Got this idea, and I do hate myself for writing this, you all know how big of a JJ/WILL shipper I am but what if Will died when he got shot, my take on what would of happened.

Losing him, wasn't the only thing I lost, I lost myself.

As I heard the gunshot, I jumped forward, feeling Morgan's arms around my waist once again, jumping out of his hold, I fell backwards, covering my mouth with my dad, I felt my breathing slow down as I felt the tears fall down my face, looking around me I saw everyone ,all cops, sweat everyone. I kept my eye on the building the whole time. I needed to know. I needed to know he was going to be okay!.

I didn't even notice everyone turn away from me, as Strauss stepped out the van giving them all a look. I felt someone guide me into the van. Sitting down. I saw everyone was quiet, looking over at Garcia, I saw her doing something on her computer.

"Let me see it."

"J…"

"Let me see it Garcia!"

Standing behind her, I felt everyone's eyes staring at the screen, as I watched I felt my stomach turn. Holding my breath, I watched as Will's body fell flat to the floor. So there I stood. Staring at the screen not saying anything , just let a few tears slide down my face.

And then once I got everyone to agree, we made our way to the building, feeling my body hit the ground, my eyes closed and everything went dark. Opening my eyes, I felt a sharp pain in my ears, looking up I saw Morgan. Once were on our feet, I looked around we could see all the hostages coming out before the explosion. But Will I didn't see, I didn't care about anything else at that moment, I ran past Morgan inside the building. Turning on my flash light, I pulled out my gun, shouting his name as loud as I could.

After searching and searching, I came across a body, kneeling down I put my gun away, I moved the pieces of rubble off the body, feeling my whole body stiffen. I felt a tear run down my face onto my hand, reaching out I ran my hand through his hair. As I let out a scream.

"NOOO.. NOOO WILL!"

I pulled his body towards me, lifting his head onto my legs, holding onto him with all my strength. I didn't notice all the paramedics coming in and out to help the old couple who Emily had found until. I felt them all both behind me.

"JJ…."

I heard her voice, feeling her hand on my shoulder. I don't know how long I was there. I felt Morgan pick me up and move me out the way as they came and took his body away, walking out he building, I saw them all. Hotch, Rossi, Reid, Garcia, Strauss and Kevin, all of them staring as Emily and Morgan led me out of the building, I felt my body collapse to my floor, as my legs gave out, Emily fell with me wrapping her arms around, me I cried into her shoulder. Looking up I saw one of the paramedics talking to Morgan, then them both looking at me.

"JJ….."

I looked up at Morgan..

"They….they need you to ID him…."

"Wha…..why?" I said in a shaky voice.

Standing up, I let Morgan lead me to his body. As they unzipped the body bag I took a deep breath.

"Mam is that your husband. "

"He's…..he's not m husband, that's….that's…my boyfriend yes."

"Thank you mam, and as soon as his wallet is found we will have it sent to you."

After the paramedic, had drove off, I turned around throwing up. Wiping my mouth, I turned around walking towards the rest of the team.

JJ felt sick again, placing her hand on her stomach. "Henry…"

"What?"

"Henry!…he's…he's…."

Everyone stopped for a moment, following Rossi, I climbed into the passenger seat. When we arrived, I saw Henry playing with our neighbour and her daughter, I took a deep breath, climbing out of the car, followed by Rossi, I walked into the garden, watching as Henry ran towards me.

"Mommy"

Picking him up, I tried to hide the tears forming in my eyes. I held in tightly, looking over at Kate. Seeing the look on her face.

"JJ…."

I felt my lip tremble as Rossi spoke.

"Why don't you go and gather some of yours and Henry's things."

JJ nodded, carrying Henry on her hip, as she made way into there house.

"Mamma, where daddy.?"

Closing my eyes I took a deep breath. Gathering out stuff I made my way back outside, holding into Henry's hand. Looking at Kate I saw the sadness in her eyes.

When we arrived back at the BAU, I let Henry run off to his god father, I followed the rest of the team up to the conference room, seeing all the sadness in there eyes.

"Wha….t what do I do?"

"JJ…."

I looked up at them, running my hands through my hair.

"Right now all you can do is be there for your son."

Nodding, JJ wiped her eyes. "How do I tell him. That his daddy's never coming home."

Looking out into the bull pen, I took a deep breath, walking down the steps, I sat down at my desk. Looking over at Henry, seeing him walking towards me, picking hum up I sat him down in my lap.

"Mamma, why sad….where daddy."

Running my hand through his hair, I wrapped my arms around him. "'I'm sad little man, cos daddy got hurt today."

"Hurt?"

"Yeah. Buddy he didn't make it."

"Can I see him mamma?"

Biting down onto her lip. JJ kissed her son's head. "No buddy, cos he's gone to haven, with grandpa. "

"Mamma, I be sad too?"

"Yeah buddy you can."

They wall watched, as I held onto my son for dear life, I knew they all felt sorry for me, and Henry, but none them knew how I truly felt, Hotch did in a way, but I didn't just love the man I love today, I lost myself.

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Might make this into a two shot not sure. Anyways depending on reviews I might, so review and let me know.