AN: Finally, I am on a roll now. Short Chapter but hope you like.

I lay restless on the bed for a couple minutes.

"I can't sleep, with you mad at me." I tell her.

She turns around and mumbles something. "Uhmmm…tomorrow."

"Casey, I can't sleep, knowing that I did something to anger you." I turn towards her.

Although dark, I can see her lift her head, "Alex…its half past three…please go to sleep. We can talk in the morning." With that she turns away from me and lays her head down.

I sigh and stare at the ceiling…I stayed up all night and I couldn't sleep.

Being with Casey is different than my relationship with Olivia. For one, I would actually have a good night's sleep if Olivia is pissed at me, however with Casey, I hate hurting her or seeing an ounce of her disappointed, by my mistake…If I am like this I wonder how I would be if someone else angers her?

I just want to make her happy, although I have yet to succeed at that.

I am still staring at the ceiling as Casey's alarm clock rings and she's moving her hand around the night stand, trying to feel for her phone. Once she shuts it, she turns towards me.

"You don't look like you slept…" she states as she plops her head back on the pillows, facing me.

I nod, "I couldn't go to sleep with you angry at me." I reiterate.

"Sorry, but can you blame me?" She wipes her eyes.

I shake my head, "I don't, baby, I truly don't. I know where you are coming from. I need to trust you, to know that you will be there for me…I thought maybe if I told you something I never discussed with anyone…not even Olivia…you will believe me that I trust you."

She shakes her head, "You don't have to-"

"Please. I want to." I gaze into her eyes.

She stares at me for a few seconds, sits up, and yawns.

I just stare back, she is so cute in the morning, and I can totally get used to waking up next to her.

Then I realize that I have to solve a matter at hand.

"When I was in my senior year of college, I planned to become a lawyer, in a firm." I start. "I wanted to own a firm one day. Become the greatest defender their ever was." I smile, "I studied night and day, then…" I pause and inhale, "my mother called me and told me my little sister was missing. I flew back home on the next flight…" Casey has an empathetic look on her face and she starts to scoot closer to me, but I don't want to be comforted now. This is the first time I talk about it out loud to anyone. I scoot away from her and she takes the hint. A tear slides down my face.

"All I could think to myself, was why did I abandon her? I could have gone to school here, in New York, but I was selfish, I wanted to be with my friends away from my parents…I didn't even think about her…She needed me." I am past sporadic tears, now I am full blown crying and my heart beats faster, as I begin to relive the gruesome event in the story.

"My sister was raped, had laceration wounds all over her face, she was tortured. The man who did it, just threw her in the park…She must have been scared, calling for my name, but I wasn't there…I wasn't there for Amy…" I wiped my tears.

"Alex, you shouldn't feel guilty, over this…It's not your fault." She hesitantly moves closer to me and I lean on her shoulder.

"She died because he choked her…I vowed to myself that if I found this guy myself I would kill him…but the police found him and I sat through that trial. His defense attorney throwing all these lies out there and the ADA was countering back…He got life. Not only that, but I knew that I didn't want to be a defense attorney. I want to fight for those that can't speak for themselves…"I swallow, and sigh, "I visited him in jail one day…and, and he wasn't even remorseful."

It feels so good to get this off my chest. I have been harboring it for years.

Casey is rubbing my back in circles. "Thank you." She pauses, "You don't have to go to work. I'll call in for you-"

"No…I'm ok." I am on the verge of more tears but I hold them back.

"Are you sure?" She asks softly.

I simply nod my head.

"I don't want to break this, but we have to get ready…Are you sure? You didn't sleep all night." She wonders once more.

Causing me to giggle despite my sobbing a few seconds before, "Yes, Casey."

For a few minutes neither of us moves. I feel safe, right here, in her arms.

"I'll make you breakfast while you get ready." Casey leaves no room for me to argue. She kisses my forehead and stalks out of the room, she turns around and leans on the door way. "I love you."

I smile to myself, "I love you, too."

Despite telling her the story for a whole other reason, I feel like a burden has been lifted off of me and it somehow got Casey and I, closer.

Oh…and I am so tired. I find myself succumbing to slumber.

"Alex," Casey whispers softly. "I told you not to go to work. You are tired, sweetie."

I slowly open my eyes to see a sweet smile over her face. Somehow she got dressed when I was asleep.

"I must have fallen asleep when you left." I tell her starting to sit up. To be honest, I am not all there, I am still sleepy, however I need to work…Well I don't, but Casey will be there and I just want to be with her all day.

"You did. Look do not go to work today and I'll come here or we can meet up for lunch, after you have gotten your good night- or should I say, day- sleep." She smiles softly.

I concede because she is pleading with me out of a loving heart. "Ok, but come home early, tonight." I smile.

"Will do." She tucks me in to sleep. "Oh, and your breakfast will be ready for you once you wake up."

She states one more thing but all I hear is a mumble as I am lulled to sleep once again.

AN: What do you think? I am a little exhausted from all the sadness in my stories...So I will try to get the last Chapter of Expectations in this week.