We spend our whole lives searching for,

All the things we think we want.

And never really knowing what we have.

He is Spiderman. He is my hero. I remember when I first met Peter. He wondered into class like he didn't have a care in the world about being late. He sat down in the seat behind me, placed his head lightly on the desk and started to draw a skateboard on his spiral-bound notebook. I slightly turned around and said hello. Peter looked up ,
"Hi. I ,uh, I'm Peter. Peter Parker."
"Gwen. Gwen Stacy. I,uh, like your skateboard." He said thanks. I turned around so facing the front and secretly smiled to myself. Have you ever felt like you needed someone so much ,you couldn't live without them? Well on that day I met the quiet, geeky yet careless Peter ,I didn't know that I would feel that way about another human being. I find myself thinking of Peter all the time. He's never off my mind.

It was dads funeral today. The one day that everyone got together and showed their appreciation for him. Peter wasnt there. Why didn't Peter come to dads funeral? What kind of boyfriend doesn't attend his girlfriends fathers funeral? Maybe he was frightened. The skies are grey and the huge beast-like clouds are pouring with rain. I always believed that a dreary day means that someone has lost something they love,something so special they couldn't live with out it. In that sense , The weather couldn't have been more perfect for dads funeral. Today at the chapel, I stood back to look at dads new 'home'. I could have sworn I saw Peter ducking behind the 18th century tower, soaked to the bone. He was hiding. I don't need someone hiding from me, I needed someone to hold me, someone to kiss my forehead and tell me everything was going to be okay. What I really needed was a special someone, who can spin webs from his wrists and balance on top of the empire state building with a single finger.

My father always knew the right thing to say whether I was upset about a bad grade or crying in to his police badge because I wasnt allowed a new doll. I was his little Princess and he was my king. I spent everyday of my life not knowing if he would come home ... and one day he didn't. Now I know what it feels like to have lost the person you have known your whole life, the person that brought you up and loved you. So does Peter. Now I know what he went through when Uncle Ben passed away. Peter tried to stop the blood and keep Ben alive...but it was too late. Then surely he knows what I'm going through. Does Peter feel responsible ,for giving the order to shoot? I refuse to let anyone believe it was Peter's fault dad died. Someone was dying that day. Whether it was dad or Peter ,I was definitely losing someone I loved. I wasn't winning. Dad died doing what he always did ...saving the world.

I had heard rumours about Dr. Connors cross-genetics scheme in the lab. But that's all I thought it was, rumours. Somedays I think to myself ,could I have done something to stop Connors before it got out of hand. In reality ,a 17-year-old couldn't have stopped such an evil plan. Ha, how ironic. That's all Peter is , a 17-year-old science Student. Except he isn't like me or any other student in our school. Dad hugely misjudged Peter, he didn't know that he was debating Spiderman's good nature with Spiderman. Even I didn't know at that point. I wish my father and Peter had a chance to connect properly before he died. They could have played golf together-Dad loved golf, when he had a chance he would go to Pennsylvania and play with an old friend. Peter could have shown him a couple of skateboarding tricks.

I should go and see Peter, I just want him to hold me. I should change out of my wet funeral dress, grab my umbrella and see Peter, spiderman, my hero...

We spend our whole lives searching for,

All the things we think we want.

And never really knowing what we have.

A/N: Okay so I have a super unhealthy obssesion for Spiderman. I saw the amazing Spiderman and thought 'huh...THAT WAS TOTALLY WICKED!' Dont get upset Tobey Magire-your amazing too! Although I official pronounced Andrew Garfeild as my property I still love Peter and Gwen together.

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