Deeks walked back to his house contemplating whether or not he should go to Kensi's. She seemed really mad at him but if what Callen was telling him was true then she couldn't be too mad. Deeks decided that he would go to Kensi's. The worst she could do would be to shoot him; but he felt like he had been shot through the heart so he didn't think it would be that bad. He fed Monty and took him outside for a little. Then Deeks went to the store and got some of their favorite Landshark beer, ice for her injuries, some dessert items he knew Kensi loved, pudding in case she couldn't eat and stuff to make smoothies and milkshakes. He also stopped at their favorite Chinese restaurant and got his kung pow chicken and her chicken teriyaki. He wasn't sure how much she would be able to eat but he figured it was the thought that counted. The whole time Deeks was driving around LA gathering his desired item he was still unsure if he should go to Kensi's. Yes, they had decided at lunch that they needed to talk more things over. Deeks was ready to open up to Kensi, to relive some of his child hood that he had kept hidden for so long. He also needed to tell her and she couldn't punch him in the face anymore. That was going to be a big discussion. He thought that he could finally tell Kesni the truth about the last thirty four years of his life, but after today he wasn't so sure. He knew that there would be more times when he would mess up, it's bound to happen; but she can't push him away every time he does something that she doesn't like. Their partnership, their friendship and their relationship could never withstand it. Deeks didn't care so much about the partnership and the relationship as much as he did the friendship. They had both promised each other that they wouldn't let it come between them as friends because they were each other's best friends and they didn't want to lose that. Deeks hadn't even realized that he was at Kensi's and had been sitting there for about 10 minutes. He got out of his car, grabbed the food and grocery story items and his overnight bag and figured it's now or never. He wasn't sure that Kensi would be able to get the door, but he also didn't want to use his key for fear that Callen was wrong and she didn't really want him there.

Deeks walked up to the door and rang the bell. He waited a few minutes and then was about to walk away when the door opened.

"Hey Kens" Deeks said softly.

Kensi didn't answer, but she also didn't slam the door in his face so he figured it was a good start.

"Kens, can I come in? I brought food and beer" Deeks said hoping this would help.

Kensi didn't say anything but she hobbled far enough away from the door so that Deeks would be able to get into the house.

"Kens listen, I'm sorry. I should have taken the damn shot, I shouldn't have froze" Deeks said walking in and placing his bags of goods on the ground.

"Yesterday you would have taken the shot, today you would have taken the shot if it was Callen or Sam" Kensi said.

"But it's not yesterday and your not Callen or Sam" Deeks said trying to help her over to the couch.

"Touche" Kensi said with a small smile.

"Kens, I really am sorry. I knew I had the shot but I panicked, it was no longer just my partner standing there; it was my girlfriend, the woman that I love, the women that I can't bear to lose. Suddenly you weren't NCIS Special Agent Kensi Blye, you were just Kensi Blye my girlfriend" Deeks said looking down at his feet.

Deeks had gotten Kensi back to the couch and he propped her ankle up on the pillows before going to get the food.

"I know, I over reacted. I should have never punched you and kicked you out of the hospital. I'm sorry, it's just I've spent my whole career trying to be one of the guys, not some damsel in distress. When I was partnered with Dom, he was a good agent, but young and nieve. I had to be the one on the lookout all the time, the one that took charge. When you came, that changed. You were very capable, you just didn't believe in yourself. You are very good at detecting" Kensi said with a laugh knowing he loved shoving that in their faces.

"Well for one thing, I'm glad your not one of the guys" Deeks said sitting down on the other end of the couch.

They both just sat their for a few minutes thinking over the day and how much had happened.

"Kens, we do need to talk about this and if you don't want me here I will leave. Callen called me and said you were wearing my clothes so you probably weren't too mad at me. But, you hurt me Kens, I promised myself that I would never let anyone I trust punch me in the face and just take it. My dad loved punching me in the face, and today when you did it, it...it took all my willpower not to punch you back. Being punched in the face brings back memories that no child should ever have to go through. So if this is going to work were going to need to talk about. I know you don't like the whole talking about it part and you don't know how to deal with your emotions; I get it Kens, and we will work though it together but it will take some time. We can't just shut each other out every time one of us screws up because it's not healthy"

"Deeks, I really am sorry about punching you, I didn't know it would bother you that much. I was mad that you wouldn't take the shot. Who knows if you had the shot or not, but we can't second guess ourselves in the field or one of us is going to end up of Rose's table" Kensi said.

"I know, so let's eat and then we talk" Deeks said getting the food out of the bag.

"I brought you real food, but we could always put it in a blender and you can drink it" Deeks said with a laugh.

"Yea I tried eating a peanut butter sandwich that Sam and Callen made me, but i just took small bites and spit it out when they left. Still hurts to much to chew"

Deeks got up so he could fully look at his injuries. He gently turned her head so he could get a better look at the damage to her jaw.

"It's starting to bruise but lucky for you i bought very long tube socks that we can tie around your head to keep the ice on" Deeks said with a small laugh but then leaned down to gently kiss the bruise.

"I will not be drinking my chicken and I will not tie tube socks around my head" Kensi said with a laugh.

"Well then your in luck because I brought stuff for milkshakes" Deeks said getting up to go make it.

"No sit, eat your food before it gets cold. I can deal with a beer for the time being" Kensi said.

Deeks handed her two beers, one to drink and one for her face. He got himself one and they sat there while he ate.

"So Kens, tell me what the doctor said. How long are you out for?" Deeks asked

"Well he's not sure. He said I will probably need physical therapy for the ankle, and that it will take a few weeks for the ribs to heal and about a week for the jaw" Kensi said wincing in pain as she moved.

"Broken ribs are the absolute worst. I could always kiss them and make the better?" Deeks said with a smirk.

"Maybe later, eat faster, I want my milkshake" Kensi said with a laugh.

"OK Kensalina" Deeks said finishing his last bite.

He made both of them chocolate milkshakes and went back to sit down.

"Thanks Deeks, this is amazing" Kensi said after a few sips.

"I know you normally like them thicker but I tried to thin it down to make it easier to eat" Deeks said.

"Thank you" Kensi said blushing at how much he could still care after she had been so mean to him.

"I perfected making them after the whole Sidorov thing. Solid foods were not an option the first few days" Deeks said.

"Deeks, I really am sorry" Kensi said wanting to just discuss everything they needed to so they could watch TV.

"Sorry about what?" Deeks asked not really wanting to talk even though he knew they needed to.

"Deeks, seriously?" Kensi asked.

"Sorry continue" Deeks said.

"I should never have punched you, I was totally out of line. Like I said I just wanted to be one of the guys. I have come to realize that is damn near impossible but I still try for some reason. I know I should not have gotten made at you for not taking the shot, it was stupid and I apologize. It's going to take time for us to balance out thing and partnership, but I'm in if your in. If were going to do this were going it together" Kensi said taking another sip of her milkshake.

"Yea, I'm in. I want to make it work. I can't imagine spending the rest of my life with someone else, or having a different partner. We just have to let time take over to figure things out. But we always work it out no matter what, and we will work it out" Deeks said.

"But" Deeks continued "Kens, the punch hurt more emotionally that it did physically. Like I said, that's where my dad use to hit me and my mom. Years ago when I put the sad, fragile seven year with a broken jaw away I promised myself no one would ever hit me like that again. My dad continued to hit me so I kept working out. Believe it or not I was a three season athlete. In the fall I played soccer, in the winter I swam and played basketball and in the spring I played baseball. As the years went on and puberty hit I got taller and stronger and I was finally able to over power my dad. The first time I remember that I was able to get him to stop hurting my mom was when I was 14 in 8th grade. Luckily mother nature was on my side and I grew early and fast so I just lifted weights every day to make sure I was stronger than him. And I always told myself I could never be hit or abused that why by someone I trusted. And the feelings I had towards you today scared the shit out of me Kens, I had to keep telling myself that you were my partner and that you can't express emotions like a normal human in order for me not you pummel you. It broke back anger that I have been harboring for years. I feel terrible for admitting this but I think you need to to what it does to me. I can take the playful punches in the shoulder and the jabs to the abs because they are like steel, but the face that crosses the line" Deeks said, hoping she wouldn't be mad.

"Deeks, I had no idea. I really am sorry. I'm trying to do better with my emotions but it's not working. If I ever try to hit you again you have permission to hit me" Kensi said feeling very guilty.

"No Kens, you don't get it. I don't want to hit you, I don't want you to feel guilty. I just want you to try and talk thinks through or take it to the punching bag. If you really want to hit my face we can put a picture of it on the punching bag but I don't want to hit you because then I would be no better than my own father" Deeks said looking away from Kensi.

"Why don't I just stop the hitting and take it to the bag or the sparring mat" Kensi said now fully understanding what her partner meant.

"I think that's a better idea. I really do like the sparring mat, because it's ok to get a little handsy on there" Deeks said flashing his usual grin.

"In your dreams lover boy" Kensi said.

"So are we good over today. You can't hesitate and I can't hit and shut" Kensi said hoping that they could work through this minor setback.

"Yea were good" Deeks said learning over to kiss her.

They finish their milkshakes and Deeks is the first to break the silence.

"Kens I'm scared" Deeks said hoping bringing this up would be ok.

"Mmm 'bout what" Kensi said hoping everything was ok.

"You, us, me turning into my father" Deeks said looking away from Kensi.

"Hey Deeks look at me, your doing it again. Your not saying what you mean" Kensi said slightly confused.

"What I mean is if we do continue to date which I hope we do, I'm scared I'm going to turn into my father"

"Deeks, from the little bit of information that you have told me, I don't think you have to worry about that. Deeks your proably the kindest person I know. Your horoscope was right, your loyal and dependable and from what you told me nothing like your father. And remember I will kick your ass if you ever try any of that on me" Kensi said hoping she was saying the right things.

"I just never want to be him. I spend all my time trying not to be him, but what it I actually am him"

"Deeks where is this coming from?"

"You said we need to be honest with each other and this is me being honest"

"Deeks I don't think your anything like him. Your kind, caring, gentle and loving. I mean look at Monty, if it wasn't for you he probably would have been dead" Kensi said laughing at the scruffy mutt they both loved so much.

"Max Gentry is him and I'm Max Gentry" Deeks said

"Your not, he's an alias. I'm not really Fern, and Melissa or any of those other characters that Hetty forces upon us. Deeks the fact that you get up every morning, go surfing and come to work should show you that your not your father. You have said it yourself you break hearts and save lives, although I think you should be done with the heart breaking." Kensi said.

"I guess, it's just I've been trying to put my past behind me but I can't seem to shake it lately"

"Maybe that's a good thing. Your past has shaped you into the man that you are, my partner. The guy I love" Kensi said.

"Excuse me what" Deeks chocked on his beer.

"I um, what I ua meant to say was I, I got nothing" Kensi said turning a nice shade of red.

"It's ok Kens, I love you too" Deeks said turning equally as red.

"See Deeks your not your father, you have the ability to love someone and I'm glad that someone is me" Kensi said.

"I am too"

"Did I help a little?" Kensi said hoping the answer was yes.

"Yea you did. The feelings I had earlier scared me and their feelings that my dad had and I was scared I was becoming him"

"Well, I am very sorry for bringing those feelings up. I'm not perfect either" Kensi said.

Deeks motioned for her ankle are he started to massage it to make it feel better.

Well everyone there is chapter 7. I will hopefully post chapter 8 soon. Don't forget to review!