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Worthless Soul

Title of song: Feel My Soul by YUI

I wish the day could have been longer. I wish I hadn't shouted at him. I wish hadn't run away. I wish I hadn't.. I wish.. he could just forgive me for one last time. For all the things I did that upsets him. I wish he would still love me.

I stuffed the earphones to my ears and played the song. The song that really describes me now. The song that could calm me down, at the very least. As I walked down the road leading to my house, the lyrics started to sing out.

Naki tsukareteta n da toikakeru basho mo naku
Mayoi nagara tsumazuite mo tachi tomarenai

(I'm worn out from crying, there's no place for me to ask questions
Though I'm lost and stumbling, I can't just stand still)

Why is it that I am such a sensitive person? Why is it that I can never hold my tears back?

I feel very doubtful now. Why is it that people have to hurt someone else's feelings? Don't they how it feels like? But I guess I'm just being a hypocrite now. I hurt other people's feeings too. I hurt HIS feelings. Someone very special to me. A lot of times. Will he be able to forgive me?

You should be stronger next time, Kaho-chan. I know it, Kazuki-senpai. I always thought that I have been strong. But I guess not. There's no way I could be as strong as you. I always hurt your feelings, but there has never been once that you cried, or even show a sad expression in front of me. Now I feel extremely guilty.

Sometimes, I wish I could be colder, like Tsukimori-kun.

Kimi ga kureta egao otoshita namida wa
Boku no mune no fukai kizu ni furete kieta
(The smile that you gave to me, the fallen tears
They touched a deep wound in my heart, and made it disappear)

Your smile. I love it. I don't think I could ever smile like that.

The song kept playing. Slowly but surely. Such a nice flow.

But every time you smile, I wish that it was only meant for me. I don't care what other people say about me being selfish. I just want that smile of yours.

Sometimes, I wish I could be friendlier towards you, like Tsuchiura-kun.

I feel my soul Take me away sou tatta hitotsu wo
Kitto dare mo ga zutto sagashite iru no
(I feel my soul, take me your way, that's right, everyone is
Always searching for that one thing)

Yes, I'm searching for you now. Searching for your love. But I'm just to shy to say that I actually love you.

Sometimes, I am like Shouko, very shy.

Sore wa guuzen de wa nakute itsuwari no ai nanka ja nakute
You're right, all right
You're right, all right Scare little boy
(It wasn't by chance, and it wasn't a fake love either
You're right, all right
You're right, all right, scare little boy)

Yes, I do. I love you.

Sometimes, I wish I could be more open with my feelings, like Yunoki.

Nando mo kuri kaesu dou ka ikanai de
Sasayaku you na kimi no koe wa itoshikute
(It repeats over and over, please don't come
Your whisper like voice is lovely)

Your voice, yes, your voice. I wish I could hear that everyday.

And not only Shimizu-kun who has lovely, angelic voice. You do have that angelic voice too.

I feel my soul Take me away mou furimukanai
Kitto kono te de ima tashikametai yo
(I feel my soul, take me your way, I won't look back
Right now, I want to be sure of it with my own hands)

I want to hold your hands now. I wish I could..

Itsu mo tanjun na hodo kurushindeikite yuku imi wo shiritai kara
You're right, all right
You're right, all right Scare little boy
(Suffering is always so simple, I want to know the meaning of life
You're right, all right)

Kazuki, please remind me again. What's the meaning of life? Why am I here? Why do I have to face all these problems? Why can't I just live life as it is? Why?

Sotto tsubuyaita kimi no kotoba you say it
Ugoki dase mienai kedo michi wa hirakareteru

(The words that you softly whispered, you say it
Start moving, the road is so opened up that it's like you can't see it)

Yes, I guess I have to start I new love life with you Kazuki. Are you willing to accept me? Do you still consider me as your beloved?

I feel my soul Take me away sou mogaki nagara mo
Kitto kono mama zutto aruite yukeru
(I feel my soul, take me your way, yes, even as I struggle
I'll always be able to walk along like this)

Thank you for leading me since the start. Thank you for not giving up on me. And even if I said I hate you for a lot of times, I still love you. Kazuki, believe me, I still do. Will you wait for me till I'm ready? Please don't leave me, Kazuki.

Sore wa guuzen de mo nakutte arifureta yume nanka ja nakutte
You're right, all right You're right, all right
(It wasn't by chance, and it wasn't an everyday dream either
You're right, all right, you're right, all right)

Sometimes, I wish real life was a dream, and our dreams are the ones which are real.

Itsu mo tanjun na hodo kurushinde yorokobi no imi wo shiritai kara
You're right, all right
You're right, all right Scare little boy

(Suffering is always so simple, I want to know the meaning of life
You're right, all right
You're right, all right, scare little boy)

I wish.. Kazuki, I'm sorry. Please forgive me for one last time.

I waited for his familiar footsteps to get nearer and nearer, like how he always chases me before everytime I broke down and cry. But all I could hear is the endless zephyr that blew past me.