Chapter fourteen:

Bella P.O.V:

The darkness swirls around me. I don't know which way is up and which is way is down. My body feels like concrete. I want to move my arms and legs but they won't move. Time passes and I feel like I blur in and out of foggy conversations that take place around me.

"Bella, it's time...to wake up now...misses you baby girl...not eating...come on Bella...too long...need to eat Paul...No...Wake up...please...please...I love you... Wake up and marry me...my dad gone Bells...need you...we love you...Charlie...Renee...Emily...Kim...Leah...Sam...Jared...Jacob...Embry...Paul...Paul...Paul...Wake up baby girl...I love you Bella Swan...Don't leave me baby...love you...miss you...wake up."

Words swirl around me. I can hear people speaking and I want to open my eyes but I can't. My eye lids are too heavy. My body is in so much pain. Every whispered word breaks my heart. The pain and fear in the voice causes me to tremble. What happened? Where am I? Where is Paul? Paul? I need you Paul, please help me. I'm stuck here and I can't get out. A cold hand grasps mine and I try to squeeze but I think it is too light.

"Bella, wake up honey. It's been 4 days now. The doctors don't know why you haven't woken up yet. I miss you so much, so does Paul. The poor guy doesn't eat or sleep, he just sits here. I had to kick him out just so he would go shower. He will be back soon honey. Please wake up for us."

"Charlie! Charlie! I'm here, I can hear you. I just can't do anything. Help me daddy"

I want to cry but I can't.

I want to move but I can't.

I want to speak but I can't.

I want to scream but I can't.

I am on the outside. All I can see is darkness.

I focus on my finger, willing it to move. It doesn't but I keep trying because if I can just move something I might find my way out of here.

Finally after awhile I drift out again. I think I may have slept. Time has passed but I don't know how long.

"Hey Bella, it's Emily here. I know you can hear me. I brought you your pillow and some of your own pyjamas to keep you comfortable. It's time to wake up now, you're scaring us. Paul especially. He finally had a shower. Sam literally had to throw him in the shower. He misses you. We miss you. Please wake up. We need you. He needs you."

I want to cry but I can't.

I want to move but I can't.

I want to speak but I can't.

I want to scream but I can't.

"I'm back baby. Charlie made me take a shower. I'm sorry I left you baby, he threatened to have me kicked out if I didn't start smelling nicer. I used some of your body wash. It reminds me of you. I love you so much and I'm never letting you out of my sight again. So you better wake up soon otherwise your wolf might starve."

I focus on my eyes, willing them to open. Or even flutter. The darkness swirls around me but the voices are getting clearer. I try so hard to open my eyes, I'm exhausted and I can't. A petite warm hand grasps mine and squeezes.

"I'm so sorry Bella. I didn't mean for you to get hurt. The wolf just took over and I couldn't stop. I'm so so sorry. Please wake up. I already lost my dad that night I can't lose you too. I'm so sorry, please wake. I need you."

Leah cries against me. I want to hug her. I want to tell her it's not her fault. I want to cry with her over her dad. I want to know what happened.

"Come on Bells, I need you to wake up. Who is going to make me my blueberry pie? And who is going to tell me off for picking on Paul when he acts like a hormonal teenager? Seriously though Bells, we love you. It's not the same without you"

I move my finger but no one notices. My toe wiggles slightly against the sheet but no one notice. My eyes flutter but no one see.

Paul where are you? I need you. I need you. I need you. You would see my finger move. You would see my toe wiggle. You would see my eyes flutter.

I'm so tired. My body is sore. My head aches but all I want is you.

"Paul..." I whimper slightly before the darkness takes over again and I fall into a deep sleep.

I feel awake. My eyes are heavy but I think I can open them if I try hard enough. My head aches but my body feels ok. Light is shinning through my closed eyes. I hear breathing on both sides of me. Two people are holding my hands. One hot and one warm. I try to squeeze but it's hard.

"I'm going to get something to eat from downstairs. I'll bring you something back"

It's Charlie. I hear a grunt from beside me and my hand is squeezed tighter. Charlie places a kiss on my forehead before his footsteps retreat and then a door closes. The weight on my bed shifts as someone moves closer to me. I'm able to smell and it smells like home. Its my home. It's my Paul. I try to open my mouth but he cuts me off.

"Please baby, wake up now. It's been 8 days. And I miss your smile. I miss your laugh but most of all I miss looking into your beautiful eyes. I love you Bella. When you wake up I'm going to marry you. I'll even get down on one knee. But you have to wake up and say yes baby. You have to wake up so we can have a family together and grow old together. Please baby wake up and marry me. Say yes Bella." he whispers brokenly. My heart breaks and I squeeze his hand as tight as I can hoping he can feel it. It only takes a second before he does.

"Bella?" he asks hopefully.

"Yes" I croak out. My eyes flutter and they finally open. It takes a few seconds but my eyes finally adjust and staring down at me is Paul. He has tears streaming down his face and his smile lights up the room.

"Say it again" he begs. I smile back at him.

"Yes" I say clearer than before.

Paul starts kissing every inch of my face while cradling my head in his hands. He whispers his love for me over and over.

"I love you, I love you, I love you" he chants. Tears still streaming down his face. I lift my heavy arms up to cradle his face and I rub his tears gently away with my thumbs.

"I love you, Paul" I whisper. My voice is dry and croaky. Paul notices and leans over to grab a cup of water with a straw. I take little amounts while he holds the cup in place for me. When I've finished drinking, he places the cup down and we stare into each others eyes with our foreheads against each other. Time passes. I don't know how long we have been staring at each other but a loud gasp from the door breaks us apart. I stare at the door and Charlie is looking at me with wide eyes. He walks quickly towards me and gently pulls me into a hug.

"Oh Bella, you're finally awake. Are you ok? Are you in pain? I'll go and let the nurse know that you're awake." he says before rushing out the door.

"What happened Paul?" I ask quietly. Paul looks deep in to my eyes and I can see his remorse.

"Baby, I am so sorry. When Embry howled he had 5 vampires surrounding him not far in the forest near the beach. They needed me and I had to go. It was all my fault. We thought there were only five but we heard the vampire talking to you all, that's how close we were. Everything happened so fast. Leah phased and you were knocked backwards. You hit your head on a rock. There was so much blood that I froze. I couldn't move. I was so scared that I had lost you." he said brokenly. He buried his head in my shoulder and I could feel tears pooling against me.

"My fault. So sorry baby. My fault" he murmurs brokenly.

"I'm ok Paul, I'm here. It's not your fault" I say while rubbing my hand up and down his back. After a few minutes he lifts his head a place a soft loving kiss on my lips. He pulls back and starts to tell me the rest.

"Leah took down the red hair vamp by herself. Harry...he had a heart attack after Leah phased and he...he didn't make it."

I gasp and tears spring down my face. Poor Leah. First she phases and now this.

"Is she ok?"

"Jacob has been looking after her. She is in shock I guess. But we will all be there to support her." he says quietly. I pull him close and bury my head in his chest. The sudden movement causes me to whimper in pain. Paul gently lays me back down.

"Lay still baby, the nurse will be in soon and she will give you more pain killers." he says quietly.

"No I don't want to go to sleep. I've been laying there for days being able to hear everything and I couldn't move. No more drugs please Paul. I want to stay awake" I say pleadingly.

"Ok baby. Wait! You heard everything?"

"Yeah the first few days it wasn't very clear but I could hear words. But it got clearer and clearer as the days went past. I heard you hadn't showered and Sam had to throw you into the shower. I also heard that you want to marry me and get down on one knee" I say as Paul stares at me in amazement.

"You said yes" he says quietly. I nod smiling at him.

He reaches into his pocket, pulls out a small black velvet box and gets down on my one knee next to the bed. He holds my hand gently in his and stares into my eyes.

"Bella Marie Swan, I have loved you since the first moment I laid eyes on you. You are the sweetest, kindest, most caring person I have ever known. You make me want to be a better person. You are so beautiful, inside and out. I want to spend the rest of my life showing you how much I love and need you. Would you please marry me and make me the happiest man alive?"

"Yes" I cry. Tears stream down my face as he places a beautiful white gold princess cut engagement ring on my left hand. Once he places it gently on, I pull him up and capture his lips in a passionate kiss.

"Awwwww"

We both turn to see Charlie, Leah, Jacob, Sam, Emily, Embry, Kim and Billy all cramped in the doorway. All the females have tears streaming down their faces and the males all have wide smiles across their faces. One by one we are hugged by all, Leah being the last. I pull her in closely as she whispers how sorry she is.

"It's no one fault Leah"

A/N: Reviews are always welcome.