Regret Me Not

Sometimes, it feels as if I can hardly breathe.

Sometimes I wish I couldn't.

My smile is broken. My eyes are cold.

As I lie awake at night crying myself to sleep. Lying in my tears, drowning in my fears.

I dream of his touch. His steady heartbeat, his warm gentle breaths surrounding me. Our lips would meet and fireworks would go off.

My body would tense up and lose every single breath. And when our lips slowly part, he will say, "Wake up, Annabelle. This is all a dream."

And I will awake.

Pillow wet with tears, my body covered in fears and untold secrets. I'd wake up alone.

. . .

He refers to me as no one in the halls. But little does he know, he's the only thing that can keep me alive. Yet he's the only thing that can kill me. I

watch as he passes by me with his egoistic friends and their "perfect 10" girlfriends, who always seem to look more like barbie dolls oppose to

humans.

He glances at me.

I feel no emotion in our eye connection. Only awkwardness.

My eyes start to wander, pretending like I was never staring. As they wander, I see that annoying girl, Lilly, who seems to think we are friends.

We're not even close to being acquaintances.

I run to the nearest bathroom, not wanting her in my presence.

But lucky me, I've run into something much worse. The two girls in the whole school who hate me the most.

Talli and Megan.

They give me a smirk and scan my fragile body.

"Hey Annabelle. Long time no see." Talli says, moving closer.

Weird, I could've sworn you beat me up yesterday after school.

Maybe i'm mistaken.

Megan shoves me, "You're not going to say hi, Annabelle? Don't you think thats kind of rude?"

My mouth stays shut as my body starts to lose feeling.