A drop in the ocean

A change in the weather

I was praying that you and me might end up together...

I'm laughing, Stefan.

I know there's no reason behind it, but something inside of me has just... snapped. Because I'm in your room, lying on top of your bed, and everything smells like you, perfectly soft, subtle, and indescribable... just like you. It's like you're here with me.

I just drove all the way over here, grabbed your pillow, and laughed, because I know I've reached my breaking point. You left me here out of pure love and selflessness for your brother; you've been gone all summer and Damon promised me that you'd never be back.

I'm alone without you.

A part of me wishes that you took me with you when you left town with Klaus; maybe then I would know you're okay. But I don't, and maybe I never will. Is it true, what Damon said, that you've become a heartless killer again?

Then again, surely a heartless killer wouldn't call me in the middle of the night.

I miss you, and I hate that I haven't heard your voice in months. It kills me inside to think about what you could be faced with.

Just remember. Please. Never forget.

I love you.

I'm crying, Elena.

I promised myself that I was unable to feel anything, but yet, the tears are streaming down my face. Your voice, so pure, and unchanging... seemed to break down my every wall within a matter of seconds.

It was a moment of weakness, when I picked up my cell phone and dialed your number, an uneven pattern of numbers that seem to be thoroughly implanted into my mind. And you knew it was me. I don't know how, but you knew.

All I expected was to hear you say "hello," but you told me everything I needed to hear. Even hundreds of miles apart, and somehow, you're still my strength. You still hold me up.

I haven't seen you smile in months, haven't touched your face in what feels like an eternity. It hurts, and it only reminds me just how close we still are. Because I left my heart with you, and I left it there intentionally.

I'm surprised I'm still alive. I thought Klaus would have killed me in exchange for Damon's cure. Nevertheless, if I had died that night, it wouldn't change a thing, because my heart would still be with you. My heart is your heart. No matter how far apart, we're one soul.

And that's why I'm in so much pain here... I want to be deserving of your love, but everyday, my hope of redemption fades. Every life I take only seems to remind me of how far away I am from being capable of your love.

So I can fake a glare at Klaus, pretend that nothing matters, but deep down my heart is breaking. All because you knew it was me calling without a single word.

I miss you, and I hate how I'll never be good enough for you again.

Just remember, Elena, please.

I love you.

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert

But I'm holding you closer than most

'Cause you are my heaven...

AN: Just a little something that came to me tonight and had to be written! Hope you liked it! Please leave a review if you can :) Xoxo