Sorry this took so long everyone! I have been super busy with both stories but I promise I am making a conscious effort to update every week. I have designated Stranded on the Other Side for Mondays so I suppose Why me may be on the weekends. Anyway point is because of the high demand I am going to update more frequently. Anyway enjoy C:

Chapter 11: Revelations

Bright cobalt blue eyes opened slowly only to stare at the ceiling. It was too dark in the massive master bedroom for the boy to even discern the color of what he was looking at. He was beyond caring to be frank but it seemed that sleep was eluding his grasp again. Every time that he attempted to close his eyes he would toss and turn and there was only one presence in his life that could calm his incessant tossing. He felt like a ship being tossed about on a never-ending stormy sea. Never had he felt so conflicted in his life. The sea kept drawing him in and he couldn't get away then it would pull back quickly. Sebastian had told him that he belonged with him but there was still a cloud looming over the young earl thoughts. Through and through Sebastian was a demon and his urges, his nature, and his hunger would not be sated unless Ciel's life was on the line. In a way Ciel's heart always contracted at the thought. His nightmare of Sebastian a few nights prior had caused him to break down in the most undignified way possible. Sebastian knew what happened and had seen what Ciel was so afraid of and had calmed his fears with soothing words and heartfelt physical comfort. The earl flushed in embarrassment. He had enjoyed all the soothing sinfully sweet words that had been whispered in his ear while he was being held.

Are they real?

Are they true?

Will it ever work out?

Is he using me?

Over and over thoughts of negativity began to swirl around his mind. He had come so far, even let his heart open to the very idea of being loved and cared for by Sebastian. By having a normal life. He wanted to just be normal. He wanted to be the one who was able to smile and be carefree. He almost wanted to be naive about the evils of the world. To never know of demons or shinigami but then who would he be? What would he have become if did not go through so many trials and tribulations. He did not know. It had shaped his character and had made him who he was. The person that Sebastian enjoyed being around, the Ciel that he cared for.

He let his eyes close slowly to engulf him in darkness once more. They had shared a tender moment by the fire last night with a warm cup of hot chocolate. The demon had thought about him and brought him the new import on his own to assuage his sadness over the loss of his family. He did not talk about it much. In fact he didn't want to think of it at all. The young boy used to be so grief stricken that he would break down in his loneliness. The state in which his emotions were in were never seen by anyone and never heard by anyone. The ruby-eyed demon at his side was the only one that could see through Ciel's mile high wall. It took him a very long time to become trusting but over the years he had started to climb to the surface of the overwhelming grief in his life. He buried his head into the soft goose down pillow under his head "I should not doubt my feelings" he replied softly into his sheets.

Ciel was afraid. Not of Sebastian as much as he was afraid of losing the demon butler that had been with him for so long. Sebastian had acted as if there were no negative repercussions to their emotions and actions. Demons are a fickle bunch, something that Ciel had learned over the years dealing with all levels of the creatures he had learned that they varied depending on rank. Sebastian never told the young earl what rank he was on the food chain so to speak. In fact he seemed relatively reluctant as if he were keeping something from the curious mismatched eyed boy. The young earl Phantomhive had his own theories but it would not have surprised him if the demon he had at his side was a noble, his attitude in the beginning sure would give him such a hint. Ciel did not want to push the subject but his concerns about their feelings for one another was concerning him, not only for his sake but Sebastian's as well.

People did not know much about Ciel's family life and how he was the way he was before he was thrust into hell, literally. He had grown up in a religious home. His mother was the one that had given him a bible and took him to church. Ciel's father Vincent on the other hand was very aloof and rarely mentioned anything religious. The boy had grown up trusting and loving the lord of scripture and was afraid of demons and the devil.

What irony…

"Ciel?" The demon asked gently stepping through the large door to enter the young lord's bedroom. Ciel looked up into gemstone eyes, dark like blood but glistening with concern "yes what is it Sebastian?" The black clad butler made his way slowly over to the elegant and luxurious master bed where his young master wait for an answer. His ruby eyes scanned the boy's face "your thoughts are racing and your visage conveys concern. What is bothering you? You know that you can trust that anything you tell me is in complete confidence. I only wish to help, not out of duty but out of love and compassion." The boy looked down to stare at the white sheets of his king sized bed. The sheets had been strewn about due to his sleepless night. They looked like they had been caught in a tornado all twisted and mangled, squeezed by the boy's vice like grip "I do trust you Sebastian, but do you trust me?" Mismatched eyes looked up to stare inquisitively into ruby irises. Sebastian was slightly taken aback for a moment "young master I trust you completely, does this have to do with what Sutcliff mentioned a few nights prior?" Ciel shook his head in dismay "no" he paused "its not that." The raven-haired demon tilted his head "please young master tell me what is wrong?" Mismatched eyes began to waver slightly battling the urge to stare back at the sheets "you say you trust me, yet you tell me nothing about yourself and when I ask you change the subject. If you truly love me why don't I know anything about you?" The butler felt his heart contract "it's not that I do not trust you young master. I only am concerned for your safety." The boy's eyes stared at the demon accusingly "what is so dangerous about knowing about the one I LOVE!" His boy's eyes began to cloud over with unshed tears.

Falling. That was only feeling the demon, known currently as Sebastian Michaelis, felt. It was almost as dramatic and bad as. . . well he knew he was going to have to explain himself eventually "Ciel I'm so sorry. You are right I should not keep anything from you. I am only afraid of your rejection of me when you learn the truth." Ciel wiped his eyes gently with the back of his crisp clean nightshirt sleeve "Nothing could change how I feel for you." Both their hearts were beating slowly in their chests. On one side it was a fear of rejection, on the other it was the fear of distrust and loyalty. It felt like an eternity before one of them spoke again or moved again. Ciel had always found it amusing that Sebastian always mused about his hair, sliding slender fingers through always-perfect black locks when irritated, annoyed, or nervous. The ruby-eyed demon leaned forward to gently cup Ciel's now rosy cheeks only to lightly whisper into his ear.

At first Ciel could not comprehend the simple words that were spoken to him. They were gentle and quiet but unbelievable. His eyes were wide with shock but also realization. Seeing the boy's reaction was heart breaking. He knew this was going to happen. He was about to get up and leave before he felt a small hand grab onto his coat sleeve urging him to sit back down again. A gentle smile formed onto the boy's lips. He did not need to say anything they both understood. Ciel sat in Sebastian's lap and leaned against him "tell me more… please I want to know everything." Sebastian nodded gently and wrapped his arms around the boy's small frame. He was scared that Ciel would reject him but the boy did the exact opposite. He should have never doubted him in the first place "yes of course."

Yes of course

Young Master

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