Heyyahh, sorry if this is a bit rubbish but this is my first fanfic i've written on here so constructive critisism - good or bad - is welcome and opinions too!
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I sat on the cold white floor of my bathroom, staring at the droplets of blood, sliding across my skin. I heard the drip, drip, drip of the red liquid, splattering over the floor, painting it red. Rolling my head back onto the shower door, I closed my eyes, shutting out all of the technicalities of life and just revelling in the pain of what I had just done. Cutting wasn't the answer for this, but it was an answer – an easy answer, the quick answer. My forearms throbbed from the pain and I felt my head slowly start to spin, as the blood loss took over and I slipped sideways onto the hard floor.

"Hey, you seen Lissa?" I asked a group of moroi sitting at a table doing their homework. They shook their heads no. Hmm, she said she'd meet me here.
Wandering up to her room I heard distinct moans coming from inside her dorm room. Confused and thinking that she was with Christian I walked in, knowing that they wouldn't be doing anything too naughty while it was halfway through the vampire day. If anything, it'd be some majorly intense kissing, well; at least I hope that's what it is.
Shoving the door open I started to stroll in, but instead stopped dead about two steps in. There she was sitting on the bed, someone beneath her as she bounced, naked, up and down. Moans coming from both of them. I expected to hear Christian say something to her but what I did not expect was the voice having a certain Russian accent. I couldn't move, I was stuck there; frozen in time.
She fell forwards onto the Russian and slipped off of him, moaning in pleasure. The guy sat up, long brown hair framing his face.
A whimper escaped my lips as I recognised the chocolate brown eyes and gorgeous features. They both turned, startled and both covered up with the blanket on the bed.
"Shit" he said, as I ran out and down the hall, all the way back to my room, hot tears running down my face and off my chin. Students and teachers and even some of the guardians looked at me as if I had gone mad, but I couldn't care less about what they thought of me right now.
Running into my bathroom I slammed the door and opened my little mirror cupboard that was sitting directly over the sink. Frantically I searched for my one way of escape. Lissa's depression may have had a point as I slid down to the floor. Deep breath in and out; in and out. Opening the packet of razor blades I cautiously took one out and dropped the rest of the packet. I touched one edge to my arm and slowly brought it across my skin over and over again, leaving wet, red lines across it releasing all of my pain.

I heard voices surrounding me, and a blanket around my shoulders. Opening my eyes slowly, they adjusted to the brightness of the overhead lights. There were faces hovering above me with concern etched onto their faces. As the saw my eyes open a loud sigh of relief rippled through the room.
"Roza." My head snapped over to a face I recognised too well and I cringed back into the bed, the picture fresh in my mind as I recalled the Russians' voice in my head. He came over, confusion written all over his face as he lent down.
"G- get away from me" I whispered in a small voice.
"What?" he asked, still confused, but did as I said anyway. He frowned as he sat down in the chair across the room from me.
The doors opened as Doctor Olendski came in the room, clipboard in hand. She shooed everybody away from me, making me realise that there were about six people in this small room(not including me) – Alberta, Eddie, Janine, Lissa, Adrian, Doctor Olendski and him. She walked to the bed and examined my arms, not saying a single word. She wrote down a few sentences on her clipboard and walked straight out again, only giving me a single sympathetic smile.
The rest of them stared at me as they took in the extent of why I was in here. I was pretty sure it was Eddie who brought me here as we had an assignment due in for Stan's class and we were doing it in my room. I squeezed my eyes shut as a hurricane of pictures flew through my head of what was happening in a certain person's room. Suddenly I opened my eyes again as I remembered she was in here.
"Get out! GET OUT OF HERE NOW!" I screamed at both Dimitri and Lissa, rage coiling up inside me, threatening to burst out if they didn't. I knew it was the darkness in me but I didn't care. Both of them looked hurt and they both scrambled out of the room, with the others casting worried but curious glances between the three of us. I watched their faces as I watched Alberta's mouth open, as if she was going to speak, but I just simply rolled under the covers and hid from them all.