I'm not dead, I swear.

I've been putting this off for so long now.

Why?

It's simple really.

I didn't want to do this.

I honestly believed things would get better.

I thought my inspiration for this story would come back.

Sadly, I was mistaken.

Please, don't stop reading just because it's an author's note.

I have a few things I would like to say to you all.

One, I hate author's notes and I am ever sorry that I am doing this to you all but I just don't want to write this story anymore and so I'm quite simply not going to. I won't delete it, just in case I get the inspiration for it again.

Two, I believe I should explain to you all exactly what I've been doing with my life as it'll clear up the reasons why I vanished so suddenly.

It wasn't just the lack of inspiration that stopped me from writing. I'm in my final year of Sixthform and that's a huge thing for me. I've had to work my arse off in order to try and get the grades I need to get in to University. I've had to stop doing a lot of small things that I enjoy in order to concentrate on my final couple months.

Writing being one of them.

Then there's the fact that I've been busy when I have free time.

This is my eighteenth year of living and so I've had quite a lot of parties to attend and where it's my last year with a lot of my friends, I've wanted to spend time with them before we all run off to conquer the world in our own ways.

So all in all, the reason I vanished from the world of fanfiction was because of education and… living.

At the beginning when I started writing on here this year it was because I had a lot of issues.

It helped me.

I still have those issues.

I deal with them daily.

However, I'm now mostly happy.

I don't need to create my own worlds every day anymore.

I love the one I live in.

Thirdly, this message sounds like I'm leaving you all.

I'm not.

I can promise you that.

I miss writing so much.

I can't even describe how much I miss it.

But I am happy to announce that my months of neglect have paid off for me.

I'm most likely going to be getting two Distinctions, which is an A, in my ICT course and so that means I'm most likely going to get in to my University as I have enough UCAS points to do so now. I'm yet to know my English Literature grade and won't know until the 16th August, but I'm not too bothered.

Why?

Because it means I'm finished.

I leave Sixthform tomorrow.

That is why I am currently posting this author's note.

I will be back writing within the next week.

Fourthly, I did not know much about the SAMFA Awards but I do know that I won. I won during a rather stressful time with revision and deadlines and so it was something that made me ever happy.

Thank-you so much to all those who nominated and voted for me!

I know I was up for two other awards too, one being the 'Best Sherlock' and I just felt so honoured to be in that category although I didn't win. (Emcee Frodis deserved their win though – they are actually so epic! Flawless, that's how they write!)

I can't believe you all actually think I write him that well!

Once again, thank-you to those who nominated and voted for me – you are all amazing and are the reason I want to continue writing!

Finally, although I am going to be writing again it will not be like last time.

I don't really want to start writing a multi-chapter story again.

I have my reasons for this:

-I don't want to lose the inspiration for it again.

-I'm planning on writing my own original story to get in to the flow of it before University (I'm studying creative writing) and simply because I want to write one.

-Like I said, it's my last summer with the people I've known for years. We're all going away soon and I want to spend as much time with them before it's going to be more difficult to do so.

-I now have a boyfriend. We haven't been together long but I really like him and I don't want to end up neglecting him because I'm caught up writing (believe me, it would happen ;]).

-It's my eighteenth birthday soon and I'm going to want to spend my summer doing the ridiculous things eighteen year olds are supposed to do. ;)

Finally, like I just said, it's my summer! I have loads of little things I want to do! I cannot get caught up with writing and not do them!

So, there are my reasons.

I will be doing oneshots though and maybe a short, short story.

I'll let the wind lead me.

I'm open to suggestions of stories people would like me to write – I like hints.

I think that would be a cool way to start this off again.

Hell, I don't even know if you all remember me or not but if you do and you still want to read stories written by me, please don't be shy about telling me something you'd like to see come to life in words. :)

To sum this up, I'll say one more thing:

I AM BACK, MUDDAFUCKERS!

Ps. sorry for the length… it's been months… I like to talk… I had a lot to say…