It all started when I jumped of that damn cliff.

I do know it was reckless and stupid but I just needed to feel. To see him. I felt like I would go slowly insane if I didn't.

Problem was, after almost drowning and being saved by Jake, he told Charlie. He was seriously worried about me and I understood that, but I was completely mad at him for telling. Dad freaked out, thought I was suicidal. Maybe I was, after all I did like doing dangerous things. He grounded me, called mom and told her. Mom came a couple days later, desperate, begging me to go to Florida with her, to start seeing a therapist. I knew it would be useless since I couldn't tell anyone what I knew and what I went through. I couldn't tell anyone about the Cullens.

After insisting I would stay in Forks and would stop doing dangerous things, I convinced her. She left me this notebook, this diary, saying she read somewhere it is relaxing, soothing, therapeutic to write down my feelings. I thought it was bullshit.

But my problems after cliff diving were only starting.

Dad was still furious. He told me we were moving. I freaked out. What if the Cullens came back? What if he came back? We couldn't leave Forks. I tried every excuse possible, but dad had everything covered. He had a job proposal in Virginia, a house there ready, mom agreed we should move to Virginia and get out of Forks, Billy and Jake already knew and agreed it was a good idea. Dad knew I only wanted to stay because of the Cullens. He decided we would leave in a week. Sure, I was eighteen, I could have said no and stayed. But I couldn't do that to dad. I knew that in his mind he had only got his daughter back and was scared by my behavior.

I was even madder with Jake. Not only did he tell my dad about cliff diving, but he told him it was a good idea for us to go away. Jake tried to remind me Forks wasn't safe until Victoria was killed.

And they were right. I needed to let go. Of Forks, of the Cullens. Of Edward.

So, once in the plane, I tried to leave behind al that should be left behind, and move on. Maybe this was better; it would be an easier, more normal life, after all

I looked around the house, impressed. It was way bigger than the Forks house, and definitely better. I made a mental note to ask dad how he got it.

"Did you like it?" dad asked looking around the living room.

The place was architecturally old, from the past century, but it was all new, well kept. With dark wood floors, and white walls and large windows, I found myself fascinated by it. There was a fireplace in the living room, and double doors that I guessed led to the back porch. I took a look in the kitchen. Bigger than the one of Forks, and modern.

"Yeah. It's great" I said.

"Go choose a room!" he said, trying to get me excited.

I gave him a smile, grabbed one of my bags, and went upstairs. There were three rooms, all were a decent size, and two were suites. I grabbed the smaller suite, leaving the bigger for dad, and smiled. It was cool. There was a desk already, a big wardrobe, and a queen size bed, all in mahogany. There were two big windows, one with a cushioned window seat to the right of my bed, and the other close to the left, illuminating the whole room. The whole room was bright. The walls all painted in cream color; maybe I could paint it later. I dropped my bag in the mattress, and went to the bathroom, it was all brown and white, and I loved it. When I got out, dad was in the door, looking around, and my bags in his hands.

"Nice" he said smiling looking around. "This is yours?"

"Yeah" I said smiling. "I was thinking we could get paint and put more colors in the house…"

He went to the bed and put my bags down.

"Great idea. Your mom will send all your things she has with her, especially clothes, since here is warmer"

"Thanks"

"I'll just settle down in my room, and we can go buy… stuff. Whatever we need"

"Sounds good"

He nodded, walked to me, kissed my forehead, squeezed my shoulder and walked out of the room. I started unpacking a few things, and by the time we went to shop, I was getting used to here. We had a rental car, and dad drove slowly, so we could see town. It was small, not as small as Forks, but small. There was a lot of parks, and family businesses, apparently a small, family town. Probably everyone knew everyone. We got everything we would need. Towels, sheets, comforters, pillows, rugs, curtains, paint… Then we went to the supermarket. We were getting ice cream when I accidentally crashed with someone else's cart.

"Sorry!" I said immediately.

The woman smiled at me. She had light brown hair, almost brown, and brown eyes. She looked young too, like mid-twenties.

"It's okay" she said smiling, "You're new in town?"

"Yeah" I said blushing.

"Charles Swan. Call me Charlie" dad said shaking her hand, "I'm the new Chief of police"

"Oh! That's great. I loved Liz, the other Chief of Police, but she's better now, I guess. Her daughter will be happy she did that for her" the woman said, "I'm Jenna Sommers"

"Nice to meet you" dad said. "This is my daughter, Bella"

"Hi" I said shyly.

"I have a niece and nephew, your age. You probably will meet at school. They live with me. Elena and Jeremy"

"I'll keep that in mind" I said trying to be polite.

"Well, I should get going. Welcome to town" she said and walked away.

"She's nice" I said quietly. "Hopefully everyone is like this"

"Yeah, hopefully" dad said.

We went back to the house, home, and started moving stuff around. The house was fully furnished, and ready to live in, we just changed a couple things so we were more comfortable. I made dinner while dad organized the things we bought, and dressed the beds upstairs, and put towels in the cabinets. We had just finished dinner when the doorbell rang. I looked at dad, he shrugged and went to get it. I dried my hands in a towel, since I was doing the dishes and followed him to see a blond woman, with blue eyes, in her forties, talking to him. She seemed worried, sad… Completely stressed.

"Bella, this is Elizabeth Forbes, she was the Chief of police. I'm taking her old job obviously" dad said, "This is my daughter, Isabella"

"Bella" I said smiling at them.

"Call me Liz, please" the woman said "We live across the street. So, anything, you can ask" Liz said. "Can I talk to you, Charles?"

"Yeah, sure"

I stepped aside, thinking they would come in, but Liz gestured for my dad to come out. He stepped outside, to the porch, closing the door behind him. I went back to the kitchen, finished the dishes and sat in the living room, looking for something in the TV. Almost forty minutes later dad came in again, and sat beside me, looking kind of… in shock.

"Everything okay?" I asked.

"Yeah. I just… was surprised by something" he said smiling weakly at me.

"Oh. Okay then" I mumbled. "Ahn, that woman, Jenna, said something about Liz's daughter and her job…?"

"Ahn, Liz just got promoted and it's good because her daughter, Caroline, is in the hospital. She got in car accident"

"Oh, that's awful. I hope she will be okay"

"Me too. Well, you have school tomorrow, so you should go to sleep"

"Yeah. It's getting pretty late" I said getting up.

"Oh, tomorrow there is a carnival… Maybe you should go, check it out, make some friends…"

"I will think about it"

I kissed his cheek, and walked to the stairs.

"Bella?" he called.

I stopped in the first step, and turned to him. "Yeah?"

"Be careful, alright?"

"Sure. Goodnight!"

"Goodnight" he said.

I went to my room, Jake called me, I talked to him a little, there wasn't much to tell, and he said Victoria was still around, trying to find me, but of course she couldn't. I left clothes with him, and the pack put a few shirts I owned in the forest, so my scent was in the area. They were lucky there wasn't rain the past couple days, or the scent would be washed away. He said it would be easier to get her now that they didn't have to worry about me. When I went to sleep, I was surprised, I didn't have nightmares.

The next morning I woke up, took a shower, got dressed, s jeans, T-shirt, and Vans, got my bag, and went downstairs. Dad was already gone, apparently something to do before work. I knew the school was close enough to walk. I enjoyed the sun, since it's been quite some time since I saw it. I just hoped for a normal day. I got to school got my schedule, and went to class, getting a few looks, obviously everyone knew I was new. I went fine through classes until lunch. A girl approached me as I walked to the cafeteria.

"Hey" she said, "Bella, right?"

"Yeah" I said.

"I'm Bonnie Bennett. Nice to meet you"

"You too" I said.

"How is your first day going?" she asked.

"Ahn… okay" I shrugged.

"Do you want to sit with us at lunch?" Bonnie asked.

"Eh, sure" I said awkwardly.

She led the way. We got lunch, and sat in a table in the middle of the cafeteria. Soon, a boy with dark blond hair, and blue eyes joined us, and smiled at sadly at Bonnie and then looked at me. He seemed tired, like he hadn't slept much lately.

"Matt, this is Bella Swan, the new chief's daughter" Bonnie said.

"Nice to meet you" he said with a kind smile.

"You too" I mumbled playing with my food.

Soon a couple joined us, and the guy looked at me strangely, and it made me blush and look down. He remembered me of the way Jasper would look at me, evaluate me.

"Hm…" Bonnie said, sensing the awkwardness, "This is Elena Gilbert, and Stefan Salvatore"

I looked at them with a weak smile, and he smiled at me, and it remembered me of Carlisle's smiles, kind, and understanding.

"I-I met your aunt, yesterday" I said to Elena.

She was beautiful, probably the homecoming queen here. Bonnie was beautiful too, and I realized they were the royalty here, considering a lot of people were watching our table. I looked at them, and realized they all seemed tired and worried. Probably friends with Mrs. Forbes' daughter that was in the hospital.

"Oh, yeah! She said something about you. It's nice meeting you" Elena said smiling.

"You too" I said like every other time.

"So, where did you come from?" Bonnie asked.

"Forks, Washington" I said, "Cloudy, rainy place"

"You'll enjoy the sun here, then" Elena said and I nodded, playing with my food. "Do you like here so far?"

"Yeah. It's cool" I mumbled.

"You miss Washington" Bonnie said, knowingly.

"Not really. I miss people"

"Boyfriend?" she asked.

I froze, and I could feel the blood draining from my face. I shook my head quickly and everyone fell silent. Great, I was making things awkward.

"Eh, I should… go. Leave you to… talk and stuff" I said getting up.

"But…" Elena started but Stefan shook his head slightly. "Are you sure?"

"Yeah, thanks"

"Are you okay?" Bonnie asked.

"Yeah, just… fine" I said and walked away.

Nice, Bella, freaking out in your first day, and making people think you're a weirdo. I went to the library ad stayed there for the rest of lunch time. Then I went to class, a met the guys from lunch in a few, but they didn't talk to me. When school ended, I quickly got my things, eagerly walked away from school.

"Bella!" someone called.

I turned to see Bonnie and Matt, talking to a boy with dark brown hair.

"Want a ride?" she asked.

I looked over my shoulder to the street, and back at her. I nodded, and smiled weakly at her. I walked to her; she had a smile on her face, and seemed the friendly type, obviously.

"This is Jeremy. Elena's brother" Bonnie said.

"Hi, nice to meet you" I said.

"You too. Welcome to small Mystic Falls" he said with a smile.

"Thanks"

Matt and Jeremy said goodbye and there was just Bonnie and I. She smiled at me and we went to her car. Once we got in, she put some music on, and hummed with the song.

"We should hang out. Get to know each other. I would like to be your friend" she said.

Her personality remembered me of Alice. I swallowed hard and nodded.

"You're always this quiet?" she asked amused, but I could see she wanted to know.

"I guess" I shrugged.

"There's something wrong?" she asked looking at me, "Do you need help with something?"

"No, it's okay" I mumbled.

She stopped in front of my house, and I thanked her and was about to got out, when she stopped me, by holding my arm. I looked at her, and she smiled.

"Hey, are you going to the carnival tonight?"

"Yeah" I shrugged.

"Do you want a ride?"

"Ahn… No, thanks"

"It's not a problem. I will need some company. Elena is probably going with Stefan" she said.

"Ahn, okay, then. Thanks"

I unlocked my door and looked around. Dad had left the paints in the middle of the living room. I dropped my bag in the couch, and went to cook lunch. After I ate I realized I had hours before Bonnie would come to pick me up. I decided to start painting my room. I got the dark blue paint and the red, and went upstairs. After making sure everything was covered and changing into old clothes, I started painting the windows' wall with deep blue. I finished it quickly and as I painted the wall of the bathroom door red I let my thoughts wander to Elena, Stefan, Bonnie, Matt and Jeremy.

They all seemed worried, and while I would be too if a friend was in the hospital, I had a feeling they weren't worried about just Caroline.

But what freaked me out the most was Stefan. He was so different from the Cullens, yet, he reminded me of them too much. He was mysterious, he had an unnatural beauty, and seemed to red into my mind… I shook my head. Bella, you've been reading too much… Or you were too much around supernatural and isn't used to normal people.

After a long shower to take off the paint from my skin, I put on jeans, a light blue shirt and brown converses. I went downstairs and as I got money from my backpack I had left in the couch, dad came in.

"Hey, you're early" I said surprised.

"Yeah, I will have an early dinner and then I have to go back to work. We'll be at the carnival" he said.

"I'm going to the carnival with a… colleague. She'll be here soon. I didn't make dinner, do you want me to?" I asked.

"No… Do you need more money?" he asked as he saw me putting the money on the back pocket. "Here" he said getting the wallet.

"No, it's fine, dad"

"Take it. I want you to have fun, take your mind off things. Get to know the town and people" he said extending money to me.

I took it with a small smile, and put on my pocket.

"Oh, we can get you a car tomorrow" he said, "I saw one that I think you will like it"

"Wouldn't be easier to get the truck from Forks?" I asked frowning.

"Well, I did sell it back to Billy" he said. "Get a new car, Bells"

"Fine" I grumbled.

He smiled and went to the kitchen. I followed him and saw him put a small box on the counter. He took some kind of herb from it, and then put the box in the cabinet.

"What's that?" I asked getting a glass of water.

"Ahn, it's a… herb" I arched an eyebrow. That was obvious, Chief. "Ahn, for tea, it's good. Maybe… do you want some?"

"No, you know I'm not really into tea, and all that herbal thing. It's more like mom" I said smiling. "I thought you liked coffee, and only coffee"

"Yeah, it's just… I took this when I was a child and would come here…"

I sat in a stool and watched as he put water to boil.

"You came here as a child?" I asked frowning. "Wait, you knew this town before?"

"Ahn, your grand-grandparents, my grandparents, lived here… My mother moved to Washington after she married dad…" he shrugged, "This was their house"

"Grand-grandma lived here?" I asked looking around. "So…"

"The house is ours"

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Well, I didn't think it mattered. I wasn't planning on living here. I was thinking someday I would tell you about the house, and if you wanted you could live here…"

"So… The job proposal wasn't a coincidence" I said.

"Liz… Mrs. Forbes was a friend, we spent time together when I visited my family, because her family was friends with mine… So, she contacted me to take her position"

Before I could answer, the doorbell rang.

"That's Bonnie, my ride" I said getting up.

"Got your keys?" he asked.

"Yes!" I called over my shoulder.

"Be careful!"

"I will. Bye!"

I opened the door and Bonnie was on the porch's steps. She smiled at me and we walked to her car.

"Excited about the carnival?" she asked as we got in.

"Ahn, I don't know… Not really my kind of thing"

"Really?"

"Yeah, I prefer staying in with a book" I shrugged.

"Well, at least, you'll get to know people tonight"

I nodded, even though I didn't was a bit excited about it. I hated being the new girl. I had gone through that in Forks, and it was enough for me. Soon Bonnie was parking the car, and leading me through the full carnival. She explained it happened every year, and she always went to it. She got popcorn and I got a cotton candy. It was nice. We watched people at the games tents. Bonnie even tried to hit the ball so she could make her friend fall in the water tank. She introduced me to people, and we took pictures. It was fun.

"Oh, look! Elena and Stefan" she said.

Her voice seemed a bit strained, and she wasn't so excited. I saw Elena and Stefan talking to a guy that seemed a bit older than us. Elena seemed to be angry, as she glared at the man, and then she saw us. She left them and came to us with a small smile. Stefan stayed with the guy and they talked in hushed tones as they watched something.

"Hey" Elena said. "Good to see you"

"You too" I mumbled.

"Having fun?" Bonnie asked with an arched eyebrow. I got the feeling that she really meant something else.

"Yeah" Elena shrugged.

People cheered and we all turned to look. It was some kind of arm wrestling competition. A guy of our age was winning.

"Go, Tyler" Elena cheered.

"That is Tyler Lockwood. He's son of the mayor, but he died a couple days ago" Bonnie told me.

I frowned. The guy didn't seem as sad as one would expect. But he did have a couple of beer bottles next to him. Another guy tried to win, but Tyler won without much effort. He was buffed, almost like Jake. He was grinning smugly, and then a guy, older than us stepped forward and sat across from him.

"That's Mason Lockwood, Tyler's uncle" Bonnie said.

We watched as the guy defeated Tyler easily. Tyler frowned at him, looking down at his arm, as if he didn't believe it.

"Next?" Mason asked smiling.

I looked around and saw the guy Elena and Stefan were talking to pushing Stefan forward. While Stefan was strong, I had a feeling he wouldn't win. I looked at the guy again, and he was watching Stefan and Mason, in deep concentration.

"Who's that?" I asked.

Bonnie and Elena turned and when they looked back at me, Bonnie had a scowl and Elena a frown.

"A jackass" Elena said.

"Stefan's brother, Damon" Bonnie said.

"You don't like him" I said to Elena.

"No" she grumbled.

I let it go, since it was obvious I wouldn't hear an explanation. We turned to watch Stefan arm wrestle Mason. At first it seemed Stefan was about to win, but in a moment, Mason had pushed Stefan's arm so hard, I feared it would break. He grinned as people cheered, and Stefan looked at him with an impressed frown. Elena and Bonnie exchanged a look and I realized they seemed shocked too. I looked at Damon, and he had stopped watching everything with a frown when a blond girl approached him. She seemed familiar, but I was sure I didn't know her. She said something to Damon who was frowning at her, and she seemed angry.

"Caroline?" Elena asked.

I turned and saw she was watching the girl and Damon too. The girl, Caroline, turned and walked away fast. I connected the dots. Caroline, Liz's daughter.

"Oh, this is Mrs. Forbes' daughter?" I asked. "I'm glad she is well"

"She wasn't supposed to be out of the hospital until tomorrow" Elena murmured.

She left to talk to Stefan and Damon, and Bonnie asked me if I wanted to check out the Ferris wheel.

"I think it will be a beautiful sight of the town" she said.

I looked over my shoulder and saw Damon, Stefan and Elena discussing something. I continued to follow Bonnie, but as we got on the line for the Ferris wheel, she stopped.

"Ahn, sorry, I really need to go to the restroom. Will you be okay?" she asked.

"Sure"

"I'll meet you here in ten"

I nodded and she quickly walked away. I had a feeling she wasn't going to the restroom. I had been having a lot of feelings lately. This town was messing with me. At least I wasn't catatonic anymore, at least I felt something... I got my ticket and entered the line. Someone pocked my shoulder and I turned to face Elena.

"Hey, Elena…" I trailed off as I noticed her curly hair. What? She had straight hair. And she wasn't wearing that…

"Bella, do me a favor" she said.

I frowned at her, but as she looked into my eyes, I felt strange, almost as if my mind was empty.

"Go to the parking lot. Tyler Lockwood got into a fight, and I want you to get in the middle of it. Don't stop until you're dead, understand?"

I nodded. She smiled and walked away. I turned and left the line to go to the parking lot. Somewhere in my mind a voice told me to stop. But I couldn't. I had no control over my body anymore.

Bella, stop.

It was Edward's voice, it was louder. I couldn't obey.

I got to the parking lot and saw Tyler trying to stop a man from fighting him. He lost his patience and started a fight. I walked to them, and pulled on Tyler's arm. He frowned at me and pushed me off lightly before blocking a punch the other guy tried to give. I got literally in the middle of the two men and pushed Tyler. He was breathing heavy and glaring at us. As we both attacked Tyler Lockwood, he got even more violent. I had just slapped Tyler when he pushed me and I fell on the ground.

"Tyler!"

I turned to see Mason Lockwood coming to help his nephew.

I got up and was about to go back to the fight when I felt a hand wrap around my upper arm. I turned and saw Stefan frowning at me.

"Stop" he said.

"I can't" I said trying to pull free from his grip. "I have to do this"

"Katherine" he grumbled. He looked into my eyes and again, I had the feeling of being lost. "Stop, Bella. Turn around and walk away"

I shook my head and he let go of me. I saw Tyler and Mason walking away. The man that was fighting him was unconscious. I turned back to ask Stefan what the hell happened but he was gone. I heard a groan, and saw the man trying to stand up. I crouched next to him.

"Sir, are you alright?" I asked.

"What…?"

"You got into a fight" I said.

I helped him up and he had a bleeding scratch on his forehead. I ignored the nausea it gave me and walked with him to his car as he asked.

"Are you sure you can drive?" I asked.

"Yes, I'm fine. Thank you"

We heard someone crying. The man left my side and walked to the girl crouched between two cars, crying.

"Miss?"

"I can't stop it! Make it stop!" she cried.

"Caroline?" I asked frowning as I recognized the blond hair.

She looked up. But as her eyes locked on the man, her face changed. In a blink of an eye she was standing up. It was like I could see the veins in her face, and her eyes turned red. I gasped as she snarled, showing her sharp teeth. She attacked the man and bit into his neck. He cried out and soon he fell on the ground. Caroline's face was all bloody, and her eyes were on me. Following my instincts I turned and started to run. But in a second she was in front of me and grabbed me by the neck. I cried out, and closed my eyes ready to die. Suddenly her hands were off me. Damon was holding Caroline by the neck and had a stake on the other hand.

"Damon, no!"

Elena got between Damon and Caroline. Her eyes were back to normal, and she was starting to cry. Stefan pulled on Damon's arm, and he glared at Elena and Caroline.

"I'm sorry" Caroline cried.

"Caroline?" I heard Bonnie say.

I turned and saw her yards away. She was looking at us with a frown, and tears started to run down her cheeks. I ran to her, and she grabbed my arm.

"No!" she cried.

"Bonnie" Caroline started to say.

"It's all your fault! You did this!" Bonnie screamed at Damon.

He just rolled his eyes.

"Bonnie, come on, let's… leave, please" I begged.

She looked at me, gave me a short nod, and started dragging me away. I looked back several times but no one was following. We got into her car, and I realized that perhaps she shouldn't be driving since she was a crying mess. But nothing happened, and soon we were in front of my house, and not a word was said.

Could it really be true what I saw? Caroline… She attacked a man, drank his blood… But she wasn't a vampire was she? Vampires weren't like that… But… What if…? Good Lord, was anything normal in my life? Was anything going to be, someday?

"I'm sorry" Bonnie said. "I… I should never have dragged you into our mess… I just wanted to have someone… Normal. Someone who didn't know anything, who wasn't related to Damon or Stefan, or Katherine. Someone human, and that only knew humanity…"

Everyone was involved in it. Whatever it was.

"Maybe you should come inside. You can't drive like this, and… I… I need to tell you something" I said.

She looked at me with a frown but nodded. We got out of the car, and entered my house. I apologized for the mess but she told me not to worry. I gave her a glass of water and led her to my bedroom. We couldn't have that talk somewhere Charlie could walk in any moment. Bonnie sat in my bed and I closed and locked the door. She sipped the water I gave her, and I waited until she calmed down.

"What did you want to tell me?" she asked hesitantly.

"You can't tell anyone" I said.

"And you can't tell what you saw tonight"

I nodded and with a sigh I began the story. She listened to everything with a frown, and a many times she seemed shocked and impressed.

"So, Jake caught my scent as he and the pack were in the forest hunting Victoria. She had jumped of the cliffs to escape the wolves. I saw her, but as I panicked I hit my head, and got unconscious" I took a deep breath. "Jake phased back, saved me from drowning, and then took me home. But he told my father what I did, and Charlie was so furious… He said we were leaving, he knew Forks was bad for me, a connection with the Cullens… with him. And so, we are here"

"Oh my God" Bonnie mumbled, wide eyed. "That's all..."

"Crazy? Too much, right?" I frowned.

"I have so many questions, but… I think it would be better if I explained my, our story first… You probably have questions too, a lot"

"I do"

"Well, it all started six months ago, I guess… Elena met Stefan on the first day of school, he was new in town. I didn't like him. I had a bad feeling about him, that later was proved to be correct…"

She told me about Damon's arrival, both brothers being vampires, Katherine and all that she knew about her relationship with the Salvatores. She told me about the Founders' Council, the tomb under Fell's church… About her powers and abilities as witch and about her grandmother. She explained that they discovered that Elena was actually adopted, daughter of Isobel, Alaric Saltzman's wife, with John Gilbert, who she always thought it was her uncle. They knew Isobel was Katherine's descendent somehow, and so Elena, but it didn't really explain why they were exactly alike.

"Wait, wait" I interrupted. "Exactly alike how?"

"Like twins" Bonnie said. "You can't tell when Katherine is pretending to be Elena. She fooled Damon, Jenna and John Gilbert…"

A flashback came to my mind.

"I saw her" I said and Bonnie frowned worriedly. "When you left me in the Ferris wheel, I saw Elena, but she was different… Her hair, clothes, her attitude… She told me to do something and… I-I did"

"She compelled you" Bonnie said. "It's a vampire ability. They can manipulate our mind… well, not mine… What did she make you do?"

I frowned as I remembered what I did and sighed as I remembered.

"She told me to get into a fight with Tyler Lockwood and not stop… until I died. Stefan saved me, but then I met Caroline…"

"It's all Damon's fault" she said angrily, "He gave her his blood to heal from the accident"

"But how did she die?"

"I don't know…"

"Bonnie, I know you're mad, angry about Caroline… But… I didn't know her, I don't, but I know she isn't lost. She is just a little different physically…"

"She kills people, Bella!"

"Bonnie, she cried. She seemed lost, scared, confused… She didn't want to become a… vampire. But she is. And I am sure she will do what she can to not hurt anyone else. You have to believe that she's still your friend, she's still the Caroline that you knew and loved, even if she isn't human anymore"

"I know… I just… I can't help but think she's a monster" she sighed. "I will need some time, I guess"

We stayed in silence for a few minutes until there was a knock on my door.

"Bells?"

I got up and unlocked the door. Dad was still in his uniform, with a worried frown, and seemed tired, but smiled at Bonnie.

"Dad, this is Bonnie Bennett, a friend. We are… getting to know each other" I said.

"Nice to meet you, Chief Swan. I will leave soon, sorry about the hour" she said.

"Oh, no, don't worry. You can stay as long as you want if your parents are aware and allowed you" dad said with a smile but then it faltered. "Did you have fun at the carnival?"

"Yes" we lied.

"Good" dad mumbled. "Goodnight, then"

I closed the door and we heard his footsteps vanishing in the direction of his room.

"So, this compelling… Is there a way of stopping it?" I asked. "It's really disturbing to know I can be manipulated"

"Yes, with vervain" Bonnie said.

"Vervain?"

"It's an herb… You can drink it so it's in your blood or you can wear it. Elena has some in the necklace Stefan gave her and Mr. Saltzman wore in his pocket…"

An herb. I asked Bonnie to come to the kitchen with me and as we silently walked downstairs I quietly told her about an herb dad got and drank as tea, and suggested me to take too. I explained I had never seen my dad drink tea. I got the box with the herb and gave it to her. She took some in her hand, evaluating and sniffed it.

"Yeah, vervain" she said.

"So my dad knows?" I asked alarmed.

"Considering he is Chief of Police and probably member of the Founders' Council…"

"Wait. He is a part of the council?"

"Didn't you know?" Bonnie asked surprised.

I shook my head. Good Lord, this was too much. How can the world be so complicated, secretive and dangerous?

"Remember what I told you about Stefan, Damon and Katherine, that they lived here in 1864? And how the Salvatore family, the Lockwoods, Forbes, Fells, and Gilbert founded the town and protected it?" she said putting water to boil.

"Yes…"

"Well, your family is on that list too. The Swans helped with the foundation on Mystic Falls. They are on the list of the first Council… There's a small park with your name, where there was a mansion your family lived in during the Civil War… I think your dad got in all of this when he decided to move here"

I stayed in silence and she just gave me an understanding smile. I had done everything to protect Charlie from vampire and he was aware of their existence. He was descendent of people who hunted and killed vampires. He worked on protecting people from vampires. Oh, the irony wasn't lost to me. If he knew his daughter fell in love and dared a vampire he would have a heart attack. God, if the knowledge was passed on in this family, and I didn't have siblings, that meant Charlie would try to teach me how to hunt and kill vampires. I would give anything to see the Cullens' faces as they heard this story… Well, I would give anything just to see them.

Bonnie gave me the tea and I understood that it was her way of trying to protect me. I sipped it and scowled.

"Yeah, it's awful" Bonnie said with a small smile. "But it's just for a while if you want. We can get you some kind of jewelry to carry vervain"

"I think I have a locket that will be perfect"

I was raising the cup to my lips when her phone started to ring, startling both of us. I had practically jumped off of my seat and tea went everywhere. She gave me a towel with an apologizing smile as she got her phone from her pocket. She frowned at the screen but accepted the call.

"Hey, Elena" she said. Elena must have said something that bothered Bonnie, because she frowned again. "Yes, Bella is home… I'm here with her. Why?" a couple seconds passed and Bonnie became angry. "No. We don't have to do anything! I know! But Bella won't tell anything to anyone"

Oh, so that was why she was calling so late. They were worried about me gossiping about what I saw.

"Elena, tell Damon to go to hell, and to not come hear us or his head will explode like a balloon" Bonnie said scarily calm. "I trust Bella, I know she wouldn't go telling anyone. Calm down" Bonnie listened for a few seconds. "Alright, see you tomorrow night then. Good luck, and be careful. Bye"

Bonnie gave me a sad, hesitant smile, and I tried to give her a reassuring smile.

I barely know Mystic Falls. I've been here less than a week. Yet, it feels like home. Maybe because I'm between the supernatural again, around vampires again.

Many answers were left unanswered. But that's okay. I'll get my questions in time. We have a lot of time anyway. Bonnie is always around, perhaps because her best friend #1 dates a vampire, her natural enemy, and her best friend #2 is one. I like her. She's sincere. And doesn't matter that she wanted me to have some link with normal, human world. She didn't get what she wanted. And I got not only a witch friend, but someone who I can talk to without judging me. Maybe that's why Jacob went wrong on being my friend. Friends aren't supposed to judge you. Friends are supposed to help you bury the body and not even ask why you killed. Support, trust.

And I'm discovering my mother was right. It is soothing to write what I feel.

And when I start to question my sanity, I can always read this and make sure I wasn't hallucinating.

But I won't ever start with a stupid 'Dear diary…'.

AN: The beginning and ending of this chapter, it's Bella's diary, what she is writing in it.

This was just something that I thought of while watching Vampire Diaries. Just to make it clear, I never read L.J. Smith's books, so this is based on the TV show. On timeline, we would be almost in the New Moon's ending, and the beginning of the second season of TVD.

While I do love Stefan, I love Damon more. But to appease those Stefan Team people, this story is 100% Stefan/Elena. Let Bella have Damon, because although Edward is wonderful, he is no fun compared to Damon :D

Tell me what you think. Should I continue this story, or drop it?

Review, they give me inspiration, motivation, and help a lot!

xoxo Luuh