Okay everyone welcome. this is my first ever fanfiction and I am quite excited. I go by the pen name miss. brightside and feel free to enjoy and review with thoughts and concerns for this story. The more feedback the better I feel about this story. ^_^

Waking up this morning I just felt different. I knew it probably had to do with me transitioning into becoming a vampire, but I couldn't shake the feeling that something else in my mind was different. As I stretched and turned slowly on my side to face my nightstand I slowly took in the time on my alarm clock. 7:37 am.
what am I doing up this early? I thought while smashing my face back into my pillow.
"Uhhhhg" I moaned loudly. Even when I turn full vampire I doubt I'll ever be content with the number of hours I'll have to just relax in bed.
"Good morning sleeping beauty!" I hear Caroline chime as she gracefully jumps on my bed next to me.
"Caroline…"
"You ready to face the world as the new you?" I can hear her enthusiasm drop slightly to a more gentle tone.
"as ready as I'll ever be." I say as I sit up leaning against the bed frame. "So where are those ever protective Salvatore boys? I thought they'd at least be here when I woke up."
"Oh , welllll, Stefan is currently off Elena duty because I told him there are some times were you just need a girl energy around you, and besides when is the last time me and you have done anything just us huh?" Caroline chucks her pillow at me in mock hate but I quickly block it.
these reflexes are definitely something I will have to get use to.. but I can't help noticing that she's left out an explanation for Damon's absence.
Suddenly my heart drops as I'm reminded of our last conversation…
"I thought maybe we could go for a hike," Caroline continues not noticing my brief trip down memory lane, giving me time to recover,
"That actually sounds really refreshing."
"You think so?" She smiles at me brightly. "Then hurry up and get dressed! You're going to be hungry soon and if I'm going to keep my word and help you stay on an all animal diet the sooner you're out of Mystic Falls the better."
"Ugh, don't remind me."
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After me and Caroline's girl day we decided it only made sense to end it with some wine and movies at her house.
"God this movie is terrible, when does it become good?"
I tried to suppress a giggle as I responded with a simple "Never."
"Pretty sure it had a $30 budget." Caroline laughed.
Suddenly a loud noise stopped our laughter short.
"Who's there?" demanded Caroline.
"Oh relax blondie, I was just here to check on our newly vamped Elena." Damon smirked and locked eyes with me briefly before sitting down next to us and lazily throwing his arm around me.
"I thought I told you both to leave her alone for a while." Caroline glared.
"It's okay Caroline," I interrupted, shifting slightly while avoiding either of their gazes, "I've been meaning to talk with him, would it be okay if you gave us a few seconds?"
Caroline sighed and paused the movie before bringing the popcorn with her as she left. Instantly Damon leaning towards me whispering in my hair,
"You've been meaning to talk to me huh?" he seductively spoke, breathing a little more heavily during pauses just to give me goose bumps, which I quickly rubbed away with my hands .
"Yes. " I said sternly trying to edge myself away from his warmth. As soon as I saw the guarded look in his eyes my voice softened, "about…" His eyes narrowed as he waited for me to finish "…a couple things."
"Look Elena, I'm over it. You picked Stefan. No hard feelings."
"But Damon wait-" he put both hands on either side of my face with more firmly than he had ever done as he silenced me.
"No Elena, really. You made your choice and I get it. But you should know why I came over." His hands softened into an almost caress as he spoke the last words with my emphases, "I'm leaving."
"What? Leaving where?" I almost shouted.
"Mystic Falls. Tomorrow night. Stefan and I had a deal that if you picked one of us the other would leave to give you both peace. So I figured I would stay one last day to give you my last few tips on becoming a vampire before Stefan tried to corrupt you into some fake contained vampire." With that he was standing staring down at me. I still couldn't even process it all.
Damon? Leaving for good? What would I do without him?
"I…Damon… You can't just leave!" I stood up next to him making sure to get right in his face. "I'm about to start this whole new life as a vampire and I don't know the first thing of what to do! I need you to help me! Teach me!" I was already on the verge of tears feeling them hot and heavy at my eyelids.
"Oh come on, don't pull that crap with me, you have Stefan and Caroline. You don't need me anymore Elena, you made that clear the night you died. I'm not going to sit around waiting for you to get horny enough to try and make out with me again, just to be rejected later." With that I go to slap him hard across the face, but he grabs my hand just in time and I break down into his arms.
"I didn't do it just because I was horny!" I hiccup sob into his shoulder, doubting he could even understand what I was even saying, and only vaguely aware of the fact that he was still holding me.
"I did it because I wanted to, because I…" I stopped unsure if what I wanted to say next was actually true or not "because I was confused." I could feel him sigh and take me gently out of his arms and sitting me on the couch.
"Elena…look at me." And I do. "Here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to teach you a crash course in being a vampire, only because you breaking down like this is something no one else is going to be able to teach you about." I whip my tears not sure where this is going so I let him continue. "It's all about controlling your emotions, anyways, I won't leave tomorrow night under the condition you let me leave after your vampire training is over. Deal?" I slowly nod while still sniffling slightly.
"Good. Now I'm going to go," he walks away but then stops momentarily to turn back " I'll see you bright and early tomorrow for lessons alright?"
"Okay" I say hoarsely as I watch him walk out the door. Not too long after Caroline bounces out the door.
"Hey.. what happened? You look like you've been crying."
Suddenly self-conscious of my puffy eyes I grab a pillow on the couch and hug it while rubbing my face on it. "He said he's leaving because I chose Stefan."
"well isn't that a good thing? Wasn't he just causing trouble between you two?" Caroline offers the popcorn and I take a handful and munch a bit.
"No. I mean, I guess but it wasn't his fault as much mine. I mean I'm the one who kissed him… twice." A light blush returns to my cheeks as I recall the most resent memory.
"Oh yeah." She smiles but then her face drops as she remembers why I was upset in the first place. "So he's just leaving then? When?"
"He was going to leave tomorrow night, but I think I convinced him to help me with vampire training and stuff before he goes, so now I'm not sure."
"Vampire training? Why would you want it from him?"
"I guess… I just trust him more. I mean out of all the vampires I know he just seems the most in control, I mean no offense to you, but you were just a new vampire months ago."
"yeah, yeah. Well I suppose you have a point. As long as you're okay with it" She gave me a quick hug over the pillow and sat back down to turn on the movie again.
"ready for the best movie ever made?" she grinned.
"Absolutely" I grinned back.
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I swallowed hard as the realization hit me.
"But… It's not possible. Right? That's just common sense, I'm dead. There's no way I can have a biological child."
Now it was Bonnie's turn to speak, "I think I've found a way but I need for you not to panic on me when I explain it okay?"
"Just tell me Bonnie." I was starting to lose my patience
"Okay, so since you're a vampire now this will only work with another vampire."
I let out a breath, "So? I was planning on having it happen with Stefan anyways so why would that make me panic?"
Bonnie ignored me and continued, "I need to do this soon, it has to be on a night of a new moon and it will take me a few days in order to gather all the things I need for the spell. Once I cast the spell you will have only a few hours to conceive and after that time is up we cannot perform another spell like this again until 500 years have passed."
that's so soon. I thought but pushed the thought away. It has to be done, once this is done me and everyone I care about will be left alone.
"Okay. So when should me and Stefan be ready?"
"I'll keep you posted, that is IF I find the items I need for the spell." And with that Bonnie was already out the door.
I sunk to the floor wrapping my arms around my legs and resting my chin on my knees lightly. Should I tell Stefan now? Or should I just wait? Maybe it would be better if I just didn't tell him at all.
Letting out a groan I wrapped my arms tighter around myself letting my head tuck under my shoulder. So soon… what am I going to do?
-Weeks before I had a run in with Klaus who demanded that I produce the next generation of Petrova blood as soon as he caught whiff that there was a spell that existed that would let vampires reproduce. Bonnie assured him it was nothing but rumors but when she spoke with her ancestors they had confirmed it. There was one that existed but it was rare and required some serious research. I had begged Bonnie to keep it our secret. I wasn't sure why but I felt like it had to be this way. It had been three days since Bonnie went to look for all the items.
Suddenly there was a knock at my bedroom door. It was soft and familiar and instantly I knew who it was.
"Stefan? Come on in." I slowly got out of bed to give him a welcoming hug and kiss.
"What are you so peppy about this morning?" He smiled into the kiss
"Just happy to see you. What have we got planned for today?" I asked while resting my forehead against his and staring up at him.
"Well, I've got some bad news unfortunately." my face and her heart dropped at the same time.
"What is it?" I could barely breath
"Damon's been captured by that vampire hunter. I just know he was asking for it but still, we have to get him out." Stefan gently let go of my grasp but held onto my hand leading me down the stairs.
"Caroline has found the location we just need a rescue crew."
"Wait a minute, are you recruiting me to rescue Damon?" I'm sure my face was showing traces of mockery and disbelief mirroring how I felt.

"Yes, I guess I am." He replied with eyebrows pulled together in thought.
"How the tables have turned." I gave a small lifeless chuckle and followed Stefan out the door.

Little did she know at that exact moment Bonnie had sent her a text:
Bonnie: Elena, I am going to start the spell. You have 4 hours starting now.