Paul POV

She hadn't slept for days. When she did sleep it was for a couple hours at the most before she woke up screaming. None of the Cullen's could get close to her, she allowed Rosalie to be the in the same room as her but she couldn't touch her otherwise she'd start having a flashback thinking she was back down there.

I didn't know what to do, she barely spoke and when she did it was small sentences, she barely ate. Most of her bruises and cuts had healed but she still looked exhausted and haunted.

Carlisle had suggested giving her sleeping pills but he was nervous about actually giving her them while she was still fairly unresponsive and wasn't eating properly.

"Hey" I smiled softly at Bella as I sat down next to her on the window seat that looked out onto the current pouring rain

"Hi" She answered quietly not looking away from the water sliding down the window

"How you feeling?" I asked the question everyone had been asking

She shrugged a shoulder in answer

"Here, Emily gave me these for you, your favourite" I smiled at her as I placed the box of muffins in between us

"I'm not hungry" Was her reply just like every time any of us tried to get her to eat

"Come on Bells, you gotta try one, think they might be the best one's yet" I encouraged her but she just shook her head, "Well, you better eat one soon, otherwise Quil will come sniffing around" I joked earning a barely there smile

"I was talking to Eddie earlier" I told her earning an eyebrow raise, "I know I'm as surprised as you are", we hadn't gotten along any better with the Cullen's, we had learned to put up with each other and not hate one another, "Anyway, I was trying to think of things that could possibly help and he told me you could use his music room whenever you wanted" I informed her, I figured music was probably one of the main things she used to get her anger and stuff out and she hadn't had that opportunity yet, so maybe that would help her

"You wanna go?" I asked her

"Will he be there?" She asked quietly, fear ringing out loud in her voice

"Nope, no one will be there, you have free reign, I'll even leave if you want" I tried to reassure her

"Don't leave" She whispered the fear causing pai to tug at my chest in short bursts

"I'm not going anywhere" I promised her, "So, how about it?"

She nodded her head silently before turning around on the seat and standing up. She looked smaller now, her clothes hung on her, her normally skin-tight jeans barely hung on to her hips. I didn't know what to do to get her eating properly again, most times it ended up with me guilt tripping her into getting her to eat half of a meal but I hated doing it.

Bella followed closely behind me, almost moulding herself to my back as we walked down the hall. A bang downstairs followed by the booming laugh of Emmett caused Bella to jump and nearly bolt back to the room. I took her shaking hand in mine and she calmed down slightly but she eyed the main stairs warily as if satan himself was gonna walk up them at any moment.

Pushing open the door I stepped inside to the dimly lit room and closed the door behind us, silencing the loud noises downstairs.

"You okay?" I asked her as she walked quietly around the room

She nodded her head completely avoiding looking at me as she continued to take in the room as if she'd never seen it before

"I get he's a leech and everything but he could have some lights in here" I muttered to myself as I looked around the dark room, the only light coming from the massive window

Bella walked over to the piano and sat down on the bench and stared at the keys silently, her brow furrowed as she seemed to think about something. She sat there like that for a while, a few times she opened her mouth before she shut it again.

"What's going on Bells?" I asked her

"I…I can't" She stuttered out looking confused

"Of course you can" I smiled at her but she just shook her head, "What do you mean Bells?" I asked but she just shook her head as her lips trembled slightly

I didn't know what to do, I knew she didn't like me to see her upset but I hated not doing anything, "How about I go downstairs and get us something to eat and we leave the piano tonight and just watch a load of movies or something?" I suggested gently trying to find something that would make her a bit happier

She nodded her head quickly standing up from the piano and walking over to me, her eyes solidly on the floor.

We walked back to the room in silence, Bella quietly went into the bedroom and shut the door behind her as I walked downstairs meeting the expecting faces of the Cullen's and some of the pack

"How is she?" Embry asked

"I don't even know" I sighed shaking my head

I wish I knew what to do, no one knew what to do to make this better and it was so fucking frustrating, even Carlisle didn't know what to do, he just said it would take time, I didn't know how long I could watch Bella like this.

"She's gonna be ok" Alice told me

"How long?" I asked her

"I don't know, all I know is that she'll be happy, she'll be Bella again" She said softly

I nodded my head before getting what I came down for.

Bella and I spent the rest of the day and night lying in bed watching movies and crappy tv shows, sometimes she laughed and the haunted look seemed to melt off her face briefly but it was as if as soon as she realised what she was doing it snapped straight back. She ate a little bit more tonight, it was barely anything and still wasn't enough but it was more than what she had been eating so I saw it as an improvement.

"You want any more pain killers?" I asked her

"No, they make me sleepy" She answered

"You need to sleep Bells, it isn't doing you any good" I tried

"I don't like to sleep" Bella told me quietly

"You're gonna make yourself even more sick Bells" I told her

"It's fine" She answered quickly, "I'm fine"

I shook my head silently not wanting to fight with her. I hated this, she was so fucking stubborn, I was glad she was trying to get off the pain killers but I was upset that she was trying to do anything to get out of sleeping.

I woke up in the middle of the night to an empty bed, the house was pretty quiet, most of the Cullen's hunted during the night and a lot of the pack went home to their own homes. Most nights I'd wake up to an empty bed but Bella was either out on the balcony or on the window seat, she wasn't in either place tonight and fear started to pool in my stomach.

"Bells?" I called softly as I opened the door and looked down the hallway, the silence seemed to deafen me as I walked down the hallway, where the fuck did she go?

Quietly I heard the noise trickle out the crack in the door, the sound filled me warmth but chilled me at the same time, cracking the door open wider I was glad to see it wasn't my imagination and Bella was sat at the piano playing quietly

The Smiths-Asleep

Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

I'm tired and I

I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

And then leave me alone

Don't try to wake me in the morning

'Cause I will be gone

Don't feel bad for me

I want you to know

Deep in the cell of my heart

I will feel so glad to go

Sing me to sleep

Sing me to sleep

I don't want to wake up

On my own anymore

Sing to me

Sing to me

I don't want to wake up

On my own anymore

Don't feel bad for me

I want you to know

Deep in the cell of my heart

I really want to go

There is another world

There is a better world

Well, there must be

Well, there must be

Well, there must be

Well, there must be

Well...

Bye bye

Bye bye

Bye...

Bella looked up at me shocked as she finally realised I was there, I didn't know what to say, I kind of felt like my insides were collapsing.

"I'm sorry" Bella whispered quietly, her voice cracking loudly in that two word sentence

"It's ok" I said wrapping my arms around her, I didn't know what she was apologising for and I didn't know what I was saying ok to but whatever it was, Bella cried into my chest, it was like everything she had been holding in for the past few days had just broke.

We didn't say anything else, I carried her back to the room after she'd calmed down and for the first time in a while, she slept through the night

A/N So I haven't been here for a while, I ain't gonna give you excuses like school's been busy as shit and I had writers block cos lets face it no one gives a damn but hey here's an update

Also, in case anyone cares, I handed in my short story (which you can read 'Damn Tattoo') and my teacher fricken loved it so if you want to read it, it's on my profile, knock yourself out, so yeah, review!