Is anything what we really think?

summary: Lillith is just an ordinary girl that has a stressful life, like any other teenager

she wishes she can escape it, she loves her baby brother, and her mom. but what happens when her mom is killed by a drunk driver. she ends up taking care of her brother and not taking care of herself, she is about to give up when she gets a wake up call.

sadly I don't own any of the twilight characters, wish i did, but i don't

Chapter 1: life

"Lillith time for breakfast" I heard my mom call from downstairs. Ugh I don't want to go to school, I had a math test first period I didnt study for and I knew I was gonna fail,then get grounded for failing.

It has happened so many times before I was used to it and did not look forward to it.

"Lillith!" my mom called again. "I'm coming I'm coming" hold your horses, I muttered.

I got up got dressed then headed downstairs just as my mom called my name, again "Lillith Rosemary Ca- oh your up well breakfast is on the table, I have to go to work, you need to get your brother up and off to school in 10 minutes"

I rolled my eyes "yeah I know the routine mom just go" she sighed " I'll be home late so come right home after school, love you"

"yeah love you too" she left. I ate my food, scrambled eggs and toast my favorite, then went to wake up my brother.

My brother was 8, he has Autism and he was the most quiet kid I have ever known, seriously he never talks!

He just sits in his room and does nothing, I don't know why but I wish he would talk to me. It can't be good for someone to never talk, can it?

I opened the door "Jackson time to wake up" I walked over to the bed and put my hand on his shoulder. "Jackson wake up time for school"

He looked at me with tears in his eyes. "Jackson! whats wrong?" He just grabbed me in a hug and said "I dont want to go! please dont make me go they all hate me!" He started sobbing, I put my arms around him and started rocking him back and forth trying to comfort him.

We sat like this for about 5 minutes when the phone rang "I will be right back Jackson" I got up and answered the phone.

Ugh it was him, our dad, he left a year ago when we found out Jackson had autism, he said he couldnt handle the stress that was to come with a kid like this. "What do you want" I asked really mad actually. "I wanted to say happy birthday to you... happy birthday"

I thought for a second, I totally forgot it was my birthday. Today I turned 18 I am officially an adult. "yeah thanks bye" I hung up the phone before he could say anything else. I picked the phone back up and called my mom "Lillith? whats wrong?" she asked panic clear in her voice.

"nothing, I just wanted to ask if I could stay home from school today, Jackson isnt feeling well and I dont want him to be alone" silence " Lillith you know you can't miss too much school you might-" "mom I am not going to lose my 4.0 if I miss 1 day" she was always worried about me losing my perfect grades.

If I didnt lose them when dad left I am probably not going to lose them to stay home and care for my baby brother. "alright" she said after a couple of minutes, probably shocked at what I had said.

"ok thanks I will call the school and let them know" "ok just make sure he doesnt get out of bed till he is better, I got to go my boss is eyeing me, love you" "love you too mom bye" I hung up the phone called the schools to tell them we weren't coming and went back to Jackson, he was sitting on the bed curled into a ball, crying.

I walked to the bed picked him up and carried him to the rocker in the corner of the room, we sat here for about an hour till I realized he was asleep.

I got up gently trying not to wake him, and put him in his bed. I got my cell phone from my bedroom and returned to the rocker not wanting to leave his side, I wanted to be there when he woke up.