After the night that Axel had sung to me in the shower, I was even more confused about what to do. He did see right through me, not like I am that complicated a person to do so anyway, but still. He knows how I feel, so why am I still trying to lie to myself?

I know why.

It's easier that way.

When my parents started showing signs of loving Sora more, I got so sad, I would cry as…as Axel held me. No matter how much I whined or complained, he was always one there to tell me that I was just as important and wanted. But the more I let my parents favoritism bother me, the more it hurt. Then I realized that if I acted like I didn't care, then soon enough I'd feel that way too. I guess, I'm lying to myself, to protect myself. The only question left is, how badly am I hurting Axel by doing so?

I was walking down the hall when I saw my favorite redhead.

"Hey," I said nervously. After our last run-in, I wasn't sure what to expect from him.

"Hey Blondie." Axel smiled.

"So, how, how uh, how are you doing?" I stammered.

"You're so cute, acting all shy and sounding so formal cause you know you love me." Axel ignored my question.

"Are you going to answer or not?" I pretended to be angry to avoid attention to the truth behind his statement.

"I'm doing wonderful, now that I am talking with you." Axel and I stopped down at the corner of the hall where our doors met.

"Oh," I rubbed my arm timidly.

"Look at how adorable you are," Axel took a step closer to me, forcing me into the corner as I backed up against the wall. I gulped, wishing I had somewhere to run and hide, and yet, thankful that I was trapped before him.

"I," I didn't know what I was going to say, or if I was going to say anything at all, but instead I only trembled.

"Are you cold baby?" Axel put his arms around me, and like a victim to the gravitational pull between us, I fell into his hold.

"Mhm," I whispered a murmur.

"I'll keep you warm," He said huskily into my ear as my lips parted in a hopeful anticipation .

"Axel," I moaned weakly as I felt his knee creep between my legs. Without my brain working, my hips rocked towards him, causing his pelvis to lean forward against mine. I felt our bodies meshing as my eyes closed, ashamed of how easily I had succumbed to his desire. I let out a shuddered breath as his lips exhaled over my ear. When his warm air suffocated my ear, I grabbed his biceps, too weak to think about anything other than staying on my feet. Then of course, his tongue slithered up my lobe, causing me to tremble in his grasp. When I thought it couldn't get any worse, he licked my inner ear, releasing a whimper from my hungry lips as I tilted my head to help him reach. Axel held my sides before he kissed his way down my ear, past my jawbone, and onto my neck. It tickled as I squirmed, but that only made me push my groin harder against his. Axel let out a pleasurful gasp as I forced my crotch against his, wanting to feel the pressure of his hips pushing mine back into the wall, which he did as if he had read my mind.

"Oh god," I barely uttered before he stared me in the eye. I felt so weak, so vulnerable as I tried to look elsewhere, but he wouldn't let me.

"Hey," he said firmly yet quietly. After he got my attention, I gazed back into his beautiful jade eyes. "I love you." He said, not giving me time to think before he kissed my lips. We made out and I didn't even bother trying to resist. After a few minutes, we pulled back and I stood there panting. "That wasn't so hard." Axel smirked as I gulped down as many nerves as I could. "Or maybe it is." Axel raised his eyebrows before I realized that he was staring at my erection. I gasped as I covered it with my hands.

"I need to go," I tried to wriggle my way free, but Axel stopped me.

"Shh, I can take care of that for you." Axel nipped at my ear as I rushed my hands to my mouth to cover the groan that wanted to break free. "Let me hear," Axel lowered my hands. "I want to hear all the sounds you make," Axel said so soothingly that I felt my body weakening once more. I wanted to melt as my eyes closed for a brief moment.

"I, I need to go," I reached for my doorknob but Axel pulled me into a hug.

"Do you really want to go and leave this nice warm hug?" Axel smiled at me. I bit my lip, hating him for how brilliant he was before I responded.

"I don't want to let go."

"Then don't. You're more than welcomed to join me in my shower." Axel lifted up my chin and kissed my lips softly. To my own surprise, I kissed him back. I was desperate as I went on my toes and forcefully pressed my lips against his. Axel grinned as I took the lead by kissing him multiple times, and when I finally went back down on my feet, he let out a deep breath. "I love you Roxas. Now let's go shower." Axel kissed my cheek.

"Ok." I gulped nervously as Axel winked at me.

"Here, we can share my towel." Axel took my hand and led me to the bathroom.

"Are, are you sure we should, you know, share a shower?" I asked, a bit uncomfortable of the idea of showering together in college dorm showers.

"Sure, Demyx and Zexion do it all the time." Axel shrugged. He looked over at the shower stalls and let out a laugh. "Don't you guys?!" he shouted.

"Hi Axel!" Demyx yelled back over the sound of running water as I gulped.

"Having fun Zexion?" Axel asked as I went red, thankful that they couldn't see us.

"Give it a rest!" Zexion yelled back before Axel snickered.

"Aww, come on baby, don't be rude." Demyx giggled. I sighed, grateful that they didn't know that I planned on showering with Axel.

"It's ok, Roxas and I are going to shower together too!" Axel said, ruining the last bit of privacy I had.

"Oh awesome!" Demyx cheered back.

"Roxas, if you can get your boyfriend to shut up, I'll get mine to shut up too!" Zexion said grumpily, actually causing me to smile.

"Now that's just rude! I just might have to spank you as punishment." Demyx said from within his shower stall.

"Alright, we'll let you two have some fun. Later!" Axel said before we went into our own stall and turned on the water.

"You're so weird." I whispered quietly to compensate for the last conversation we just had.

"You know you love me." Axel winked.

"Axe?" I had a question on my mind, especially after what Zexion said.

"Hm?" Axel asked as he started stripping.

"Are, are we dating?" I had to know as I took off my shirt.

"Do you want to?" He asked and I nodded. "Then we're dating." He smiled.

"Can, can you ask me, formally?" I blushed, feeling cheesy, but I just wanted to feel like it was real.

Axel smiled at me before he took my hands. "Roxas, be my boyfriend?"

"Only if you'll be mine." I got so nervous, I didn't know what else to say. The idea of him asking me a question I had already answered was surprisingly more difficult than I expected.

"Of course. I love you." Axel held me, our bare chest's pressed together as I inhaled into his embrace. "Come on." Axel and I finished stripping before we entered the shower together.

"You still want me to fix that?" Axel asked as he pointed to my erection. I didn't want to nod but I didn't want to lie either, so I just looked at him until he chuckled. "Here," Axel turned me to face the wall as he stood right behind me. "Just like that," He whispered into my ear as the sound of the water drowned me into his touch. I could feel his body against my ass and my back and when his hand wrapped around my dick, I shook.

"Ah!" I gasped, a hand to my mouth to try to quiet myself.

"It's ok," Axel gently took my hand off of my mouth and held it tightly. "I want to hear you." Axel kept his head by mine as he started pumping me slowly. It felt so good but I was so nervous, I could feel my eyes watering.

"Does it feel good?" Axel asked and I nodded honestly. It felt amazing, his warm hand and the hot water all mixed into the perfect combination of pleasure.

He sped up as I rested my head back against his chest, my thighs quaking as I began to go numb.

"Mmm, yeah, my Roxy," Axel whispered as I bucked my hips forward into his hand. "Go on, keep thrusting, just like that," Axel coached as my hips moved on their own. My head was calling me a whore but for my own life, I couldn't stop what my body was so deliciously enjoying. I thrusted repeatedly into his hand, squeezing his other as I started to moan without control. I could tell that I was getting a bit too loud when even Axel seemed nervous about the sounds I was making, but I couldn't help it! It was his damned fault. To help with my sound control, Axel kissed me from behind, and within seconds, I spurted into his hand. I swallowed thick before I turned to face him, watching him smile sweetly as he rinsed his hand under the streaming water.

"Good job baby." He kissed my cheek as I stood there, face no doubt flushed. I was so embarrassed, I forced him to hug me. He chuckled as he rubbed my back. "Such a good job." I didn't know what to say so I remained silent. Instead, I took his bar of soap and ran it across his chest, messaging it in with my hands.

"Mmm, that feels really good." Axel smiled at me as I soaped his torso.

Axel smiled as he washed my hair for me, and I stood there happy to just be by his side. The water was warm as I watched it fell down his pale skin, and I did my best not to gawk at him. It was hard not to stare as the water so fluidly soaked his hair, teasing me as it tickled past his nipples and over his belly button and even further south. Axel caught me watching, so he smiled before he pulled me into a hug. The feeling of his wet skin against mine was so relaxing as I felt his hands massage my back. I exhaled onto his chest, shivering not from cold but from the nerves mixed with the excitement of something so enticing to my body.

After we both finished our silent shower, Axel dried me off before drying himself off. He had brought a spare pair of his clothes for me to change into, so I was nice and cozy in his T-shirt and basketball shorts, hoping that this would be how the rest of our lives would continue; just us, no drama, just love. We returned to his room and just as he was putting his towel up to dry, I decided to risk it all, just one more time.

"Axe, please?" I asked shaking slightly.

"What is it Roxas?"

"Don't get mad at me for asking."

"Asking what?" I could tell that even though he asked, he knew.

"Why did you leave me?" I gripped his shirt in my fists and I gasped when he swooped me arm in his arms like a baby.

"I had to move." Axel said as he sat us on his bed, with me still in his lap.

"Why?" I asked, loosening my grip as I moved my hands around his neck.

"My parents. They, they weren't treating me right, so I had to move with my uncle."

I took a minute to think back to when we were kids. Most of the time Axel came over to my house; in fact I don't even remember going over to his. In the beginning I told myself that we went to each other's houses equally, but it wasn't until the dream like flashbacks when I realized that I had never even seen the inside of Axel's house. My parents never cared if I had Axel over cause they were far too busy with work and making sure that Sora had it easy.

"They didn't treat you right?" I asked and Axel shrugged.

"Why do you think I was always complaining about tripping down a flight of stairs, or falling off my bed at night and bruising myself?" I stared at his eyes as I gave it some thought.

"I, I don't know." I felt so conflicted; here I was, finally learning the truth I needed to hear, but I couldn't register it into my head.

"I never fell. It was them." Axel whispered.

"Them?" I didn't like the sound of it.

"My parents. They didn't really take care of me or feed me. So the foster home had to take me, where my uncle later got me. Kairi, she's really my cousin, but she's more like my sister, since we spent a lot of time acting like siblings." Axel explained and I sat up in his lap.

"It all makes sense. Why you were so tired, and why you had to leave in the morning and why you were always worrying about being back in time." I looked at him as he frowned.

"I hated getting punished, but it was worth lying to you that I had time." Axel said, ending his sentence with a tame smile.

"Axe I'm so sorry I got you in trouble!" I felt so guilty.

"Shh, it's ok. They would have hit me over nothing if they wanted to. At least that way, I got to spend more time with the boy I loved so much." Axel smiled at me as I sniffled.

"So, you never left me; you were taken away?" I asked, trying to make sense of it all.

"Yeah, I guess that's the best way to put it. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. I just, I didn't want to have to explain it all. It's not a fond memory." Axel looked away.

"I'm sorry I made you remember that." I scooted off of him and sat by his side.

"It's fine. It doesn't really bother me." Axel shrugged, nearly contradicting his previous statement.

That's when it hit me. "I know why."

"Why what?" Axel asked, probably confused by my random outburst.

"The real reason you never told me why you left me, or that your parents abused you!" I felt stupid for not having figured it out sooner, like when we were kids.

"Roxas?" Axel looked at me as if I were speaking another language.

"All along, I was the one crying about how my parents loved Sora more than me. And all along I've been the one bitching and complaining about being all alone cause my parents favored my twin over me. But compared to you, I've had it so easy." I realized that Axel's act of secrecy was only to save me from embarrassment.

Axel looked away from my eyes, a confession that I was right. "You always used to tell me that I was your only friend, and when I would sneak into your house at night and hold you, you would constantly tell me how I was the only one who cared about you. You made me feel so special and made me feel like I had a purpose. I was afraid that if I told you what was going on in my life, then I'd lose that value. Then I'd be the weak one who couldn't comfort anybody."

I only shook my head. "Axe, you were hurting, and needed just as much comfort as you gave me. I would have understood."

"I just wanted to be that person you could depend on. I always have." Axel smiled weakly as I saw his eyes water.

"You are that person. You always were." I put my hand over his and he turned to face me.

"You deserve the best." He smiled so sweetly, that it made me feel rotten with guilt.

"No, I don't. Ever since I realized that you are my Aki, I've been lying to myself and to you, messing with your heart, taking advantage of your emotions. And the sad truth is, even though I recognize that and admit it, I know that if I saw anyone else doing that to you, I'd hate them for hurting you. I, I hate myself." I slammed my fists into my thighs and Axel quickly put his arms over mine.

"Don't talk that way." Axel hushed me and calmed me down by rubbing my arms with his warm hands.

"I don't want to hurt you anymore." I cried and he buried my head in his chest as he rested his chin on my head.

"I know baby."

"Cause it took me till now to realize it." I sat up and stared into his sorrowful eyes.

"Realize what?"

"The reason why I've been hurting so badly." I clawed at my shirt, right over my heart. "It's because I've been hurting you." I blinked a tear out and he nodded, staying silent. "I can't bear to watch you hurt, cause it hurts me. But, I'm scared." I hid my face in my hands.

"Of what?" Axel tilted his head slightly to the side.

"To tell you that I love you." I whispered as I put my head back on his chest.

I could feel Axel's chest expand as he sighed, not angrily, but more in exhaustion. It had been a long day, and all these emotions made me want to sleep.

"Well whenever you feel ready to say it, I'm right here, ok?" He kissed my forehead the way he used to when we were kids. Funny how when I was little, that would zap away anything that made me sad. All it took was his kiss on my temple or his voice and arms, and I was the happiest child alive. And now, even after all these months of being his neighbor, it was finally coming back.

"I'm ready." I whispered, acting as if I were taking a test of some kind. He chuckled at my silly action and as I sat up to face him, he smiled so innocently.

"I love you Roxas." Axel started for me, which I was thankful for and I'm sure he could tell that I needed him to.

"I love you too Aki." I went right back to his chest and starting sniffling as he held me.

"Shh, it's ok Roxy. I got you. Aki's got you." Axel rubbed my back as I put my head on his shoulder and let my breath tickle his neck. He sighed again, more in understanding and trying to clear the atmosphere. Unable to fight these strong desires, I kissed his neck repeatedly, loving how often he swallowed, as if he were trying to hold back. "My Roxy." Axel whispered in my ear before lying me down with himself on top of me.

"My Aki." I put my hands in his hair and he smiled.

He reached down into his pocket and pulled out his necklace. We both smiled as he put it on me and once it was secure around my neck, I let my fingers graze over it.

"Thank you." I said, kissing his nose.

"I'm thinking sleepy time, then, when we wake up, I'm taking what's mine." Axel said, kissing my lips as I encouraged him to.

"What's that?" I asked, a bit nervous but even more so excited.

"This." Axel said as he slid his hand past my stomach and over my dick. I gulped as I felt him squeeze over my cotton pajama pants.

"Mmfph." I moaned through closed lips as I bucked my hips up into his hand. He smiled, kissed me again, and rolled to my side, holding me from behind.

"Tomorrow baby. Goodnight." He held my body tighter than ever before and as I inhaled the embrace, I rolled over, hugging him back.

I was about to fall asleep when I thought back to our childhood and remembered one more piece to the puzzle that was still missing.

"Wait Aki!" I sat up with a sudden burst of energy.

"What is it?" Axel sat up too, assuming it was something really important since I made it seem like a big deal.

"Back when I was six, you said that you would give me my birthday present that you forgot at your house."

"Yeah, I remember." Axel nodded.

"Well, I, I've been wondering all these years….what was it?" I gulped, anxious to hear.

"You want me to tell you, or give you your present?" Axel asked as I smiled wide.

"You have it?"

"Yeah I kept everything in hopes that I'd find you again." Axel got out of bed as I bounced on it repeatedly.

"Oh, I can't wait!" I squealed with excitement as Axel dug into his messy closet. I sat impatiently for a few minutes before Axel let out a deep breath.

"Alright, close your eyes, hold out your hand, and no peeking!" Axel ticked with a finger as I nodded obediently. I could feel the anticipation getting to me before I felt the light weight of something plastic or possibly even metal in my hand. "Almost," Axel said as I squished my eyes closed even tighter. I felt something go on my head before Axel gave me the ok. I opened my eyes to see a firetruck plastic car in my palm, and when I looked up, I was wearing Axel's yellow fireman hat from when we were children. It didn't fit, but just the memory of it all made me want to tear up.

"I uh, I have this too." Axel rubbed the back of his neck shyly. "I'm kind of embarrassed to give it to you now, though." Axel coughed as he showed me what looked to be a hand made card. It was really just a piece of construction paper that had been wrinkled over time, but I couldn't explain my joy as I took it gently and opened it. There was a picture that he drew way back then, as was obvious by the style of stick figures, of the two of us together. His stick figure had red hair, mine had yellow, and we were smiling with our hands holding. Underneath, it said "Happy 6th Birthday to the most specialist boy ever. You are my best friend Roxy. I love you." As I read it, my eyes watered, and I had to sniffle to keep myself from falling apart.

"Axe," I chocked. "These were your favorite toys." I know it sounded stupid, being that we are now in college, but still!

"Yeah, and you're my favorite person, so it fits." Axel smiled at me as I gripped the firetruck tightly.

"Thank you! I love them!" I hugged him, holding onto the plastic yellow hat so it wouldn't fall off.

"I love you Roxy." Axel said calmly as he rubbed my back.

"I love you too Aki." I let go of the hat to hold him properly. As it fell, I picked it up and put it on his head. "There, you're my hero." I smiled proudly.

Axel gave a silent grin as he kissed my cheek. "You really are too cute baby. I love you so much. I'm so glad that I have my second chance with you." Axel inhaled deeply into the embrace.

"I love you so much more than you know Aki. Thank you, for not giving up on me." I smiled into his eyes as trembled in nostalgia.

"Thank you for being so irresistible. It made it easy not to give up." Axel winked.

"Hehe, mmmmm," I gave a low hum to the comfort of his arms. "I could stay here forever." The heat from his body, the safety of his company, and the joy of his presence all made me want to freeze time.

"Then let's start forever." Axel laid back down with me still in his arms.

"Goodnight Roxy." Axel kissed the top of my head before I snuggled up to his chest, warm, content, and with the plastic truck tucked safely in one hand.

"Goodnight Aki." I whispered before I fell asleep, dreaming of how happy I was that we made it work.

Author's Note: Awwwww, the end! SO sad its over. Considering I didn't spend much time on this story, I'm surprised to say that I'm actually quite sad its over. Alas, nothing can last forever (except for Akuroku itself hahaha).

I just want to say that the original ending chapter was super sad, like really sad, but I decided not to post it and let the ten pages go to waste, and instead, I wrote this….so I hope you liked it so that my decision to write this version last minute wasn't in vain lol.

Anyway, thank you SO much for reading, following, and favoriting! With another story over, more new ones are about to be posted, so please stay tuned for more Akuroku, Soriku, and even some Akudem!

ANNOUNCEMENT: I got a message from my cosplaying/artist/best friend who is going to draw my works and then sell them! They wont be available until April, but I am currently working on some new stuff for that. I say this because:

To warn you that this will delay the progress of my current stuff (because it has a deadline it takes priority)

And in case any of you are interested, PLEASE let me know ^_^ I don't have a price on them just yet, but I'll be sure to update you all when I get more information. Thanks!

To Keyblade master13: Exams sucked, but I passed them all, even got 2 A's (out of 3 classes) so not too bad haha. Thanks for asking lol. How have you been? What's new? I'll try to read it! If it's KH I'm sure I'll love it lol. Love ya too!

To Parson-ash: Hahaha, I agree! He needs to get that stick out of his butt to make way for Axel's stick ;) hehehe

To Cirxe145: I didn't write a lemon, but I hope you liked the cute shower scene, and the hint of the fact that he'll be getting laid when he wakes up haha. It was hard to delete like ten pages that I already wrote and start all over, but oh well, I figured it would pay off, hope you agree!

To SoRikuROx: Aww, I'm so happy to hear that you like this story! No, I shant ever give up on work that I've started posting. I'm trying to update as often as I can, although I have been quite busy, but I promise I will never let a story go unfinished! It's a huge pet peeve of mine too when author's do that, so I feel your pain haha. Awww, THANK YOU again! It means a lot! Please check out my new stuff, it'll be out as soon as I can hehe!

To twilighttimefan: Haha, Roxas is a cute jealous boy, so transparent, while Axel is so smart and smooth. Such a great combination, no? haha.

To AliceofHoenn: Yes, I gave the false illusion of it being over….i do that a lot….i'm kind of mean like that, sorry haha.

To Purple Rin Ninja: Nope, you had it right, Axel's parents were not nice, but at least he moved out of there. Awww, I'm glad that you liked this story, full of feels haha. I wrote the sad ending, but then deleted it and wrote this instead. It wasn't easy but I hope it worked lol. Aww, thank you! Please stay tuned for more KH yaoi I have coming out soon! (and I agree, Akuroku is almost TOO wonderful lol).

To Luckycat222: YAY, I'm glad that you liked the last chapter, it was my personal fav to write for this story! Thank you so much for your support, it means a lot to get such feedback. Thank you thank you thank you!

To tinychibikitty: Oh wow, well I'm so happy to hear that you felt such emotions while reading this fic! Yes, I wish this story could continue, but I think it reached the point where there wouldn't be anything to write about that had plot. But I have some other stories that I'm super excited to post, so please stay tuned for that! I also have 40 stories currently posted so there is plenty to read while you wait. Thanks for the review!

Thank you everyone for all of your support during this story. I'm off to write more KH Yaoi! Until the next story,

Living Legacy, Sarabellum