Don't look, don't look, you cannot look, you must not look. Against all of his basic instincts, Brian looked anyways, his heart contracting in pain. Dylan pulled Meredith close and kissed her. No, it's not Dylan, it's Tootsie Noodles kissing Megagirl. Dylan carried her offstage, and Brian hid in the shadows, not wanting to be seen. He tried not to see Meredith's smile, or her leaning on his chest.

Denise came up behind him and put her hand on his back. Brian jumped, not expecting it, "You ok sweetie?" she asked, planting a kiss on his lips.

"I'm fine," he lied, in truth he was anything but fine. The girl he loved was with Dylan, and he was with Denise, how did it end up like this? Denise was an amazing friend, but he didn't want to take it any further. He had been hoping for a reaction from Meredith when he said yes, but Meredith and Dylan came out with their relationship the next day.

Denise leaned in, "I don't think you are, maybe this will help," and kissed him passionately. He returned it, only putting in a bit of effort.

—-

Meredith saw Denise and Brian kissing, and looked the other way. It was painful, but she tried to push through it, she was with Dylan right now. Denise had told her after rehearsal the day she asked him out and he had said yes. Dylan had asked her out a while ago, and she finally said yes.

He had told the group the next day, much to her displeasure. She caught his look of shock and hurt before he plastered on a smile. Denise leaned over and whispered something to him, and pulled him in for a kiss. The rest of the group saw her gaze and the wolf-whistles started.

Since that day, Meredith and Brian hadn't spoken except for during their scenes together in Starship.

Her next cue came, and she ignored the fact that this was her scene with Brian. The scene progressed, and she was relieved to finally get offstage. Jaime confronted her, "Are you ok? You're getting a little shaky out there."

Meredith shook her head, "I don't know if I'm ok or not at this point! The world just seems to be falling to shit right now! Can I tell you after the show?"

"Yeah, because my cue is coming up," she replied.

The show was agony, but when it was finally done, Meredith ran to the dressing room to get out of her costume so she could leave. After handing the costume to June, she went out to greet the fans, she ran into Brian on the way out.

"Good show tonight," he said stiffly.

"You too," she replied, and sped up, not looking at him. She got out to the fans, and was greeted by cheers. She started walking around, talking to them and getting pictures with some others, when one fan asked, "Can I get a picture with you and Brian Holden together?"

She couldn't really say no, just because it was a fan, "Yo! B-Hol! Get over here!"

Brian looked up in shock from the shirt he was signing, Meredith hadn't called him that since she and Dylan had started dating. He finished the autograph and walked over to the source of the noise, "Yeah?"

"She wants us to take a picture together," Meredith said, trying to act as though they hadn't spoken in a couple weeks.

Brian looked at the hopeful fan, "What do you want us to do?"

The fan looked around uncomfortably, "Kiss," she mumbled.

"Well, that is out of the question, but we could do something close," Dylan said. All of the Starkids had congregated when they heard Meredith yell for Brian.

"Huddle," Lauren said.

Everyone got in a huddle, except the fan, and Lauren said, "I think that they should go for it, but then everyone else grabs them and keeps them apart." The group nodded in assent, "Break!" Lauren shouted.

Brian and Meredith started to go for it, and everyone else started pulling on them. The fan was cracking up, but took the picture and thanked them, and left. Brian and Meredith looked at each other and then went opposite directions.

Jaime and Joey looked at each other and went after the two.

—-

"Meredith!" Jaime yelled after her, running down the street the direction she went, "Mere! I need to talk to you!"

Meredith slowed down when she was about two blocks away from where she had almost kissed Brian, "What?" she demanded of Jaime, who was running towards her.

"You know very well what I want!" Jaime said, gasping for breath. When she had regained her breath, she asked, "What happened back there? You and Bri were actually trying to reach each other."

"So? Wasn't that the point?" Meredith asked, trying to sound innocent.

"No! The point was for it to look like it, not for it to actually happen!" when Meredith didn't answer, Jaime asked, more gently, "You're not over him are you?"

Meredith shook her head, tears welling up in her eyes, "No, I haven't ever been over him, Dylan was a big mistake."

Someone stepped out of the shadows, "Is that all I ever am? A mistake? I can never be a friend, just a mistake!"

"Dylan," Meredith gasped, "No, no, no! Of course you're a friend! You're an amazing friend! I just meant I shouldn't have done this to you!"

"Shouldn't have, but you did! You played with my heart Meredith! I'm not just the guy that sings, you know, I actually have feelings!"

"I know Dylan! Believe me! Please!" Meredith sobbed.

"I can't do this anymore Meredith, I need someone who will pay more attention to me then the guy she hasn't spoken to for months!" Dylan yelled, running off.