So, not dead, HiWtHi is actually coming along just slowly. However, a friend of mine (SunstreakerLamboTwin here on FFN) started doing the 28 meme for Sunstreaker and I really liked the words she had. So I kinda nabbed them and I'm doing our favorite LamboTwins in general :P Maybe I'll do one for Ratchet. Who knows.

Anyway, this is what happens when my brain doesn't shut down and keeps me up until 6 am.

Discalimer: As always, not mine, but I really wish it were so.

Enjoy~

Always

He was an idiot.

That's all there was to it. An. Idiot. Maybe worse. And these weren't thoughts that Sunstreaker would ever normally say about himself. But he was. And this time he'd screwed up. Royally.

He didn't mean it. He didn't mean it at all… But he'd still said it. Still shoved his words in the other's face and cut deep. He'd seen it cut deep and at the time all he had felt was satisfaction. Satisfaction that he'd finally gotten through that damned thick helm and maybe, just maybe, made the other hurt as much as he thought he was hurting.

He should have known better.

Always his stupid mouth! Always his stupid temper!

It hurt a whole lot worse now. His spark wanted to tear itself apart with anger, fear, sorrow… Guilt. The golden mech paced the hall just outside the doors to the medibay. Inside, on a slab of metal called a medical berth, he was getting surgery. If only he hadn't been an idiot, then this would never have happened.

Sunstreaker stomped down the hall for his quarters, the mocking laughter ringing in his audials even now. They didn't understand. Could never understand. He didn't want them to understand, if he were honest with himself. He made sure they didn't. And yet his spark twinged, his insides twisted and he wanted to punch something to the point of irreparable each time someone opened their mouths and said something without thinking.

Like always.

Fragging Cliffjumper. What did he know!? Sunstreaker wasn't sparkless, he wasn't a fragging 'Con. And yet it was always the same. He was a monster, a freak, violent, suicidal, glitched, psychotic, bloodthirsty…

Unwanted.

He growled when a hand fell on his shoulder and he spun on his heel to snarl in the other's stunned faceplates. "Frag off, glitch! What the frag do you want?! Come to laugh like everyone else? Cause I sure as frag didn't see you sticking up for me!"

"Sunny, I'm - "

"You're what?! Sorry?! Or were you going to say something else!? Frag off, I don't need you!" He watched the mech's face falter, optics shading to hurt uncertainty. A sharp stab of guilt twinged at his spark before it was swallowed by a wave of satisfaction. It was about time someone else started hurting too.

"I'm tired of you and your stupid ideas! You always frag it up or make it into a joke! Is that all this is to you?! A joke?!" He didn't mean it.

"For once I wish I didn't have to look at you!" He didn't mean it.

"I'm tired of always having your back but you never having mine! I don't need you! I wish I didn't have to deal with you! Why don't you just disappear!?"

He didn't mean it!

The look of utter despair, the bond snapping shut and the hitch in the other's vocalizer brought everything into crystal focus. Sunstreaker felt stunned at himself. "Wait, Si- " Too late, he'd been too late to stop the mech from turning and taking off down the hall. He was an idiot. Before he could run after him, the alarm klaxon rang and he had to run off for his things. Fighting some 'Cons would give them space and time for him to clear his processor.

It hadn't worked like that. And now he sat, hours after Ratchet had let him in, almost two days after his patient had taken a missile to his chest. One golden hand grasped a black one, holding the unresponsive palm and fingers to his own face. He leaned forward, forehelm resting against the other's, icy blue staring into dark covers.

"Don't you slagging give up on me, Sideswipe." He whispered desperately. "Not until I tell you how much I need you. Always."

Not until he told him how much he loved him.

Always.

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