I just had to write this, for me there were never enough moments between Garrus and Shepard so I decided I had to write a Fanfic to include some of my own. It' set after the end of ME2, I actually haven't finished the game (got distracted by Uncharted 3 and ME3) and haven't read Arrival, so sorry for any inaccuracies with the timeline or whatever. I'm not gonna promise to update every week or whatever, I'll update when I can. Hope you enjoy reading this a much as I enjoyed writing it. Oh and the song lyrics are from a song called May I by Trading Yesterday. Oh and all the characters and that belong to Bioware. Right that's everything. Enjoy!

In the end it didn't matter, everything she'd done for them, the horrible decisions she had to make, the friends she'd lost. She was nothing more than a war criminal to them despite the fact that they all owed her their lives a hundred times over. Shepard sighed with the voice of someone was too tired to carry on. She clutched the datapad and reread the message.

This is an official order by the Council for the arrest of war criminal Commander Jane Shepard for the crimes of destroying the Bahak system and the murder of over 300,000 Batarian colonists. The guilty party will have 14 days to return her crew to their homeworlds or another suitable location and come to the Citadel to await trial, should the guilty party decide to disobey these rules she will be arrested by force and anyone who assisted her will be placed on trial for association with war criminals.

If she went to the trial alone it would be her word against everyone else's but if she took any crew member to speak for her there would be no doubt in the fact that they would be thought of as guilty as her. Garrus would want to come and speak on her behalf, of course. He wasn't the kind of guy to sit around while his 'mate' was convicted of intergalactic treason. Since they had spent the night together 'blowing off stream' they had grown closer and closer. He was so protective over her and she couldn't quite decide whether she liked it or not, it wasn't that he thought she needed protecting, it was just his Turian instincts. Not that any of that mattered now, the thought of leaving the love of her life and travelling to a place hundreds of light years away, to await a trial in which she had no chance, nearly brought her to tears. She knew she had to be strong.

She dropped the datapad onto the bed covers and rested her head in her hands. She heard the door open and didn't even have to look up to know it was Garrus. He sat down on the edge of the bed and sensing that she was deep in thought said nothing. She breathed in his typically Turian smell, which to her smelt like a cross between the neroli oil her mother used to burn and the pine trees back on earth. It was surprisingly calming.

She breathed in once again and a wave of nausea suddenly overcame her she raised her hand to cover her mouth, and sprinted to the sink and was just in time to throw up neatly into it. Garrus, as protective as ever, rushed to her side "Jane" he said tenderly his normally non-expressive face streaked with worry. He reached out his arms around her tiny frame, she felt so small and weak, pale and shaking in his arms. She excused herself from the embrace and splashed some water on her face and she stood for a second just staring at the wall. Garrus reached out a talon and gently turned her round to face him, until they stood face to face. She leaned forward placing her forehead against his, an ancient Turian sign of love and comfort. There they stood, Turian and Human, completely and utterly in love. Shepard couldn't help it, every angry, grief filled tear she had been holding in poured down her cheeks.

Garrus pulled away from her. "Jane" he said again "Tell me what's wrong". Still shaking she walked over to the bed and picked up the datapad and handed it to him. She sat down on the bed and watched the look of shock forming on his face as he read the message. "The bastards!" he couldn't stop himself from shouting out, it was so unfair. He looked to her the anger in his eyes changing to sadness as he realised what this would mean for them. Silently he walked over and sat beside her, pulling her close as she sobbed onto his shoulder. "Why me? Don't I deserve to be happy? After all I've done? Why do they want to tear us apart?" She said between sobs gripping onto his armour even tighter. He held her like a child, rocking her gently and her purring quietly to calm her, until she fell asleep in his arms.

And there you stand opened heart-opened doors
full of life with the world that's wanting more.
But I can see when the lights start to fade,
the day is done and your smile has gone away.

Let me raise you up.
Let me be your love.

May I hold you
as you fall to sleep,
when the world is closing in
and you can't breathe.
May I love you.
May I be your shield.
When no one can be found
may I lay you down.

All I want is to keep you safe from the cold...
to give you all that your heart needs the most.

Let me raise you up
Let me be your love