I really wanted to write a songfic about Roxas and Xion. Through my Prayers by the Avvet Brothers seemed perfect. So here it is,
Disclaimer-I don't own Kingdom Hearts or The Avvet Brothers.
Hard to believe I won't see you again, we were just fighting when winter began.
"I wasn't cheating!" Roxas yelled. "If you won't listen to me, leave!" His girlfriend-ex girlfriend now-stood in front of the door.
"I will! You are the worst thing that ever happened to me!" the ex, Xion, whipped her hand between them.
The coldness of our words,
competing with the wind
from the north.
"Really? Wasn't it you that said without me, you were nothing?!" he retorted.
Xion yanked open the door. "No, that was you!"
"Please! If I never met you, my life would be great! I don't need you!" Roxas glared. Xion's eyes, once beautiful to Roxas, were now sparking with anger.
"I hate you!" she screamed, slamming the door in his face.
Still it makes me shiver,
But in a very different way.
The pages of the calendar kept turning away.
Roxas pulled his jacket tightly around himself, a sudden wind chilling his bones.
She'll come back, he thought. They had fights all the time. But...the silence in his tiny apartment seemed too empty. Too...final.
I have some better words, now.
But it's too late, to say them to you.
Roxas sighed. Everything he could've said to make it better, to prevent the fight, flooded his mind.
My dream of all dreams and my hope of all hopes, is only to tell you.
To make sure you know.
How much I love you and how much I always did.
He pulled a silver band out of his pocket. Minuscule diamonds were wrapped around it the ring.
He was going to propose to Xion, to express just how much he loved her in four words.
Yes, I know you loved me.
I could see it in your eyes.
He imagined how her eyes would fill with stars. Roxas had planned everything. From the words he said to how he said them.
He would take her to the clock tower, their favorite spot, let the ring fall to the ground.
"Did you drop something?" he would ask, and when she turned around to see, he would present those fateful words to her.
And it was in you struggle.
And it was in your mind.
And it was in the smile, you gave me when I was a kid.
Roxas remembered when they first met. They were six or seven. Their families happened to be in the park at the same time. Xion was dancing loonily in front of her father, Roxas clinging to his mother. He saw Xion and and she saw her. The little girl smiled and Roxas knew she had to be an angel.
Feels like no one understands.
Why couldn't she just listen? Naminé had kissed him in an attempt to make her old boyfriend, Riku, jealous.
But Xion was the only one who saw.
And now my only chance,
To talk to you is through my prayers.
I only wanted to tell you I cared.
But...it was his fault. If only he had pushed her away. Roxas had been so surprised he couldn't think straight.
Every night after and every day since,
I found myself crying when the memory began.
Roxas buried his face in his hands and started crying.
He was wrong. He needed Xion like oxygen. Without her, he would forget to eat, to sleep, to live...
He picked up his camera. Planning to major in photography, this was his most prized earthly possession. It was filled with memories of her. She would joke that if he didn't stop stalking her, she'd call the police.
Sometimes it knocks me down
Sometimes I can just...put it away
He stumbled upon a photo of himself, arms wrapped around the ravenette's neck. They both looked so happy and carefree.
The picture knocked the breath out of him.
Down in my mind,
Where I don't care to go,
The pain of the lesson is letting me know
If you have love in your heart let it show,
While you can.
Roxas hated himself.
He had been so stupid! Why did he kiss Naminé? Why did he say those awful words to his love? Why did he let her walk out the door?
Yes, now I understand.
But now, my only chance
To talk to you is through my prayers
I only wanted to tell you I cared.
He had to set things right.
Roxas sprinted out the door, down the stairs and out to the street. He ran in the direction of her house, scanning the sidewalks as well.
There.
"Xion!" he screamed. He caught her in his arms.
"Roxas?" she turned her head slightly.
"I love you, Xion." he murmured. Tears streamed down the distraught boy's face.
"I...I love you too...Roxas..." she whispered.
Roxas took the ring out of her pocket.
"Xion...w-will you marry me?" he asked shakily.
She was stunned. At first Roxas feared she would turn him down. But then she threw her arms around his neck and yelled "Yes, you idiot!"
They fell to the sidewalk and kissed.
I only wanted to tell you I cared.
I know in the song she doesn't take him back, but I'v been just killing Roxas in my others fics. So...I wanted to give him a happy ending. If you think it would've been better or if you just would like to see how it would be if I did it unhappy, read 'Only Through My Prayers'.