Chapter 1: Concept of Dreams

She was only seventeen years old, twenty years his junior. She was unattainable - forbidden - which made him desperately want her. She was beautiful and so full of optimism and energy. He searched for years for someone like her - a woman that is attractive and had an attractive personality - and someone that also had wanted the world to be better as well. However he still hadn't found the woman of his dreams. Instead he found all the things he wanted but in a young girl. A young girl that could be his daughter.

He knew it was wrong to want her.

He knew he could never have her.

But all the truth and rationality could not fight away his deep lust for the girl.

Her eyes were mesmerizing - the prettiest shade of the sweetest hue of blue - huge and glossy. He loved the way she smiled. Her smiles were so confident - so self assured - much like his but they were more loving and compassionate. Tarrlok had nothing but darkness within him. Despite that they had many similarities: they both were natives of Water Tribes, had headstrong personalities, and had many responsibilities on their shoulders - they were completely different. She was sweet, kind light while he was selfish and dark. At first, joining the Council was a dream of his to make the world better but his goals turned bitter from the use of deceit and manipulation to maintain his power. The world was not good to him and he suffered from becoming heartless and his intentions were no longer pure. This girl would never do any of the horrible things he's done. He liked her for another manipulative reason. He could use her Avatar title for whatever he wanted. He knew it was wrong deep inside but he was in too deep with his wanting. Tarrlok knew it was why he was attracted to her. She was completely opposite to him - wild and unpredictable - but he loved that for it was easy to mold her.

However she refused his offer for her to join the Task Force but Tarrlok is equally stubborn as her, each hour of the day he would send her gifts to persuade her.

He wanted to have her by his side - to give orders to the Avatar in training - to take her underneath his wing. He wanted to watch her move - to the see the sweat roll down her body and coat her in places he wanted to see underneath her clothes. And yes, he wanted to taste her - take her all in and pound into her brutally only to stop when her screams die from exhaustion from his released passion.

"Tarrlok."

His eyes opened, hearing the sounds of frightened knocking. He was in his room, taking a very well deserved slumber from his nights working in the office. He moaned, hearing the squeaky voice and soft pattering from his feeble assistant. The knocking continued.

"I'm up," he answered rudely. Tarrlok was too tired to pretend to be polite in the morning. He had spent a small fortune a day before on gifts to the incompetent Avatar. Tarrlok wouldn't give up until he has her in the Task Force. And the worse of it was that he couldn't get her out of his head in his sleep in."You may come in -" Tarrlok paused, his heart beating. "Wait," he hissed. Tarrlok slowly pulled the sheets up. He turned pale, finding his sheets and pants drenched with his semen. He knew his dream he had of her was inappropriate but he hadn't expected it to be a wet dream. He hadn't had a wet dream in years. "I'm going to take a shower first."

"O-o-okay."

Tarrlok rolled his eyes. His assistant was spineless and cowardly. Tarrlok got up from his sheets, his cheeks flushed from shame. He stripped the sheets from the bed and then made way into his bathroom. He didn't care if his assistant would have to wait half an hour outside his door. Tarrlok brushed his teeth and turned on the shower. He didn't step into the shower yet. He wanted to wait for the water to get hot. He stripped himself from his clothes and grew disgusted from the sight of the evidence.

He slid down onto his tiled floor and placed his hands on his cock, massaging himself for more release. He moaned, tugging more at his member, trying to get himself freed before tonight. His closed his eyes, remembering the dream - she was naked on his lap, teasing him - her body pressed against his - rubbing against him. He moaned louder, stroking himself more roughly. He was already hard within seconds at the memory of the dream. She slightly stands up, putting her breasts close to his mouth. Tarrlok yearned to touch her. He licks his lips, imagining the taste of her - he wanted to suck her as if he was a starving man until she was dry - she must taste good. She's moaning, "Tarrlok, please bite me," she pleads. He smirks, sinking in his teeth in her right breast, his other hand groping her freed breast. She screams, reaching her climax. His other hand, shoves her closer to him so he could take more of her breast. Tarrlok stops, feeling her liquids soak his pants. His mouth releases her breast and he pushes her down on his bed, spreading her legs apart. She lets him.

"I want you," he finds himself whispering what he told her in his dream. His eyes opened, fluttering slowly, feeling himself release again. He sighed, swallowing hard. All the things he wanted - he could never have - to have a loving and kind father - to make his father proud - to make the city better - to find happiness- he couldn't have it.

He pulls out of his daydream and painfully makes his way into the shower. It was painful for him to move when he had an erection. He cleans his body, his body relaxing as the hot water was calming his knotted up muscles. His eyes focused on the ground. He sighs, standing still. For years he's been searching for the right woman to marry but he failed. The woman had to fit to his high standards - interest him - but he never did find her. He gave up on relationships and the idea of a family and children years ago, convinced he would never find the right person. Tarrlok became more sinister and bitter from the countless years of being lonely. And then he met Korra. She was everything he wanted - though he wanted her to comply to his demands...Tarrlok turns off the water and steps out into his walk in closet. He bit his lip, trying to forget about her - think of something to distract him. He goes picks out his finest clothes. He sighed. He can't get her out of his head. She was the symbol of all his dreams of his child self: to have an unbroken family with his father loving him - his mother the way she was before - and to have his older brother in his life. He wanted to make his father proud, make something out of himself, help the world, to show everyone he wasn't the weak little boy anymore.

But the childhood dreams were merely an escape from reality. The little hopeful boy grew into a depressing, pitiful man with nothing but loneliness and shattered dreams that never came true. He gave up on fighting for good the honest way and turned into deception.

He spent years blocking out all his childhood memories but then Korra came into his life. He was swarmed with emotions of depression, anger, lust. And she was merely a girl of barely seventeen. A little girl yet she was the symbol of all his crushed dreams.

"Dreams are for fools," he whispered, fixing his toggles on his vest. Only the weak wish for things instead of doing anything. Wishes become nothing but mockery of all the wasted years of waiting. Tarrlok should have known all the things he had prayed for won't always come true but there was still hope in him.

He shuts his eyes. She's still in his mind - her bright blue eyes blazing with sweetness - her mouth curled into a confident grin. Tarrlok sighed. He was too old for her. Besides, she wouldn't fall in love with someone like him. Tarrlok knew wishing for her would never come true but he couldn't stop dreaming. He knows it will never happen but there's still hope left in his empty heart. Sometimes you can't stop what your heart wants. Tarrlok knew this. His heart keeps going around and dreaming for her - hoping that one day she could be his...constantly as each day passes even though he knew that it was nothing but a wish that would never happen.

Just like wishing for his dead older brother back.

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