Blood… A deep shade of red that had taken its place within Lovino's bathtub. He wouldn't know the look since he had long been passed out. The blood that flowed out of the Italians wrist was a very dangerous amount. Anyone who could see into the tub would be horrified and would most likely have thought the man was already dead. Oh but he wasn't dead yet just unconscious and losing enough to drain his life if not helped.

"Lovino? Antonio… Is anyone home?"

The voice was a low one but it was there. Down the stairs standing in the doorway leading into the house was Lovino's savior. The man cautiously entered further into the house hoping to find someone home. He stopped dead in his tracks when he noticed a light on upstairs. He assumed it must be Lovino. He wandered up the stairs and into the lit room. No one was in it but someone however was in the bathroom. The man slowly opened the door and looked in. He gasped at the sight before his eyes and froze staring. He would not have guessed that he would ever find something like this had happened. The man quickly ran over and retrieved Lovino's arm from out of the water. He was a doctor so he knew what to do to stop the rush of the blood. He wrapped the gash up in a towel and carefully lifted the unconscious Lovino up. He carried the boy to his car. While he did Lovino's eyes opened a bit and he could make out blonde hair. He was able to whisper one thing before he passed out again.

"Ludwig?"

A couple hours later at the hospital

Lovino slowly opened his eyes. A flash of bright light is what filled his vision. He closed his eyes since it burned. For a second Lovino actually thought he had succeeded in killing himself. That passed however when he heard the sound of a heart monitor. Lovino opened his eyes and as they finally adjusted he realized where he was.

"Lovino you're finally awake, thank god."

" What the hell… Potato bastard why am I in the hospital…"

Ludwig sighed and stared at Lovino. Lovino stared back nervous about the whole situation. He looked down at his wrist to find it bandaged. Lovino looked back up to see Ludwig was staring at the bandage.

"Why Lovino?"

"Why what."

"Why did you cut your wrist open? Why did you try to kill yourself Lovino?"

Lovino stared at Ludwig. Half of him wanted to ignore the German the other half actually wanted his help.

"Because… You know what, I don't have to explain anything to you bastard."

Lovino glared at Ludwig who sighed. Ludwig's face softened and he stared at Lovino truly concerned. This came as a total shock to Lovino. He had never seen the German look at him like that. Lovino tried to look away but he could feel Ludwig's stare. Finally he just gave in.

" Fine. I cut my wrist open and tried to kill myself because Antonio doesn't love me anymore. He never pays any attention to me. He always leaves to work before I'm even awake and never comes home till it's time for bed since he's out hanging with some stupid woman. He had lost interest in me. He was all I really had left. So since I lost him I decided to end it. My life's going to end soon anyway. There I told you stupid potato bastard!"

Lovino looked down at his lap. Tears had begun to make their way down his cheeks. He felt pathetic crying in front of his brother's lover. He assumed Ludwig Was going to laugh at him but he was wrong. Ludwig walked over and engulfed Lovino in a hug. Lovino was shocked and was going to say something but couldn't. He instead began to cry. He clung to Ludwig and cried into the man's coat. Ludwig rubbed his back letting him cry. He didn't realize how bad Lovino was having it. Lovino finally calmed down enough to push Ludwig away.

"Ew now I'm going to have to burn my clothes since now they have German on them."

Ludwig laughed a little before staring at Lovino serious. Lovino stared back at him and was going to make another comment but couldn't since Ludwig began to speak.

"Lovino… You do realize that what you tried to do was not the right thing. You said that you had no one other than Antonio. That's a lie, Lovino what about Feli. He's your brother. He loves you with all his heart and is always worried about you. You can't go around doing things like hurting yourself. THINK BEFORE YOU ACT. I understand that you're having a hard time but since you're not going to tell your brother that your life is ending soon the best thing for you to do would to be to spend as much time with him as possible. As for the Antonio part, I really don't have much to say. I can't tell you whether your wrong or right. I don't know antonio as well as you. I don't know how you're going to go about the rest of your time but please do not waste because of someone like him. If you need a place to stay while you and Antonio work things out, you are more than welcome to stay with your brother and I."

Ludwig waited to see what Lovino had to say. He hoped the fragile Italian would be alright, but he knew that would take time and he knew Lovino didn't have much of that left. After about five minutes of silence Ludwig ruffled Lovino's hair and turned to leave the poor boy alone. He was taken back when a hand gripped onto the back of his coat. He turned to see Lovino looking down. He would have sworn he saw a few tears fall from the boys face. He waited till Lovino spoke.

" Thank you..."

Ludwig's eyes widened and he wasn't sure how to react. He had never been thanked by the Italian and the times he had been he knew the boy didn't mean it. This time was different. He could feel the emotion. He knew that Lovino was truly saying this. Ludwig smiled and removed Lovino's hand.

" You won't be thanking me for long."

Lovino looked at Ludwig confused. He then heard an all too familiar voice in the hallway. His eyes widened and he stared at the German with betrayal in his eyes. Ludwig smiled softly and backed away.

" We had to call someone about this and since I knew you would be angrier if I involved your brother so he was the only other person. You don't have to worry. He wasn't told about what happened. I told him you had an accident when cleaning a knife. You can tell him the truth if you want to. I'll be leaving now. It was my day off. Call me if you need anything Lovino. Your brother and I are always here for you."

Lovino's eyes were filled with anger toward Ludwig as said man left the room. He would get his revenge on the German before he left the world for good. Lovino looked at the doorway in which Antonio came running in from. He quickly looked away ashamed of what he had done. He wasn't just ashamed but upset since he had done all this because of this man. Lovino closed his eyes when he felt Antonio grip his wrist. He didn't want to look at the man who broke his heart. He knew if he did he would cry. He kept his eyes closed and his head turned away from Antonio. He felt Antonio's grip tighten and then the hands were removed. He guessed Antonio realized he had been gripping the bandaged sighed and shook his head slightly. He felt a hand on his shoulder and then words were being spoken.

" Lovi…. What happened. Look at your wrist. Look at yourself. You are sitting in a hospital bed. Lovi?..."

Lovino kept his eyes closed and bit down on his lip. He could hear the hurt in the spaniards voice. He knew that he had caused Antonio stress and panic. Lovino actually started to feel bad for what he had done. That feeling faded when Antonio spoke once more.

" Lovi, you don't even know how worried I was when Ludwig called me. I was with Bella when I answered the phone. I didn't even give her an explanation. I just ran out of the cafe we were at and went straight here."

Lovino clenched his fist ignoring the pain jolting through him from his wrist wounds. He opened his eyes which had filled with tears and looked at Antonio. He pushed the man away and choked back sobs. He glared at Antonio passed his tears. How could Antonio bring that woman up. How could he do this to him.

" Lovi?"

" SHUT UP! SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME! I thought you loved me. I thought I was your one and only. I was stupid to believe you. I was stupid to ever fall in love with you."

" Lovi…. What.. What are you talking about. What did I do to you. Why are you saying all this mean stuff."

Antonio was confused, really confused. He walked closer to Lovino and was pushed away again. Lovino was full on crying. His sobbing had become hysterical. His whole body was shaking and to himself he thought he seemed pathetic. Antonio really had no idea what was happening. It hurt him to see his Lovino like this. He put his hand out just to have Lovino slap it away and start yelling.

" YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT! You know what you did. You probably thought I was too stupid to put two and two together. Well I'm smarter than you think bastard. I know you're cheating on you wanted someone else then why did you bring me this far. Why would you do this to me."

Antonio's eyes widened and he furiously shook his head. He grabbed Lovino by the shoulders ignoring the boys protest and hits. He held onto Lovino tears gathering in his own eyes. He was heart broken.

" Lovi! I'm not cheating on you. I would never cheat on you. I WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU! I love you Lovi. I would never do anything to hurt you. I'm so sorry that you thought I was cheating. I really had no idea that you thought that. I had no idea that anything I was doing came off like that. I had been seeing Bella for a really important matter. I can't tell you all the details but I can tell you it has something to do with your birthday. I am not cheating on you. "

Lovino tensed up as Antonio hugged him. He felt his heart stop and his head hurt. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. He wanted to say it was a lie but he knew it wasn't. He knew it wasn't because Antonio was crying. Lovino felt like shit now. He hugged Antonio back and clung to the spaniard. He knew there was no way he could apologize. He also knew that he wouldn't need to. He knew that Antonio had already forgiven him. Antonio pulled away from Lovino and wiped the tears from his own eyes. He looked into Lovino's bloodshot ones.

" You believe me right."

Lovino looked into Antonio's eyes and heard his speak. He could have slapped himself right then and there. He nodded not able to speak in the moment. Lovino felt Antonio hug him again and he couldn't get himself to hug back. He was mentally beating the shit out of himself for all the trouble he had caused. After Antonio pulled away he had left the room. Lovino waited patiently for the man to return. He did return and with a doctor. The doctor checked Lovino to make sure the boy could leave. Once determining that Lovino was fit to leave, the doctor phoned the front desk letting them know. Antonio checked Lovino out of the hospital and left with the boy home. Lovino was quiet the whole car ride home. Antonio never asked about the wounds and Lovino was glad for that. He didn't feel like lying to him after all this. Antonio had carried Lovino upstairs and into their bedroom. He put Lovino down on the bed and cared for him all day. Lovino just let Antonio do whatever. He was moping and wallowing in self pity. Lovino looked out the window. He hadn't realized that it was night. He looked at Antonio who was changing his bandages. The spaniard looked up at him and smiled. As Antonio got up and threw away the dirty bandaging he looked at the calendar.

" Your birthday is coming up soon Lovi. I hope your wrist are healed by then. I wouldn't want anything ruining your special day."

Lovino looked at Antonio then out the window again. He didn't say anything in response to Antonio. He heard Antonio sigh and leave the room. After Antonio left the room Lovino wiped at his eyes. The tears that fell shouldn't be seen by Antonio. Lovino didn't want to worry the boy any more. Lovino moved to the other side of the bed and touched his hand to the calendar. he smiled sadly and whispered to himself.

" What would you do if you knew I was going to be gone before my birthday. What will you do…."