just say it was a pretty bumpy ride and I didn't make it any easier." I could hear Natsu and Gray arguing in the background, they went straight back to normal as soon as they got in the guild, it made me blame myself even more. To make matters worse, Lisanna was sat amongst them, right next to Erza where I usually sat, with the hugest, cheesiest smile plastered across her face. Even Erza was smiling slightly instead of threatening them. I sighed again.

I was jealous. Lisanna had this ability to make everyone around her smile, even I couldn't avoid accidentally cracking a grin every time she spoke to me. She was just nice! She had no ill intention towards me so I wasn't capable off hating her, all I could do was sit on the sidelines and be silently jealous.

Mirajane's browline creased more and she frowned at me, "Don't beat yourself up about it, we all have our unlucky streaks, 'kay Lucy?" She raised a slight eyebrow at me before picking up a barrel of liquor from who-knows-where, she lifted it up with one hand and turned to look at me, sometimes she genuinely scared me. "I have to go, Cana looks like she's about to run out," she pointed over to the slightly tipsy woman drinking out of another barrel and giggled. "You feel better." She smiled brightly at me and walked off.

I downed my water and started on my way home, maybe Mira was right about the whole, "Unlucky streak," I had been too off of my game for it to be normal, I had nothing to blame but luck! I saw my house in the distance and sighed at the thought of going in, my landlady was nagging me about the rent which was only due in two days, I still had time dammit!

I opened the door to my apartment and found it empty for the first time in forever, no one was there eating my food, or being naked, or sleeping in my bed and it felt surprisingly lonely. I took Plue's key off of my belt and twisted it around my fingers, "Open gate of the Canis Minor: Nicola!"

Plue appeared at my feet in a flash of light and smoke, "Pun, pun~" he was shivering as usual and I still questioned why he was a snowmanish thing and not an actual dog.

"Come on Plue, it's bath time." I picked him up and walked over to the bathroom, placing him gently in the bathtub and turning on the hot water. He made his adorable melty noise which I could understand when I got in the water, it was pretty cold that day and life was friggin' stressful. After that I went sleep, it was a restless sleep but it was sleep no less.

The next morning wasn't any better, the headache banging against my head didn't help and neither did the nausea clouding my senses. I took an extra long cold shower which also did not help considering the crazy dark circles underneath my eyes. I threw on a random outfit from my wardrobe, closed Plue's gate, grabbed my keys and my whip then I left for the guild.

I bumped into practically every person on the way there and actually came pretty close to falling in the river for the first time ever. I entered the guild and stalked my way up to the bar. The noise level in the guild was at an all time low so I automatically knew that Gray and Natsu were missing.

Mira was cleaning the table again, she smiled at me almost instantly when I looked at her, she was so damn pleasant. "I can tell you're not feeling any better," she looked up at me sympathetically from her rag.

"Yeah, have you seen Natsu and the rest of them?" She flinched as soon as I mentioned them.

"They went on a mission, they said that they think you should sit this one out, something about you not being yourself lately." I almost cried. It was obvious that they meant well but I couldn't help feeling hurt.

"Hey Lu-chan!" Levy popped up next to me, she had this mischievous look in her eyes that made it obvious that she was going to ask about my novel.

"Hey Levy-chan."

She frowned at my short greeting, "What's up, writers' block got you down?"

I smiled slightly and cleared my throat, the tears were starting to gather, I knew if I talked my voice would crack and the tears would come straight after. So I just nodded then sighed. I didn't know why I felt so hurt, it was to be expected considering the fact that I had been useless on every other mission up until then, even I would be tired of me. I just hoped they would have the gal to say it to my face.

"Well you keep working on it, I can't wait to read the next chapter." I offered her a tight lipped smile as she walked away, it pained me to smile, I had no business doing it at that very moment. I just wanted to frown till my face got stuck like that. Then again I suffer from melodramatism.

If I had just been stronger I wouldn't have been sitting there wallowing in my own self-pity nor would I have to be coming up with emergency solutions to pay my rent.

"Mira, is Master here?" She looked at me while casually balancing 5 beer mugs as if she was holding nothing.

"Oh he's in his office, you'd better go see him before he leaves, he has another meeting." Looking down at the table top I contemplated my latest thought. It was probably in the moment, I would probably regret it later but I couldn't shake the feeling that it was for the best. I took my time getting up, I wanted to conjure up at least one reason to stay, but the fact that I was a weak mage and couldn't even protect myself made everything else amount to nothing.

Tapping slowly on the huge wooden door hidden in the hallway next to the bar, I almost hoped he wasn't in. Of course with my luck the muffled, "Come in." that I didn't want to hear came from the door.

"Oh, hello Lucy." He seemed happy to see me but curiosity gleamed brightly in his eyes.

"Hello, Master." His office was what you would imagine it to be, mainly made of cherry wood with every wall except the one behind him covered in full bookcases. The fire behind his unsuitably large desk crackled filling the temporary silence as he gestured to the plush leather seat in front of him.

"What's wrong Lucy?"

I sighed again then fumbled around my speech. How was I supposed to say what I wanted to, I wasn't even sure about it!

"Erm, Master," I started after an awkward while. "I-i was wondering if... I could l-leave the guild." I finished talking then finally met his gaze, he seemed stricken. "O-oh gosh! I meant temporarily of course, for training." I almost slapped myself, it was not the time to be making such honestly useless mistakes.

"You had me worried." He sighed and rubbed the bridge of his nose in stress, "When exactly did you want to leave, I would like some time to think before just letting you go."

"T-today!" I slapped myself mentally, since when did I want to leave on the same day? "I-i wanted to leave today." Of course I didn't want to leave on the same day but I couldn't stop myself from talking.

He stared at me for a long time, looking for any sign that I would leave and just not come back, when he found none he sighed. "If you must go, then go. Just don't make this a waste of time! You'd better not come back till you're strong, if not I definetly wont forgive you. Now away with you!" I got up, smiled at him and turned to leave.

"Thank you so much Master." He nodded at me dismissively.

"Yeah, yeah. Just come back alive, we'll all be waiting for you Lucy." He smirked at me with hidden sadness in his eyes, I just nodded and closed the door. And that was that. I was leaving to become strong, to finally be a valid member of Team Natsu!

I shouldn't have left.

I really shouldn't have left.

I really, really, really shouldn't have left.

After making the decision to leave, I dropped off my keys with Mirajane, went home, packed, wrote a few notes and caught a train to the most remote area I could find, it was so bad I couldn't even pronounce the name.

Up until after the train ride it was an alright idea, I started my trek through the forest and still felt fine. Till I realised that I actually had to do something.

Then I realised that I had absolutely no idea how to start or where to start or when to start, so I set up camp and all in all, my first day of training was a complete failure.

I woke up the next morning and packed up my makeshift camp, it was about time I started training without my celestial spirits. I wouldn't always have them in battle. Without them I was pretty much useless, I wanted to be able to do something without the help of another person.

I strolled through the forest, hopeful that that day would be better than the ones before and up till then, it had been.

But, with my luck I obviously spoke to soon.

I had been too busy with my thoughts to register the beyond human deep breathing behind me, or the padded footsteps following my footprints, or the sheer size of the shadow towering over my own. Only when the roar of a loud grizzly bear came tearing into my senses did I register anything, the first logical thing I had registered in weeks was, "Run." I was regretting leaving all of my keys behind, I should've brought at least one but of course, at the time, I didn't have that sort of logic.

I pushed my legs till I was running at the fastest pace I could, the pounding footsteps of the bear were resounding loudly in my ears. My heart pounded faster with every footstep, pumping more and more adrenaline into my veins. Pushing through some shrubbery I somewhat snapped out of my fear-induced haze and managed to think. Where exactly was I going? Where exactly was I? How in the hell was I going to get a grizzly bear off my tail when I was lost, quickly tiring and completely keyless thus defenseless?

A loud roar behind me threw me straight back into a sprint with the bear hot on my heels, I felt the air shift behind me and the wind being knocked straight out of me as the bear took a swipe at my back. I landed on the floor with a grunt and barely felt my back being teared into as my liquid life ran into the soil beneath me.

My eyes slowly grew half lidded, the slow oncoming pain was pushing me deeper into my blood loss induced haze. I was tired, ready to sleep, death wasn't very nice anyway. I felt hot, feverish to the point where the soil beneath me seemed to be cooling my skin. I would be somewhat useful after I died, food for a pack of bears honestly seemed better than dying being known as the Lucy that I was, I wanted to be different, I wanted to be independent, I wanted to be strong.

Plus, I wasn't done living life. How was I going to finish my book from beyond the grave? Levy would never finish it. How was I supposed to get my first boyfriend if I was dead? My life was so damn incomplete.

The feverishness finally faded and left me with a comforting warm feeling that lulled me into sleep. The moment my eyes slipped closed another loud roar teared through the sound of death, it sounded guttural, primitive even, but at the same time it sounded powerful. It was something beyond me, something beyond anything I knew and anything that I would ever come to know.

I willed my eyes to open and they did, with a lot more effort than what I felt was necessary. My vision was blurred and took a while to focus. I saw a huge white blob practically fling the brown blob, probably the bear, into who-knows-where.

My eyes finally focused properly as the white blob made its way towards me, I felt its tail touch me, it felt like a leather belt running against my skin.

It shifted, seemingly attempting to purposely look me in the eye, the proximity of the blob to my face didn't require any refocusing as all I could see were its eyes.

Its iris' were mainly gray with flecks of blue and yellow that constantly orbited around its slit pupils. A ring of green and a ring of red sat around the iris, one ring of pure black sat between them. They were beautiful, definetly not such a bad thing to see as I died.

The eyes narrowed and as a result the slits in them became thinner... Slits? ...I would've slapped myself for not noticing before but I couldn't. It was a reptile, I had just been saved by some sort of reptile that lived in the forest. I felt its tail touch me again and it was longer than my height, there was no reptilian that large as far as I knew. Probably a post-mortum hallucination or something.

"Rest, child." And it could talk, I highly doubted that giant lizards got any better than that.

I grunted at the voice, it was female and surprisingly gentle, almost like a mother's, almost like my mother's. I wonder if death was like this for her too, did she see a giant white lizard instead of the grim reaper, did it lie down next to her and coax her into sleeping? The new-found wonder in me left a thousand and one questions unanswered. My mother had left quite a few questions unanswered too, I never got around to know what she died from, why exactly did she marry my father, she was happy and sweet and he was ... well, he was himself. Whoever told you opposites attract lied, life's easier when you're living it with someone who sees things from your point of view, when you're with someone who can say, "I know how you feel." and actually mean it.

When I was a child so much false pity was given to me, I felt like the only person in the world without a mother. I wondered if Natsu felt the way I did when I lost my mother when he lost Igneel. When I met him I finally wasn't the only one who had lost a parent.

"Your thoughts are frazzled child, I'm telling you to sleep. All will be better soon." I almost did sleep, but as Lizard said my thoughts were frazzled, Natsu and his dad were constantly on my mind... if Igneel even counted as as a dad. Did Igneel count as a parent? He was pretty much a giant lizard.

I would've slapped myself if I could but the slap in the face I got from realisation practically done the job.

Lizard wasn't a giant lizard.

Lizard was a dragon.

I was laying in the talons of a dragon that I had named Lizard, bleeding to death and slyly realising that Lizard would probably eat me afterward.

I would most definetly not be able to rest in peace.

(A/n: Thank you sosososo much for reading till the end. Any criticism you have to give is welcome, just be constructive and not destrcutive.

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