I walk up to the front of the class, perspiring as hell. I try to stay calm but I can't help but swallow back the nervousness. For one of my mid-terms we had to write a song about someone we knew; what they made you feel and something in that nature (I chose music for my elective since I love it so much). And obviously I chose to write about Bree. I have always loved her.
Since we were 16 I started to develop these feelings that wouldn't go away no matter how hard I tried. I'm 20 now; in college and ready to rule the world. A year ago she moved in with Ethan and I was crushed. I hated when she said those words. Every night after that I couldn't get her out of my mind; 'I'm moving out… with Ethan… Ethan… Ethan.' "UGHH! FUCK OFFFF!" I breathed heavily, trying to calm myself. I could have stopped her from leaving but I didn't know if it would have been enough.
I sat on the teachers' desk in front of the classroom eyeing my peers as they stared back at me. My palms were sweating and my mouth was dry; I breathed deeply.
"This is a song I wrote for a very special friend of mine. And I think that's all we'll ever be." My guitar was rested on my knee as I strummed a note for the right key. "This is called 'What I Know'".
I take the car and drive at night
The white stripes blur and ease my mind
When all that's left is a single line
Instead of this confusion
And I'm not certain of the way it was
And I'm not sure what I could've done
Oh I wonder if it'd be enough
To stop her from leaving
And I realize, the only thing I know is
She said, I'm in love with someone else
She said, I fell in love with someone else
And I, I'm in love with someone
And that's all that I know for sure
I stop the car and close my eyes
I could see her face, but it takes a while
But it makes it like the morning light
Slow and unfocused
So I go home and
She's sitting on the kitchen chair
Oh, her suitcase waiting by the stairs
Oh they're both worn out from all the years
They're ready to let go
And I realize, the only thing that's sure is
She said, I'm in love with someone else
She said, I fell in love with someone else
And I, I'm in love with someone
And that's all that I know for sure
She's in love with someone else
She said, She fell in love with someone else
And I, she's in love with someone
And that's all that I know for sure
And I'm on my knees
And I'm on my knees
And I'm on my knees
And I'm on my knees
Yes, and I realize the only thing I know is
She said, I'm in love with someone else
She said, I fell in love with someone else
And I, I'm in love with someone
And that's all that I know for sure
She's in love with someone else
She said, she fell in love with someone else
And I, she's in love with someone
And that's all that I know for sure
I'm in love with someone else
She said, I fell in love with someone else
And I, I'm in love with someone
And that's all that I know for sure
She's in love with someone else
She said, she fell in love with someone else
And I, she's in love with someone
And that's all that I know for sure
As I finished the last cord I was relieved; nervous but relieved. I've never sung in public before; just in the lab while everyone was out or upstairs in my room. I looked up, scared to see the horror in their faces. But all I saw was awe. Like they couldn't believe I was that good. I began to get up from the desk and make my way to my seat but the bell rings before I can sit so I grab my things and bolt out the door as fast as I can.