Without a Conscience?

A HariPo freeverse piece

by mew-tsubaki

Note: The Harry Potter characters belong to J.K. Rowling, not to me. This pairing is a Mew and Mor's Weird Pairing, which you may find in the M&MWP forum (see my profile for details). Check out and join the forum FUN! Read, review, and enjoy! Originally written for Hattie, for having the best freeverse in the 2011 M&MWP competition.

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Maybe it was an i.m.a.g.i.n.a.r.y. thought
Because it couldn't have been real
(these feelings)
if they had been in their right minds

-but Remus is a victim of his daydreams
&& Lily is a slave to her heart-

See
LilyLunaP_o_t_t_e_r
is just another girl who takes after her mother
(the handsomest men are older than you are!)
&& Lily Luna Potter
is just another witch who thought her childhood meant something
(because Teddy never stuck around for anyone else)

-but Teddy takes after his m_u_m
&& is just t_o_o good at
B/r-E.a;K)i*N:g
things-

[Oh, Teddy, How Could You!
You Said You'd Tired Of Dating!
But There You Are With Dom|In|Ique!]

But
RemusJohnL_u_p_i_n
is just feeling hateHATEh_a_t_e
(because why did Tonks force her way into his life and then lose her o:w:n?)
&& Remus John Lupin
is just feeling so much bLaMe it «blinds» him
(Remus, you fool, it was a war, you could've saved her!)

-sometimes Remus wishes he'd
n,e,v,e,r
said "yes" to Dora-

[I'm Too Old For You.
I'll Never Be What You Want Or Deserve.
We're Just Not Right To|Geth|Er.]

It's some type of !glorious! calamity,
Remus & Lily,
feeling bad
(pity!party, pity!party, pity!party)
And there's some finger-pointing done
~It's your fault your son's the way he is~
±It's your fault for being so bloody young±

But young&old isn't the matter
It's the trouble that Lily is following in Tonks' footsteps
&& that Remus is following in Teddy's footsteps
(maybe it was inevitable that they'd collide?)

Yet there's no
»IMPACT«
no messy !eXpLoSiOn!
-it's just a meeting of minds-
Because Lilu's too busy brushing the dust of debris off herself
{Teddy left her in the wreckage}
Because Rem's too busy minding his gingerly placed steps
{Dora left him broken in a million pieces}

So at least there's |common ground|.
And being grounded in that is what they
n;e;e;d.

H-O-W-E-V-E-R

?!history repeats itself¡¿

Lily really does take after her mother
(though she's found a reliable older man this time)
&& Remus really does feel hate 'n' guilt
(he had to have been the one to lead Lily astray…but he hates those beautiful teal eyes of hers—it's all her eyes' fault!)

There's no more thinking that this is all
i*m*a*g*i*n*a*r*y

-now Lily is a victim of her daydreams
&& Remus is a slave to his heart-

There's no more
d/e/b/r/i/s or BxRxOxKxExN BxOxNxExS

-'cuz Remus brushed her off 'n' Lily mended every little c|r|a|c|k-

There's only the hate&blame

-but that's all right,
because they only hated that they hadn't confessed sooner that
this is all real
…and…
isn't love just blaming the other person
for making you

.::eternally theirs::. ?-

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This is hat in a box's prize for having the best freeverse, "Fireworks and Hearts on Strings," for the 2011 Mew & Mor's Weird Pairings competition. It really is a superb FV and also had Lilu as a main character. I'm glad you asked for this as a prize, Hattie—I had a lot of fun writing it!

Thanks for reading, and please review!

-mew-tsubaki :D

2017 note: Ahhh, I still like this a lot and love the Remlilu ship. -w- I'm also so damn grateful to have met some of the coolest peeps on FFN and to have read some of the best damn stuff you'll ever read. :3