A/N- Hey! This is theeShadyLady! Well, this is supposed to be a letter from Gale to Katniss. I'm don't know if it shows, but I am "Team Gale" and I'm not a fan of the end of Gale, with no real goodbye to him in book three. So, I wrote this for a little more closure on his behalf. This is only my first FanFic, so pleeeaase R/R! I'm gonna do more chapters, so that it's like they are exchanging letters.

((DISCLAIMER: I do not own the Hunger Games.))

Ch. 1: "Remember I-"

Dear Catnip,

It's Gale and I know it hasn't been that long, but I can't wait any longer. To hide my hurt, I've been pretending to be madder than I am… Yes, I am pissed about you and him, but it's just because seeing you two together hurts me, more than I can bear. I know you're still mad and I understand that you don't want to talk to me, and I guess I must deserve it. But, there are still some things you need to know…

The first thing is, I didn't necessarily leave because I wanted to, I mainly left because for now it's what's best for you…

The look on your face the last time you saw me, haunts me every time I think of you. It literally kills me to know that just seeing me, causes you pain… I can't pretend that I didn't help with the bombs, because I did. But, Katniss, I promise you, I didn't know that's how they were going to use them. And, I know every time that you see me, you also see her.

And, I just can't put you through that, I can't stand hurting you.

Also, you need to know something else… Do you remember… the day you left for the first Games? I started to tell you to remember something, but the peacekeepers pulled me away before I could finish talking…

"Remember I love you."

That's what I was trying to tell you before you left. I guess it's a lot like when we used to go hunting... You get just the one chance -the one perfect shot- and if you hesitate, you miss. Well, I waited too long, Katniss, and I missed. If we could go back to that day, and I had been able to tell you, if I had tried just a couple seconds earlier… Maybe, just maybe, things would be different right now… But, we will never know, because we can't go back.

Because if I could, you can believe me, I would, no matter what the consequences would be.

They say everything happens for a reason, but I still can't figure out why this had to happen to us. I miss you, and I want so badly to go back to being us. I wish we could go back to the days, when it was just me and you, hunting in the woods. Back to when we needed each other, even though I still need you, I want to go back to when you still needed me.

One day I hope you will forgive me, but if you don't, well, I guess that's how it has to be. But, every day I will be hoping, you'll change your mind.

I will never stop hoping.

I guess that's all, this is the end of my letter. But, I am not going to say goodbye, because goodbyes are too permanent... If I don't say goodbye, I might be able to pretend that it's not over, maybe I can pretend that we are still friends or that I know one day you'll forgive me…

So, I will never say goodbye to you.

And Catnip, I will always love you.

-Gale

~theeShadyLady~