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Chapter 15

Meredith's POV

One week after…

'OK...are you ready?' My mom asked while she handed me a mirror. It was just an ordinary hand mirror but as I reached for it, I noticed my hand trembled.

'Just take your time Meredith,' Derek said gently. 'Look at your face first, and then slowly work your way up.'

But I wasn't the person who did things the slow and easy way. I mean, how different could I look? I might have a scar but I would still look the same, right?

Closing my eyes, I lifted the hand mirror to my face. Faint sunlight streamed in through the window, falling across my face and I automatically turned toward the light and then…I slowly opened my eyes. Relieved, I took a breath; my face was still the same. In fact, I looked quite good for someone who had brain surgery, just one week ago. Then I gradually lifted the mirror higher and higher. 'Oh…' A strangled gasp escaped me when my eyes fell upon the red square scar an inch above my right ear.

'It's not that bad honey,' my mom quickly assured me. 'No one will notice once you're allowed to wear your hair down.'

'I know…,' I mumbled, quickly wiping away a few falling tears. 'It's not that I'm in shock or whatever, it's just….'

'What?' Derek insisted.

'As a medical student, I've been trained to view death as part of life but it's not that simple when it's your own life…hanging in the balance.'

'Ah, come here you,' Derek said soothingly, wrapping his strong arms around me, holding me tightly to his chest.

'OK then.' My mom rolled her eyes. 'If you two love birds don't mind, I have somewhere else to be.' She turned and headed for the door.

'Mom?' I mumbled while I freed myself from Derek's embrace.

'Yes?'

'Thanks,' I said softly.

My mom smiled and gave me a friendly nod before she left the room.

'So? Are you happy to be leaving the hospital today?' Derek asked.

'Seriously? I can't wait to get home. Sleeping in my own bed, eating decent food again and you know what I crave most?'

Derek shook his head.

'…Having long sleepy nights without doctors poking their heads in every five minutes and taking vital signs or drawing blood,' I teased.

A grin appeared on Derek's face and his cheeks turned a light pink. 'I am sorry for that but I just couldn't stay away. You're my cutest patient…ever.'

I giggled and before I knew what happened, Derek crashed his lips to mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me closer to him, kissing me even harder. When he broke our kiss, he slowly began to kiss down my face, all the way to my neck. I let out a soft moan as he gently kissed me there, the trail of kisses leaving a tingling sensation and a growing heat in the pit of my belly. Derek lifted his head and gazed at me with an intense look in his eyes.

'You have no idea how much I've missed this,' he mumbled while he kissed me again.

'Er…Derek? How long before…you know,' I mumbled while a light blush crept onto my cheeks.

'What do you mean? Before we can have…sex again?' Derek smiled, our eyes locked in an unbreakable bond.

Derek's POV

Meredith's hands were clasped together and she was clearly nervous since she was fidgeting and biting her lower lip. She took in a deep, steadying breath. 'Er…yes.'

'Meredith…' I smiled, hoping to make her feel more at ease. 'We have time…there's no time frame. If you feel up to it…'

'I want to have sex again,' Meredith blurted out while she pulled the blanket up to her chin.

'You want to have sex with me?' I repeated.

'Yes!' Meredith's answer was breathy and shaky at the same time.

'Right now…?' I said amusingly.

'Oh God…No!' Meredith exclaimed quickly and I sensed she regretted her words. 'Don't get me wrong. I wanna have sex with you but surely not now. I'm in my PJ's and I've had brain surgery just one week ago…I just wanna know when we're able to…you know?'

'Meredith…' I smiled, realizing that she perhaps needed some help.

'No…let me finish,' she interrupted.

'By all means,' I waved a hand urging her to continue. Amusingly, I leaned back against the back of the bed.

'You…kissing me, stirred up all those familiar feelings inside me,' Meredith stammered shyly. I took her hand in mine and smiled when I noticed the goose bumps on her skin.

'…I'm not kidding. Even now I can still feel where your lips have been,' Meredith paused taking a deep shuddering breath. '…and then I remembered your hands and what you do with them…and well, naturally my mind went to…' Meredith's eyes settled on me and a rush of tenderness welled up inside me.

'You're so sweet,' I breathed out.

'Don't mock me,' Stubbornly Meredith folded her arms across her chest.

'You want to have sex with me!' I repeated her words, realizing I was more in love with her than ever before.

'Er…yes.' Meredith's voice was soft and innocent and it pulled me right out of my moment of stun.

'Wow,' I grinned, leaning towards her.

'I just put myself out on the table and all you have to say is…'

'Of course I want to have sex with you,' I interrupted Meredith, leaning forward and giving her a quick peck on the mouth.

'You do?' And in that moment, the way her eyes looked to me for assurance and the way her voice gave away her vulnerability, I felt so much love for her.

Meredith's hands started fidgeting again so I reached out and stilled them with mine. 'You, Meredith Webber…are amazing! You are, by far, the smartest person I know. You challenge me. You're funny and you keep me on my toes. You push me to do better and you're sweet! You might not use that word to describe yourself but you are. You're bright and…' I shook my head and smiled. '…gorgeous and I love you. It's mind-blowing how much I love you.'

'Mind blowing?' Meredith raised a brow, allowing a smile to seep through her nervousness.

'Astounding, really,' I grinned.

'So…you're saying that we can have sex again…?'

'Yes,' I interrupted her again.

'Oh thank God.' Meredith breathed relieved while I chuckled.

'But, I am also saying that we don't need to rush things, 'I continued. 'We can talk about it. And when you're up to it…I'm sure it'll happen.'

'Good,' she whispered and I could hear relieve in her voice. 'Now…are you ready to take me home?'

Meredith's POV

Three weeks after…

I was standing in front of the bathroom sink, staring at my reflection in the mirror. I bit my lip because for the first time, I had permission to wear my hair down again.

'LEXIE?' I yelled.

'Yeah? What's wrong? Are you OK?' she stammered slightly out of breath while she burst into my bathroom.

'Sorry for startling you,' I smiled apologetic. 'I'm fine but could you help me with my hair?' I said pleadingly while I handed her my comb.

'You want me to do your hair…?'

'Would you?'

'Sure!'

I watched Lexie with interest as she picked up the comb, and carefully started teasing a section of my tangled hair.

'You need to tell me if it's hurts,' she said a bit nervously.

I nodded but Lexie did a very thorough job. She transformed my chaotic tangled mass into silky, wavy hair that fell lightly upon my shoulders.

'Here…all done!' She said while she watched me satisfyingly.

'Can you see my scar,' I asked a bit nervously.

'Na-ah,' Lexie shook her head. She opened the sink drawer and pulled out a hand mirror, turning it so I could see the side of my head.

'Oh…you're the best,' I smiled while I pulled her closer for a hug.

'You're welcome,' Lexie smiled.

Walking back into my bedroom, I halted in front of my wardrobe. For a moment I looked at myself in the large mirror attached to it but then nodding satisfyingly. I opened the door and pulled out my favorite jeans and a striped navy blue shirt.

'Are you going out?' Lexie asked.

'I'm picking up Derek at the hospital,' I explained. 'I thought it be nice to surprise him.'

'Do you want me to drive you?' Lexie urged.

'Nah…thanks.' I said but when I turned to face Lexie, I noticed she had tears in her eyes, giving me a weak smile.

'Hey…what's wrong?' I frowned.

She swallowed hard and turned her head. 'Don't mind me…I'm just being silly. It's just…what would I have done if I had lost you?' she whispered.

I felt how my bottom lip quivered also and within an instant, I had closed the distance between us, holding Lexie and squeezing her tightly.

'Hey…I'm fine! Someone up there…,' I pointed upward, '…thought it wasn't my time yet. You're my sister Lexie…and I've just found you. I'm planning to stick around here for quite some time…OK?'

Pulling slightly away, Lexie smiled through her tears. 'OK, I'll hold you to that. Now go and pick up your fiancé!' At the mention of Derek, a tender smile crossed my face; never had I felt more love for anyone, except my parents…and Lexie. And despite the short amount of time we'd been together, I knew Derek felt the same way about me.

'You promise to let me know if you don't come home.'

'Cross my heart,' I smiled. 'And if not, you can always come see me.' I gripped Lexie's hand and held tight. 'We'll never let each other go again.'

Tears sparkled Lexie's eyes again as she nodded fiercely. 'Never. I promise.'

Derek's POV

The day was slowly coming to an end when I hurried down to the pit after an emergency call; motorcycle victim. As a Neurosurgeon, I knew death was part of the circle of life and although I mostly concentrated on the positive, I could never fully ignore the fact that death was seated at the very same table as life! Only seconds later the sounds of sirens were whining in the distance and I was focused on the job ahead.

An intern came running up to me. 'EMS dispatch just called to give us a heads up, Doctor Shepherd.'

'Alright…calm down,' I said softly. '…What's the ETA?'

The young intern swallowed nervously, 'They didn't say Doctor Shepherd, but the ambulance will bring in a young man with extensive injuries to his head.'

I nodded. 'OK…what do we need?' The intern took a deep breath but then she said, 'Er… O-neg. rapid infuser fired up, warm IV-fluids, chest tube tray, thoracotomy tray just in case, ventilator, laryngoscope and surgical team and OR notified.'

'Excellent.' I nodded approvingly at the blushing intern and we waited in silence while nurses and interns set up and checked the equipment. Within a time frame of three minutes, the doors flew open and paramedics frantically pushed a gurney through the doors into the ER, yelling, 'Young man…twenty somethin' years old, with multiple injuries. He's lost a lot of blood. We couldn't tube him. He's got two IV's in and we've bagged him all the way!'

'Thanks…good job men.'

I leaned over the young man and quickly checked his vital signs. He was unresponsive, pulse less and flaccid and while I quickly checked his pupils, the intern hooked him up to a heart monitor.

'OK…wheel him into OR 3…stat,' I yelled.

…

It was close to five PM when my surgical team gathered for the operation in OR three. I stood in the scrub room scrubbing in with Jackson Avery.

'Ready Jackson?'

He nodded, 'Sure.'

I pushed the button with my elbow and together with Jackson I entered the OR. Almost at the same time, the anaesthetized patient was rolled into the OR and for a moment all conversation ceased. 'OK people…it's a beautiful day to save lives.' I announced while the OR team kicked into action. Due to his motorcycle accident, I had to perform an emergency craniotomy on my patient.

'Ten blade…please,' I said softly.

The scrub nurse handed me the asked scalpel and I swiftly made the first incision.

'Wipe.'

Avery grabbed a surgical sponge and dabbed the area. The procedure went on as Jackson and I cautiously worked our way through tangled blood vessels.

…

I peeled off my gloves and looked down at my patient. His head was wrapped in a turban-like head bundle and his eyes were puffy and bruised looking. He looked pale but I was confident, he would make a full recovery.

'What's his hemoglobin?' I asked.

'Twelve.'

I nodded, satisfied with the figure considering all my patient had been through and was still to endure. He was by no means out of the woods yet. 'OK…let's get him into intensive care.' They wheeled my patient out of the OR and before heading into the scrub room, I casually glanced upward at the gallery…

Meredith's POV

All the tension from the risky craniotomy whipped away from Derek's face when he noticed me up in the gallery. A lopsided boyish grin appeared on his face while he raised his hand gesturing me to come down. I nodded and hurried down the stairwell, entering the empty scrub room where we embraced each other in a tight hug.

'Hey,' he softly said.

'Hey,' I answered with a smile.

'You…look amazing!' Derek mumbled while he ran his fingers through my hair.

'Thank you…Lexie did it!'

The corner of Derek's mouth tipped upward into the sexiest grin I'd ever seen. He leaned forward and nuzzled my neck. 'You look hot,' he whispered in my ear. When he held my gaze a bit longer, something started to burn inside my belly and I sighed…Derek had this effect on me; he'd always had this effect on me!

He leaned in and kissed me; a kiss that started out brief and warm but got more passionate when he wrapped his arms around my waist. Soon, I felt my blood hammer in my ears. I let my bag drop to the floor and slid both arms around Derek's neck, pressing myself against him.

'Derek…?' I mumbled, putting my hand on his arm.

'Mmm…?

'Can we make love tonight?'

'Mmm…Meredith,' Derek whispered, burying his face in my hair again. '…That's the best offer I've got all day.' He kissed me again; a fierce, open mouthed kiss and I raised myself on tiptoe to meet him.

…

And then suddenly, we were at Derek's place. The wind creaked in the trees outside the trailer and I had just called Lexie to let her know, I wouldn't sleep home when I realized the enormity of what we were about to do. We were Derek and Meredith and we were about to make love, freely and with open hearts for the first time since my brain tumor. I clung to Derek, inhaling his unique masculine scent. He held me tight and I reveled in the feeling.

'Kiss me.' Derek glanced at my lips and I felt them opening expectantly.

'Meredith.' Derek's whisper was hoarse and filled with longing. 'Are you sure?'

'Yes.'

Upcoming darkness surrounded us as Derek tipped my chin and softly trailed his fingers over my cheeks. His mouth covered mine and there was no stopping…no going back. I threw my arms around him and he drew me with him onto the bed. He was on top of me, his weight on me, and his legs pinning me down and when I felt his growing erection, I shifted, wanting to feel that glorious pressure as long as possible.

'I've missed making love to you so much,' Derek whispered. He kissed me again, all gentleness gone. His tongue entered my mouth, searching, demanding. I wanted his skin against mine and if Derek had read my mind, he ran his hand under my shirt, pushing away my bra and caressing my breast. My fingertips dipped beneath the waistband of Derek's jeans and I felt how his gut tightened. His movement created space so I took advantage and moved lower, gently touching him. Derek groaned and by the time he'd finished stripping off my clothes, I'd already worked the fly on his jeans cupping him. Our movements were frantic. Quick breaths; hands searching, needing, possessing. My mouth was on Derek's, kissing him passionately.

'Meredith?'

'Mmm?'

'Slow down.'

'I…I can't…I want you so much.'

Derek smiled and slid off the bed, quickly taking off the rest of his clothes. I watched him eagerly while he stood naked in the shaft of moonlight streaming in through the window.

Derek's POV

I felt a rush of tenderness rise in my chest and wanted Meredith more than ever before. I wanted to feel her beneath me, around me. I sat down on the bed and trailed my hand to the valley between her small but firm breasts. Immediately, I saw desire flare in her eyes.

'I'm going to make love to you,' I promised her softly.

'You should.' Meredith said quietly as my gaze automatically flicked to her lips. She watched me in fascination as I slowly lowered my head, my mouth creeping closer and closer.

'I love you,' she whispered.

'I love you too.' My heart thudded wildly as my mouth finally zeroed in on hers. I felt how a moan escaped her lips and she arched her back when my hand found her breast. The smell of her skin was intoxicating and the taste of her mouth divine. I softly groaned, my hand tightening against Meredith's breast as I lavished her mouth with sweet, slow kisses that burned my mouth. I wanted to touch her, kiss her all over, touch every inch of her skin and possess every inch of her body. Our passion ignited and our kisses grew hotter, longer, deeper. My mouth left hers and found a nipple. She bucked against me as if a bolt of lightning had coursed through her and she whimpered as my hand traveled down her smooth belly.

'Derek…please,' she begged, grinding her hips against mine.

I chuckled and looked up from her wet nipple. 'No…I'm taking this slow. Like I would have if I'd known you were a virgin.'

Meredith let out a frustrated groan. 'My virginity is long gone. Get over it.'

I grinned at her frustration but my eyes widened as I saw the light that burned in her eyes.

'If you don't make love to me right now…I'm going to scream.'

I smiled when Meredith arched her back and my erection rubbed against her moist core. I held her gaze as I trailed my hand down her belly, delving deeper into her curls and gently parting her. Slowly I inserted a finger into her moist heat and began to thrust. Whimpering, Meredith arched her hips upward silently begging for more. I bent over her and took her erect nipple in my hungry mouth, sucking tenderly, as I inserted a second finger. Almost instantly, Meredith was on fire, moaning in delight as I pushed deeper. With a few twists of my fingers, she came hard and I could feel her clenching around me. I swallowed her soft moans with a kiss as she rode the waves of her lasting climax. But I wasn't finished with her…

When she finally quieted, I returned my mouth to her breasts, slowly tasting my way down her body. She writhed beneath me and I loved how she reacted to my ministrations. I slowly ran my hands down her legs, stopping at her toned calves. I grasped her behind the knees, lifting her to me and placing her legs over my shoulders as I took in her most intimate place. I moved forward and kissed her there, the taste of her essence sweet and incredible. I felt the thudding of her heart under my hands as I slowly ran up my tongue to her centered bundle of nerves, slowly swirling around. Meredith gasped as she grabbed hold of my hair, pressing her hips forward as hard as she could and I could feel her tremble as I kept swirling my tongue against her. When I finally withdrew, she looked up at me with a look of utter love; there wasn't an ounce of impatience in her gaze anymore, only desire. Captivated by her entrancing eyes; I cupped her face and kissed her, wedging myself between her legs. Swallowing hard, I slowly pushed my hips forward; her soft folds slowly gave way and I felt her moisture as it spread along my shaft. The sensation of our joining was overwhelming and delightful tingles coursed through my entire body when I focused on the warm wet feeling of Meredith around me. I could feel her entire body below me, her legs wide to accept me, her breasts flattened against my chest, her flat stomach against mine and her pubic hair blending with mine. She wrapped her arms tightly around my waist and the sensation of slowly sliding into her was amazing. The desire to make love was overpowering so I started slow and deep thrusts. Meredith lifted her knees, providing more access as I sank into her over and over again. She met every one of my movements with hers and I watched her intently as our bodies moved together in a rhythm as old as time. Tangling her fingers into my hair, she pulled me to her, begging me to come even closer and I willingly obliged, kissing her passionately. She moaned into my mouth as our tongues met and her sounds of desire became louder as I kissed my way to her neck.

'Ohh…Derek,' Meredith moaned. By the way she trembled beneath me; I knew she was close.

'It's OK…just come for me,' I whispered as I kissed her neck, continuing my torturous rhythm that stoked and sated…stoked and sated. I breathed into her neck, breathing in the essence of our joining as we became locked in the sensations we were creating. I kept thrusting into Meredith, my heart racing as she opened and welcomed me. She arched her back and I felt her muscles clenched around mine, her body shuddering as another orgasm rippled through her. My own teetered on the edge, robbing my sanity and I kissed Meredith's neck, pulsing inside her. Mind-numbing sensations overwhelmed me as my release finally washed over me. Meredith moaned my name, holding onto me as my body shuddered, a flood of sensations and emotions overcoming me.

'Ahh…mmm…Meredith!'

I buried my head against her chest, holding her tight. Meredith sighed satisfyingly, wrapping her arms around me, her chest rising and falling with each labored breath. I watched her as she panted with closed eyes. As she opened them again, a smile curled her lips and she kissed me, her soft green eyes fully relaxed. Outside it started raining and the wind picked up. We both smiled and gazed into each other's eyes.

'I guess…we did OK,' I murmured, pushing sweaty strands of her hair out of the way.

'Not OK…we did excellent,' Meredith nuzzled into my neck. I wrapped my arms around her and as she gazed at me through half-open eyes, she whispered, 'I love you Derek.' I smiled, leaning down and kissing her temple. I didn't need to answer, she could feel my heart reaching out to hers, whispering the same. Meredith closed her eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep, unable to stay awake after our hours of lovemaking. I smiled as I watched her sleep, her head resting against my shoulder. I gently ran my fingers down her face and whispered, 'You are in my heart, Meredith Webber…forever!'