Authors Note: I own nothing - just a little fun to cure some Hurricane Boredom. It's a little crackfic, that I will likely finish up later on. Let me know if I should bother.

She was headed down a dangerous path. She had never been on this path before and she knew that there was trouble waiting in the wings. Something in her being just wanted to walk down the path a bit longer and see where it took her. She was experimenting with life in ways that she had never had before. She was frequently putting life before the job, for the first time in her life ever, and she was determined to take some time to enjoy whatever this road had in store for her. At least, that was what she kept telling herself because it sounded better than she just did not want to make a choice. She did not want to have to examine her feelings that closely, she just wanted to have fun and be carefree. Most people went through this phase in their 20's, Olivia was in her 40's. It was inappropriate in more ways than even she could count, but yet she kept going. Fin had told her she was being self-destructive, and if she looked at it properly, she would realize that he was quite right. But instead she just laughed him off.

Her phone trilled with her text message tone dragging her back to the present. She was sitting in a car with Fin on the corner of 59th and 10th waiting for their perp to emerge from the apartment building he had run into.

"Uhoh, a member of the trio is headed for heartbreak." Finn joked with her.

She slapped his arm. "And how would you know that?"

"Because you are stuck here with me til he emerges and they can't get their taste."

She laughed. "Their taste?" She questioned as she typed her reply.

"Yea, you are like some kinda freak drug to all of them. What are you like really good in bed or something?"

She sipped her coffee and replied, "Well wouldn't you just like to know?"

He turned and looked at her like she was crazy. "And get involved in all that mess?! Aww hell no. You can't even decide which side of the spectrum you want to play on, Liv."

She shrugged. "I know it's a mess. But it's kind of a fun mess."

"You say that because the shit has not hit the fan yet."

" Yea I know." She sighed and looked out the window. She knew that a decision had to be made soon, but she really liked the time she spent with each of them. Each one of them provided her with something that she had not known she had needed until they started dating.

Fin looked at his partner and knew that she understood that her actions were wrong, but he also saw that she legitimately had no idea of what to do in the situation. She was dating three very different people, who all completely adored her, and it had been a rare occurrence that she could find even one person to make it past the first date. He knew that she loved the attention and the diversion it brought from the work they did. She actually had a life for once, and he really did not want to see her lose it all at once. "Listen, Liv, I am not judging you. I just want to make sure you don't get hurt – well emotionally because I have seen you walking a little rough after a few mornings." He said chuckling as she threw a piece of paper at him.

"Really, Finn! Thank you though. They each bring such different qualities to the table. Hell how can I get myself out of this situation, if I don't even know how I got myself into the situation."

Three Months Prior

As she sat by his hospital bed, she reminded him that she was not the same person that she once was years ago.

Brian Cassidy looked back at her and said, "Yes you are."

She responded with "No I am not." Followed by a sweet kiss. It was a kiss that was more than a decade in the making, and it was everything that she had expected it to be. She had walked away from him at a time when she was too busy focusing on her career and the victims, to even consider the thought that she should have a life outside of her work. As the years had progressed, she had been resigned to having no life, to being angry that she had no life, to fighting like hell to find a life outside of her work and being ever more tired. When she had kissed him, it felt like she had come home. That she had found that bad boy she craved with a touch of someone who knew her better than most. He had known her back then, and he knew her now too, granted not as well, but he still knew her. She had laid her head on his chest and fallen asleep without even knowing that it had happened. She rarely ever relaxed enough to fall asleep these days. Sleep only came when she was so exhausted that she fell as soon as she sat down or when she helped it come through the use of a good glass of wine or an Ambien.

They had progressed along in a semi-relationship. They had gone on a few dates and had more than a few dates in between the sheets. It had fallen into a kind of comfortable routine, but they had never expressed an definition of their relationship. As far as she was concerned, they were just two consenting adults using each other to relax at the end of a rough day. She figured that it was more than it had been previously for Brian, but she was still unsure of if he was more for her. And she was not particularly in a rush to find out.

A few weeks after she had gotten involved with Brian, she had received a call from Bayard Ellis. He had not spoken to her in sometime, since he had found out that she had been involved with David Hayden. She thought that she had broken Ellis' heart, but apparently it had healed. He had called her to ask her to coffee after he had returned from an extended business trip in California.

She had met him in a coffee bar on the Upper West Side. She had worn a red dress that she had just bought recently along with a pair of very tall and sexy stiletto heels. She had adorned it with a gorgeous gold necklace and matching dangle earrings. She had not really meant to dress for success, she had just wanted to look amazing for one night. She had wanted to hide the tired that she knew was prevalent on her face.

He had walked up to her wearing his usual suit, but with a huge grin on his face. They did the usual hug and kiss on the cheek that old friends did before sitting down to have their coffee.

"Olivia, you look amazing. I guess the scandal with your Captain has not phased you?" He asked with a twinkle in his eye.

"Bayard, you are too flattering. It has been a challenge for him and for us, but we are working through it." She gave him the softened truth of the reality that was her workplace on a daily basis.

"Olivia, take that guard down. You know you can be straight with me." He said calmly covering her hand with his own.

With that she had taken a huge sigh and went through the whole case. Brian getting shot, the Captain being charged and then not charged, and the scrutiny that was being placed on the squad now. She looked at him and ended her story with, "Remember when I said I was tired, well I am even more tired now."

"Well then I think that we should take you out to dinner and then help you get some rest."

From the coffee shop, they had grabbed dinner at a local Italian bistro. It had been quiet and romantic and a beautiful evening. They had ended their evening at his apartment, with her red dress on the floor in a pile as she had fallen into his bed. The sex had been amazing and the sleep had been dream worthy. She had managed to wake up rejuvenated and eager to spend more time with him, that was until she had looked at her phone and found several missed calls and texts from Brian.

She had managed to ease Brian's mind with the thought that she had passed out in the cribs and that her phone had been charging at her desk. He seemed to take the story with stride and moved on. This was her first sign that she might be getting into some trouble. However, she ignored the signs and went on to spend the day with Bayard and his daughter. She had had an amazing time and had forgotten totally about the world that she was normally part of. It had been the start of a number of similar daytime dates. Bayard had become her escape, just as he had offered to be not long before.

The third spoke in the wheel came after a particularly hard case not long after she had started also dating Bayard. The squad had gone to a local bar and their ADA, Alex Cabot, had come along to unwind. The liquor had been flowing and everyone's guard had come down as they sat around discussing how the case had affected them. Once they had all decided it was time to have some fun, the jokes and the flirtations had begun to fly across the table. Fin and Munch had sat back and watched the show as Amaro and Amanda practically dared the other to show their goods at the table. Meanwhile, Alex had been whispering some serious flirtations in Olivia's ear. The hot breath of the equally hot ADA had made her body begin to churn in ways that she would have never expected from a woman. She had never really identified herself as bisexual, but she had never really been opposed to exploring a relationship with a woman, the opportunity had just never presented itself until that night.

After a few hours of Alex breathing into her ear, she was about as stimulated as she could stand being before she exploded right there in the bar. So she had suggested that they sneak out and continue their conversation at Alex's place, as it was closer. They had barely made into her apartment before they were all over one another. Olivia followed Alex's lead and allowed herself to be controlled, something that never happened whenever she was with Bayard or Brian. Alex had kissed her with more passion than she had ever experienced with another man. She had brought Olivia to orgasm more times than she could count, and it had been mindblowing every time. It had been a surreal experience that she did not know how to explain when she awoke in the morning. Wrapped in Alex's arms in bed, she felt both relaxed and excited at the same time. And then her phone had gone off with messages from both Bayard and Brian.

She had made some excuses for all of them and had Alex's apartment in a state of confusion. She had planned to blow it off as a one-time thing, but then she had received some very erotic text messages throughout the week from Alex. Finally, they had meshed their schedules and had met up for a very intense evening where they were both stone cold sober.

Olivia had dealt with her situation on her own for about 2 months before she finally had to talk to someone about it. Fin was the lucky person to get the lowdown as they were on a stakeout. She had not planned on talking about it but she had gotten frustrated when she could not get Brian off her ass about going on a date that Friday night when she had already made plans with Alex, plans she was not really interested in cancelling. Her body had craved excitement these days and not so much comfort, especially when it came to getting her frustrations out of her system. Brian's idea of working off frustration was hitting the gym, Alex's idea was hitting the sex hardcore. Olivia was down for the latter more so than the gym. So when she had gotten his whining text about how she was never available on Friday nights anymore she had thrown the phone across the car, causing Fin to take notice.

"What's up?" He asked as he picked up her phone from the floor by his feet and handed it back to her.

"Just frustrated that people will not take no for an answer." She grumbled.

"Want to talk about it? Maybe I can give you a new approach?"

"If I tell you, it's just between us and you have to promise not to judge me." Liv extended her hand for a handshake on the deal.

Fin shook her hand and said "Always for you, Liv."

"Well I kind of got myself into a bit of a situation. I am kind of dating three people at the moment."

"Say what?! How on earth did that happen?"

"Gee thanks! What am I not hot enough for that to possibly happen?" She scoffed.

"Dude that's not what I am saying!" He said looking offended that she would think he thought that of her. "I meant of all the people I know, you are the last person I would see in that situation just because of who you are as a person. I am not judging, but how on earth did you get in this mess."

She proceeded to tell him the course of events that had gone down leading up to her dating three different people. She had avoided names during the process hoping to keep that part silent, but he was too smart for her own good.

"Liv, so who are they?"

"Brian, Bayard and Alex."

"Whoa! Alex as in Alexandra Cabot?" He looked at her with a smirk.

"Yes." She said rolling her eyes at him.

"Damn girl! She's hot! Good for you! I don't know what you see in those other two, but I can understand Alex." He said laughing.

She punched his arm lightly. "Well now I need to get myself out of this mess. That's where you come in, Yoda!"

"Well, Liv, you know you need to make the choice. Who is it that you want most in your life?"

Their conversation had been cut short when they saw their witness on the street and had gone after him. Ever since then Fin had been her confidant about the situation, as well as attempting to alleviate her stress by sending jokes her way every so often. They had grown to have a very comfortable repertoire about the whole thing, but it did not make the situation any better.

Back to Present Day

Fin bored with the silence woke his partner from her thoughts. "So who is in the top running now?"

"Ugh! It's not like I keep a running tally board or something." She grumbled.

"Alright then let's see if we can get you a decision. Tell me what you think of each of the relationships these days."

"Alex is hot and exciting. It's what I am looking for these days. A lot of fun, a lot of experimentation and just a romping good time. No serious commitment, as far as I know just some really good passion." She said frankly.

"Alright, so that's Alex. She's a bit plaything. I get it. But that's also you sticking with your whole non-commitment thing."

"She has not asked for commitment, so how can that be a factor?"

"Because you noted the lack of seriousness to the relationship. You like it because at the moment it appears to be a game on both sides of the fence."

"Alright note taken. Brian is comfort and being able to explore something I let pass me by. But the comfort is almost annoying at times. Bayard is my escape. I spend time with him and it's like SVU does not exist. I am Olivia Benson the person with him. At times, he almost seems to be too comfortable at times as well."

"Well it looks like the boys need to amp up their game a bit. Maybe your problem is that the boys are boring to you and Alex is all kinds of exciting, but the boys offer a longevity that Alex does not. Hell she barely sticks around as our ADA for long, would a relationship with her ever really work?"

"That's a good question. But how do I convince the boys to amp up their game the way I want?"

"I think that you can figure that out, but let's just leave it at – get creative, Liv."