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I have decided to revive this story. They are pretty much the same; I just add more details to it. Some chapter has more than the other. If you read the version before and still remember, I would be very appreciated if you could tell me which on is better. Thanks.


"Rin," Lord Sesshomaru called to her, the woman with the mind of a child. She stood in a big open field of all kinds of flowers as if she was one of the flowers herself. It was a sunny day, clear blue sky. The winds were softly blown, making the flowers gently tilted from side to side in waves.

Rin, a beauty that no one, human demons alike, could pass without turning back to look at her twice. Her raven black hairs slide down her back as if waterfall. Her skin was soft and smooth. Her big chocolate eyes fluttered opened with the thick heavy dark lashes. Her natural pick and healthy full lips immediately curved up into a soft smile.

But sadly, she was now but a child. Her mind was a child.

"Hello," she responded brightly, her hands were picking flowers. She was wearing a rich light blue silk kimono embroider with golden flowers patterns. It was a simple summer kimono, but on her womanly curves, it made her majesty form appeared as if she was a goddess.

"What are you doing here, Rin?" lord Sesshomaru asked.

Inuyasha had informed her conditions to Lord Sesshomaru. Rin was no longer herself. Too many terrible things had happened in the past year.

Lady Kaedae had passed away; bandits burned most of the village's huts to the ground along with killing a few villagers in front of her reminding her of her own parents being killed in the past.

But the real cause of her rejection to the world was Lord Sesshomaru's refusal to let her returned with him. Because the poor child had gained the feelings that she should never have harbored. She had falling in love with him.

Tragedies after tragedies, the overwhelming traumas caused her mind to escape to the one place she felt safe. To the time where she was wanted. The time when she was a child and Lord Sesshomaru was still her protector. The carefree life when she was running freely by his side. The eight year-old girl who he would go to any length, even to hell to retreat her. His top priority.

My heart ached looking at the young woman who I had been looking after for all those years, even though I was being forced to and because I was too afraid to lose my head to my lord's wrath, I did care about her.

"I'm waiting," she smiled brightly; her attention was focused on the small white flower in her right hand that was gently lifted to touch her nose. A smile plastered on her face, her eyes shone with happiness.

I burst out into tears, could no longer bear to see Rin in this condition. She was a young woman who could start a family of her own if she had not lost her mind. I had watched her grown. I would never admit it out loud, but she was important to me. A family.

"And who are you waiting for," my lord asked in his deep monotone voice, it may sounded bored like always to others, but I could pick out the softness in his tone.

"I'm waiting for lord Sesshomaru. He told me to wait and stay put. But he has yet to come. So I'm waiting," she said shyly, picking at the small flower in her hands, her cheeks flushed the light color of healthy pink.

I let out a loud wail unable to control my sadness seeing such an inconsolable image. I could see that lord Sesshomaru's heart, could and merciless as it was, was breaking knowing he was the main cause of her sufferings.

She forgot everyone and everything. The only thing she remembered was the fact that she was waiting for Lord Sesshomaru to come back for her. Rin could not accept the reality that she had been abandoned by my lord.

"He doesn't want me back because I am no longer a child, but a woman. Because I now see him as a man and falls in love with him. Because my heart now beats for him in the way it should not. He doesn't want me anymore.

"I want to be a child again if that means I can be with him. I would get rid of these feelings, but he already stated clearly that I am no longer welcomed." Inuyasha's woman quotes Rin's heartbroken sentence after Lord Sesshomaru had left her.

Lord Sesshomaru looked into Rin's innocent eyes on her beautiful woman face, his heart ached.

"Let's go, Rin," He reached out a pale claw hand to her, but she pulled herself away as if it was burning.

"I'm not going anywhere with you!" She shouted at the top of her lungs, "I'm waiting for Lord Sesshomaru. He will come for me!"

"Rin," he took a step closer to her. She took a step back, wary of Lord Sesshomaru's every movements. Her entire body tensed, ready to break into a run if have to. I was holding my breath. "I am Sesshomaru." His golden orbs focused on her frightened face.

She stopped short, took a good look at my lord and then shook her head forcefully, "No you are not. You are not him! He is a very kind man. You are not him!"

"Rin," he called her name as if willing for her to recognize his voice. But she didn't.

"No," she burst out to tears, hands plunged to each of her ears, refused to listen, "No, you are not him. Lord Sesshomaru doesn't want Rin anymore. He won't come back for Rin anymore. He told Rin, he won't come back for Rin. He has abandons Rin." She lowered herself to the ground; the flowers surround and hid her, before she sneaked a peek back up at Lord Sesshomaru with watery eyes. Tears were screaming freely down her soft cheeks, her once bright and happy eyes were now filled with heartbroken and sadness. She sniffed a sob before she continued, "Rin wants to be with Lord Sesshomaru." She blinked her eyes to let two more fat tears dropped down her pretty face.

"Rin," he slowly kneeled on one of his knees beside her, his right hand reached out to gently hold her chin to remain eyes contact. "I have come for you," he said as softly as his cold voice would allow. But Rin was shaking her head that she did not believe him.

He let the silence flew by as he looked at the young woman who no longer saw the real him, "Tell me what he looks like?"

She slowly lowered her hands from her head to her sides. Her sad face was immediately brightened up as if the sun itself at the memory of her Lord. I could see my lord flinched, even if it were so slightly that you would doubt if it were ever there, but I knew it was real. His heart, too, was breaking at her smile as mine.

"He is very tall, very handsome and a very power demon. Very kind. He always told Rin to do as she wishes. He always waits for Rin no matter how long Rin takes. And anytime Rin call, whenever Rin is in danger, he never fails to come for Rin. He always comes for Rin," she told him dreamingly. On her face was the innocent smiled of the happy child on the kindest woman's face.

"He has silver hair, wearing white with red flowers patterns. He has this fluffy," she giggled, her eyes shifted to the sided recalling the image, "every soft fur-like thing. It is calls Mokomoko. Rin wanted to touch it." She gave him a smile, making her point, "he has pale skin that is as smooth as glass. Can you belief someone so handsome could exist?" she gently wrapped her arms around her knees, still smiling dreamily. "Each side of his cheeks has twin purple strips marks and," she took a closer look into my lord's emotionless face, her voice trailed off as all her attention were cased on his perfect face, "he has a crescent blue moon mark on the center of his forehead," her eyes widened. Her hands slowly reached out and gently touch his face. Her knees shift to a kneeling position for a better reach to the taller lord.

"You look so much like him." Her slim fingers smoothly brushing his cheeks, tracing the purple marks, "Do you know where he is?" she whispered hopefully, her eyes pleading as if her life depended on it.

I could hear my lord's heart shattered like broken glass.

Lord Sesshomaru brought up his larger hands to cup and hold her hands in place on his cheeks before he answered with his usual, "Hn"

"Can you take Rin to Lord Sesshomaru?" she whispered in an overwhelming tone, as if she had finally found the treasure of a life time. "Rin really miss him," her voice was broken at the end of the sentence. She brought her sad face closer to his, looking deep into his soul as if he was her last hope. Her sweet eyes are like knives to my lord.

And there I saw the rarest thing, something I thought was a miracle; he gave her a soft smile. A real smile that did not give me shills. My heart skipped a beat.

"Hn" Lord Sesshomaru hummed.

"Really?" she exclaimed brightly, her lips curves up showing her perfect teeth. My lord nodded his head lightly.

But then, she quickly pulled her hands away as if they were on fire, stood up and turned her back to him, looking terrified.

"No, I can't go. He doesn't want to see Rin. Something about Rin has change and Lord Sesshomaru doesn't want Rin anymore. Rin can't be with him anymore." She started to sob, and sobs broke into wails, her small shaky hands brought up to cover her teary face. "He won't come back for Rin anymore," She said in between sobs.

Lord Sesshomaru stood as well before reaching a claw hand to touch her small trembling right shoulder. To the world he looked expressionless, but to me, his heart was crying. "He is coming for you. Your lord will always come for you no matter what. No matter how much you have changed. No matter what happen. It doesn't matter if you are a child, a woman, or a grandma," he paused, "even when all your teeth have fallen out, he would still come for you. He will always welcome you."

"Really?" she slowly turned around, drew in a sniff, hope was written all over her doubtful face. "You think so?"

"I know so, Rin. I know so." He held out a hand to her and ordered, "Come".

She lifted her smaller human hand into his bigger demon claw one, her smile broadened as started to follow him.

Oct, 30, 2012.

Revived chapter 1-4, March 15 2013

I have decided to revive this story. They are pretty much the same; I just add more details to it. Some chapter has more than the other. If you read the version before and still remember, I would be very appreciated if you could tell me which on is better. Thanks.