Okay, so I'm making this into a two shot, so hope you enjoy the rest of it. And to all the reviews I know I don't think I would have been able to handle the finale if they actually did kill him ! Glad they didn't.

Chapter 2.

Waking up, I opened my eyes, looking around the room. I took in a deep breath, hoping the days before events were just a nightmare. Walking down the stairs I saw how quiet the house was, heading into the kitchen, I saw everyone from the team, sat silent in the kitchen. That's why I knew, none of it was a dream. Letting out a little breath, I sat down in the spare chair next to Morgan, seeing all there eyes on me for a second, leant my elbows on the counter, running my fingers through my hair.

"Henry asked if I could take him to the museum today…I was thinking it might be a good idea. "Reid said, breaking the silence.

I slowly looked up giving him a little nod. "Thanks Spence."

Nodding, Reid, gave me a little smile, I knew he was going to wake Henry and get him ready. Since I really didn't have to energy to do anything.

Walking back into what was our bedroom, I walked towards my draws pulling out a t-shirt and some jogger bottoms. Tying my hair on top of my head, I headed into the bathroom. Throwing the hot water over my face, I dried away the face wash, brushing my teeth. Looking up at the mirror I saw I still had red puffy eyes, and I knew that wasn't going away anytime soon.

As I walked back into my room, I saw Emily and Penelope sat on the edge of my bed, sitting down between them, I felt them move closer, taking hold of my hands as I laid my head onto Penelope's, shoulder letting the tears escape me once again.

"JJ….."

"He'…s….he's really gone."

"We know gumdrop we know." Penelope, said squeezing my hand.

Pulling away I stood up, placing my hand on my stomach I felt sick once again, running into the bathroom, I lifted the lid and throw up once again, seconds later I felt someone holding up my hair, and the tap running. Falling flat onto the ground, I leant my head onto the bottom of the cabinet. Looking up I saw Emily and Penelope sitting down next to me. Taking the water I took a long sip watching the looks exchanged between my best friends.

"Guys…I know what your thinking and I'm not "

"You sure I mean…"

"EM, I came on a couple of days ago…I just…."

"Okay…."

"You sure okay?"

I let out a little laugh, shaking my head. Biting down onto my lip, I looked around at them. "I just…wanna be alone."

After they left, I waited a few minutes making sure I was totally alone, gathering myself off the floor, I walked back into our bedroom, laying back down in the bed, I laid in Will's spot taking in his cent, that I would never be able to smell again. Sitting up, I pulled my legs over the end of the bed, looking on the nightstand, I saw the picture of me and Will, I traced my finger along the frame. A couple of minutes later, I opened the door. I had never looked in it before. Looking around I saw a few of Will's things, I had totally forgot he owned, then I found a box, a velvet box. Holding it in my hand, I climbed out of bed crouching down onto the floor, leaning my head against the bed.

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Everyone looked around hearing a knock on the door, Henry and Reid had been back for an hour or so. Standing up Morgan headed towards the front door. Seeing an older woman with long blonde hair.

"Ah, you must be member of JJ's team?"

"Yes mam…you must be…"

"Yes, that would make my the mother."

Stepping inside, Sandy followed Morgan into the kitchen, looking around she saw the saddened looks on everyone's faces.

"Grandma!"

Henry ran out of his seat, and over to his grandmother. She picked him up, holding him on her hip.

"There he is, how's my favourite baby doing?"

"Miss daddy." Henry said leaning his head onto her shoulder.

Kissing his head, Sandy ran her hand through his hair, looking around at everyone.

"Where is she?"

"She wanted to be alone." Emily said, giving her a soft smile.

Putting Henry down, Sandy headed towards her daughters bedroom. Opening the door she saw me. Looking up I saw my mother, enter the room, closing the door behind me. Looking back down at the box in front of me, I wiped the tears from my eyes.

Feeling her slide down next to me, wrapping her arm over my shoulder.

"Jen…."

Laying my head onto her shoulder, I let my tears fall once again.

"He…s…..why did he have to be the hero."

"Sweetie"

"He…..I just want him back"

Wiping my tears away again, I looked up at my mom.

"What you got there?"

Letting out a little laugh, I bit down onto my lip, running my finger over the box. "I found it, in Will's draw… I just….I can't open it."

"JJ…"

Taking a deep breath, I opined the box, seeing the single diamond sitting in the middle of the sliver gold ring. Pulling it out of the box, I held it into between my fingers.

"I never said yes."

Placing the ring onto my finger, I took a deep breath. "And I don't know why…."

"JJ, did you get any sleep last night?"

Looking up at my mother, I shook my head.

"Okay, you get some sleep. And I'm gonna go bring Henry in here so you can. He's looking rather warn out…"

"But…there's so much to do…the funeral."

"We've all got it covered. Now sleep."

JJ nodded, climbing into bed, I watched as Henry, walked down the hallway carrying his teddy bear, picking him up, I laid him next to him, wrapping my arm around him.

"Mamma, you still sad?"

"Yeah, buddy I am, but you can be too."

"Love you mamma."

"I love you too baby always." I kissed his head, watching as he fell asleep. Before closing my own eyes.

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Sitting in the white chairs, I took hold of the flag, letting the tears slip down my cheek, I looked down at Henry, feeling his tiny hand, gripping my sleeve. Looking forward, I stared at his coffin, as the gunshots and bagpipes started. After it all stopped, I picked up Henry, carrying him on my hip, I picked up two red roses, handing one of them to Henry. Placing mine down, I watched as Henry did the same, running my hand over the front of his hair, moving it from his eyes.

"Give daddy a kiss."

I watched as Henry, kissed his hand then blowing the kiss, I smiled a little placing my hand onto the coffin.

I stood there, shaking everyone's hands giving them a nod, as they gave me there apologies. Looking up I saw Hotch heading towards me.

"Fancy a walk?"

Nodding, I looked over at my mother, seeing her take over for me. Following Hotch, I found the team, all sat with Henry, thankful they were taking care of him for me.

Standing outside, I crossed my arms over my chest, feeling the cold breeze, go through the lace of my dress.

"How you holding up?"

"Okay, I guess, I just….how do I do this?"

"You take everyday, as it comes, and let us all help you."

Nodding, I looked back inside, and over at Henry.

"Look, Hotch, I know we all helped you, and everything like that, and I know you all wanna help me…..and I appreciate it all of it but….I didn't just lose Will Aaron. I lost myself. "

Looking up at him, I felt the tears start to from, walking back inside, I stopped watching as Henry came towards me.

"Hey buddy, you tried."

Picking Henry up, I kissed his head, carrying Henry up to his room, reading him a story, I sat with him, reading his favourite story. Watching as he spelt, I took in everything that had happened over the last week.

I really didn't know, how to do this, Will was my wall, and now that wall was shattered into a million pieces. I was right, I didn't only lose Will, I lost myself along the way.

THE END

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