It was a cool autumn day, Eli and I were laying in my back yard looking at the clouds. We did this a lot. It was nice to lay there, seemingly care free, and just talk. We were best friends, but he'd always meant more than that to me. We told each other everything. The sun was starting to set, everything felt so perfect. The breeze blowing over us gently, rustling the leaves in the tree, the sky was a blaze, we were laughing and joking around, everything was so beautiful. I smiled at him wishing so desperately that he would feel the way I felt about him. I wished so much that I was his girlfriend, Julia.

"Hazel, I have something to tell you," the way he said this made my heart race, but not in a good way. It made me nervous. His tone was all wrong for this to be anything good.

Trying to keep calm I asked, "What's up?"

"I hate to say this, but Julia hates that we're friends. She thinks you're trying to steal me from her. I told her you weren't and that we were just friends. She just wouldn't listen-"

"What are you trying to say? We shouldn't be friends anymore?" The look on his face made my heart sink, "Eli that's ridiculous! We've been best friends for forever!"

"I hang out with you way more than I do her. I'm not saying we shouldn't be friends, I'm just saying we should spend less time together. She accused me of cheating with you. I love her I can't lose her."

Those last words cut me deep. I wanted to cry. I was so angry, so hurt, "Fine! She's obviously much more important than the person who sat up with you every time you and her fought! The person who sat with you through everything! She's obviously so much better than the person who has never done anything to hurt you, as been there every time you need them, the person who loved you for you and not the sex!"

"Julia loves me for me! Maybe she was right, maybe you are just a crazy jealous bitch! I'm leaving. I have to meet Julia for dinner."

"Good! Get the fuck out of my yard!" I was trying so hard not to cry, but the tears were already spilling out.

"Gladly."

I woke in a cold sweat, tears running down my cheeks. It wasn't often that I had this nightmare. The one that just replies everything that happened, between me and Eli, the night Julia died. It had been almost a year since that night, since the last time I spoke to Eli. The memory still hurts to think about. To think I lost my best friend that quick. I tried to talk to him after it, but he would never reply to my texts or answer my calls.

Once I heard that Julia had died, I didn't even care that we had fought. I just wanted to know he was okay, but he never answered. So after a month of trying, I gave up. I tried to look emotionless because I was afraid if I showed emotion the pain would show.

I sat in bed for a moment trying to regain composure. Once I calmed down and stopped crying, I got ready for a new day at a new school. I didn't know much about Degrassi, but I did know it was a totally different set of people from my old school where I was known as an emo freak. I wasn't excited about a new school, I was just excited to have left the old one.

I got dressed and grabbed a bagel and my keys. I took a bite of the bagel then opened the door. My older sister yelled a quick 'Goodbye, have fun!' from the kitchen. I replied back with a 'yeah, bye'. Then I was off and on my way to school.