WARNING: Though this fanfic has been rated Teen, this chapter is not! This is a lemon (Mature Adult conduct) chapter so if this does not float your boat, don't read it! (Though I'm assuming if you read Junjou in general you would like a lemon :3)

OuO ~ HI! How are you all today? Good? I hope so.

Well, I am really, really, really excited to write this chapter for you! This will be my first actual Lemon! I've done other sex scenes in my previous fics.( Taken and What holds us together) But, they are not very good! Since this is my first time please forgive me, I'm terrible T.T

Misaki sighed as he watched the world pass him by as he sat in the crowded subway car on his way home from work. It had been two months since Hiroki discovered the truth about Misaki and Akihiko's relationship, and it had been two months since Usagi had last appeared. This of course tore a hole into Misaki's chest, but with Kamijou knowing, things were a lot easier. He finally had someone to talk to. Misaki knew he would never be able to go this long, not seeing Usagi, and be able to pull though it. So, in a sense the youth was thankful to Usagi for telling Hiroki, even though it was very awkward between them now.

"We have now arrived at XX station. Please, stand back as the doors open..."

As Misaki heard this he felt the subway slow down. Standing up the youth waited for the doors to open. Once they did so Misaki stepped out of the car and made his way outside.

It was fairly overcast and since it was late evening the sky began to darken even more. As the boy rounded the corner to his street, the lamps on the side of the road began to flicker on. Since Misaki was on the opposite side of the street from where the apartment was he had to cross.

Before the youth could check to see if any cars were coming by, his eyes drifted over to the windows of the tall building in which he lived. Moving over to the apartment window, Misaki suddenly sucked in a breath. There, in the window, was a faint shadow of a person. It had a rather large build and was fairly tall as well. Misaki could only guess who it was.

Dashing across the street, Misaki didn't bother to look for cars, and that was a mistake! A loud honk sounded as Misaki looked to his left about halfway in the street. Jumping backwards in a flash the youth narrowly missed a speeding car. If this was any other time Misaki would have been freaking out, but right now was different. Misaki quickly finished making his way across the street and then bursted into the building.

With shaking fingers Misaki pressed the elevator button. It opened automatically and Misaki stepped in, pressing his floor. The ride up, though, seemed like an eternity as Misaki rose to each floor. What was he going to say? What would they do this time? Misaki wasn't sure but he knew he needed to get there as quickly as possible.

With the doors opening the youth ran to the front door of the apartment. By now the boy was shaking so much he couldn't even punch in the password to get inside without messing up. Taking a couple deep breaths, trying to collect himself, the boy lifted a steady finger and unlocked the door. Grabbing the handle he tossed the door open and tried to run inside...tried. As he bolted inside he was stopped by a very solid mass. Falling backwards Misaki let out a scream, looking up at what he had just ran into.

"Misaki!" Akihiko said sternly as he looked down at his tiny, confused, lover who sat sprawled out on the hallway floor. "Look both ways before crossing the street! You almost got hit!" Usually Misaki would be sneering back at the writer, telling him that he was wrong. But this time, he couldn't even move, much less speak. Akihiko looked down at the youth with curiosity for a moment before letting out a light hearted chuckle.

"Y-You're solid!" Misaki suddenly blurted out. Standing up in a shaky manor Misaki reached out a trembling hand, touching the man's arm. His clothes were solid and the rest of the man underneath them was solid as well. "It's...it's like you're not even dead!"

"I know," Usagi responded. "I feel really strong this time. I feel like I could do anything!"

Before Akihiko would said anymore, though, he took hold of Misaki's arm with a grin grip, then began to tow him into the apartment, closing the door behind him and then embracing the youth with a solid hug in the dimly lit room.

They both stood like that for a long time, just holding each other. Misaki just stood there, eyes closed with his head against Usagi's chest, listening to the rhythm of his breathing and his heart beating. - His heart! - Every once in a while Misaki would take in a deep breath, inhaling the heavenly scent of Usagi's cigarettes and shampoo, the smell of Usagi. Lately Misaki had even been buying the writer's bran of cigarettes and he would light them anytime he felt hopeless or lonely, which was a lot these days. He had even tried to smoke one or two, but that didn't work out very well. Resting his chin on top of the youth's head, Akihiko smiled when he heard his lover let out a deep sigh.

After what seemed like only a second or two Akihiko loosened his grip and moved his large hands from Misaki's back to his face, cupping the sides of his cheeks with his large palms and stroking the cheek bone with his thumb. Tilting his lover's head upward, Akihiko looked dead into Misaki's eyes, and the youth did the same.

"I waited all day for you," Akihiko said softly as he held the boy's face. With the sound of the Misaki's lips turned downwards and he grimaced slightly, looking up at Akihiko with sad eyes.

"All day?" Misaki asked with a weak voice. "You waited all day, and you didn't let me know! Not even with a call!" the youth growled, the volume in his voice increasing with each word.

"I wanted to surprise you," the writer cooed as he continued to hold the boy's face.

"A call would have surprised me to!" Misaki almost yelled. Before he could get anything else out, though, Akihiko bend his head down, kissing Misaki passionately on the lips.

Misaki's bright green eyes widened in shock as he looked at Akihiko with a surprised expression. Their eyes locked together for a moment, and their gaze held for a split second. Quickly standing on his tippy toes Misaki pushed himself up into Akihiko, returning the kiss in a rather violent manor. It had been a little over four months since Misaki had kissed this man, he was a little out of practice.

Letting go of Misaki's face Akihiko took one hand and put it on the boy's back. Knocking him off balance Usagi sent him and his lover backing up until he had Misaki sandwiched between him and the wall. Once there Akihiko pressed his entire body (or what he could) up against Misaki, wrapping his arms around the boy and entangling his long, slender fingers into the boy's brown hair.

A soft moan escaped Misaki's mouth as he kissed Usagi back. This was fairly hard for Akihiko had almost his entire mouth around his lover's as he extended his tongue out, exploring the cavity of Misaki's mouth.

Misaki's breathing became slightly labored as he tried to catch his breath and battle with Akihiko's tongue at the same time. The youth's tongue was suddenly surrounded by the writers and then it was slowly taken away. As Akihiko departed his kiss he shifted his lips, Sucking on Misaki's bottom lip for a moment before departing, leaving a heavy trail of saliva to follow.

No words were spoken as the two looked at each other before going at it again. This time, though, in the middle of the kiss Usagi pulled away and began to lick from Misaki's lip down to his chin, and then made its way to the youth's exposed collar bone.

"Nuh," Misaki whimpered as he arched his neck backwards, shivers running up and down his spine as he exposed his neck even more. Unfortunate most of Misaki's neck (and the rest of his body) was covered by a thick coat.

"Misaki," Usagi whispered as he backed away from Misaki for a moment, allowing space for him to work his hands in between them to unzip the coat that separated the lover's bodys. In a split second the coat was on the ground And Misaki was being picked up from under the arms.

Letting out a yelp of shock Misaki found himself wrapping his legs around Usagi, along with his arms. After a moment of moving Misaki realized that they were heading to Akihiko's bedroom. This automatically sent even more chills up and down the youth's spine. He would finally get to hold Akihiko, the solid one.

"You're getting excited," Akihiko muttered as he came to the bedroom door, pausing for a moment as he tried to open it with one hand. The writer could feel Misaki's body up against him, and with that he could feel Misaki's growing member from within his pants, trying to escape with all of its might.

Misaki said nothing in response to Usagi's comment, he just smiled softly. There was no use in hiding it. Once inside the room Akihiko gently tossed Misaki onto the unmade bed before crawling on top of the youth and unbuttoning his shirt.

Seeing what Akihiko was doing, Misaki took a hint. He couldn't wait to get his clothes off! Moving his small hands down to the bottom of his shirt Misaki took the shirt off with ease. As soon as he did this He found himself being kissed. This time, though, Akihiko's cold hands were set right under Misaki's arm pits, directly in line with his nipples.

As the couple continued to kiss, Usagi would move his hands lower and lower down Misaki's hot torso. Usagi's large hands tickled as they did this and of course the youth hand to let out a small whimper in between kisses. After a while, though, the hands eventually found Misaki's pants. Moving his nimble fingers the writer unbuttoned them and began to pull them off.

In the middle of this Misaki pulled away from Akihiko before sitting up (or...as much as he could) and helping Usagi take off the trousers, and his shoes. Going back to kissing, Akihiko let out a heavy sigh as he stuck his tongue as far into Misaki as it would go. Misaki seemed to like this though, so they continued to do so.

The hands with a mind of their own had now seemed to discover that Misaki was still wearing his underwear. Usagi didn't like that at all! He wanted to see his small lover's body!

Moving his kisses to Misaki's chest, Akihiko continued to go lower and lower until he was only a half an inch away from the top of the underwear. There he stopped and began to suck for a moment before going all the way down to the opening.

Opening his mouth the writer bit onto the top of the garment and began to pull it off with his teeth, his face getting hit by Misaki's swollen member on the way down. As soon as the underwear was past Misaki's knees Akihiko gave up and returned back to a higher level. His original intention was to continue kissing Misaki but when he came face to face with the erect rod starring him down, he couldn't help it. It called out. Sticking out his tongue Akihiko pressed it up against he very tip of Misaki's head.

"NUHN!" Misaki moaned as Akihiko's warm tongue and saliva softly tickled Misaki, swirling around the head and the sucking every once in a while. When Misaki was just starting to get use to it though he felt Akihiko go in for the kill. Wrapping his entire mouth around Misaki's penis and man began to suck harder and harder. And he began to go deeper and deeper.

Misaki screamed out as he spread out his fingers, grasping the bed sheets underneath him. This feeling...it felt so good. The youth could also feel his face getting hotter and hotter along with the rest of his body. Tears suddenly began to form in the bottom of Misaki's eyes and he did everything in his power to keep them from falling. This, of course, didn't work.

"U-U-Usagi!" Misaki called out as he looked at the ceiling with glazed eyes. He could feel himself building up as Akihiko continued to suck. "I'm gonna' come!"

The writer said nothing in response to Misaki, he just continued moving his head and lips back and forth. Ever so often he would pull a little more farther back up, tickling the head with a scrape from his teeth. "Usagi!" Misaki squealed again, followed by a rather loud moan.

With eyes opening a little fraction wider, Akihiko stopped. It was a moment before Misaki heard, and saw the writer swallow what was ever in his moth. To do this though, he had to pull away from Misaki and in the process some fell from his mouth, hitting Misaki and dribbling down this lower chin.

"Heh," Akihiko chuckled softly as he used his thumb to collect the white substance on his face before sticking the thumb in in mouth. "You really had a big one!"

"I-I'm sorry," Misaki said feebly as he looked at Akihiko with a flushed face.

"It's not your fault," Usaig cooed as he continued to suck on his thumb and now index finger. After that was finished Akihiko took his dry hand and put it under Misaki's back, lifting him up off of the bed. "Your hips," Akihiko ordered as he tossed the boy on top of him in a sitting position. Now, with his lubricated fingers Usagi preceded to stick it inside of Misaki's entrance, moving in and out. All the while he began to suck on Misaki's nipples which were directly in front of his face. At times he would nibble at them, sending Misaki into a loud moan.

Sticking his arms directly out in front of him Misaki then pulled them around Akihiko, wrapping his fingers in his silver hair. "Neh!" Misaki whimpered. His entire body was on fire and now with Akihiko's cold hands inside of him and on him, he started to fell a little better. Misaki loved Usagi's cold hands.

"M-More!" Misaki squealed as he felt Akihiko stick another finger into him.

Chuckling, Usaig pulled away from Misaki's exposed body, looking at him with sad, but at the same time, happy eyes. "I think you're ready." the writer said as he laid the youth back onto the bed before pulling off his own pants and boxers. His member, as well, was very much enlarged and when Misaki saw this he began to get extremely excited.

"Suck," Akihiko ordered and Misaki did what he was told. Leaning down he slowly began to suck at Akihiko, trying to imitate Usagi's actions earlier. "Good enough," Usagi said with a shaky voice in the middle of Misaki's blow job. Pushing Misaki back down to the bed, Akihiko took up Misaki's legs and raised them so they were resting on his shoulders.

Taking hold of his member Akihiko stuck it into Misaki. After sitting in there for a moment, the writer began to move in and out rather quickly.

"Gah! OH! Awwwou," Misaki gasped as he clamped his eyes shut, the feeling of being penetrated covering over him like a nice blanket.

This action continued on and on until Misaki began to mutter something.

"What?" Akihiko asked with his bright eyes, but Misaki didn't say anything...well, anything useful. It was all gibberish to the writer. After pumping in and out for a another couple moments Misaki spoke again. "I-I-I." Misaki stammered, his breath hot as it his Akihiko's skin as he leaned over the boy. "Usagi, I love you!" the youth said as tears spilt over his eyes uncontrollably. "I-I love you so much Usagi! I love you I love you, I love you, I love you," Misaki gasped as Akihiko pushed in one more time, the deepest it had ever been that night, before the silver haired man filled the boy with his goodness. As he pulled away Misaki did the same, sending the white substance all of Akihiko, Misaki's stomach, and the bed on which they laid.

Pulling out Akihio leaned down until he was completely on top of Misaki. Holding his face one more time in his hands Akihiko leaned down and kissed the crying boy on the lips before pulling away once again. "Shhh," Usagi cooed. "It's ok,"

"NO!" Misaki whimpered as he looked away from Akihiko. The tears showed no sign of stopping. "I love you so much! And I'm so so so so so so so so so so so sorry that I didn't say it to you before. I didn't say it enough and I am so sorry Usagi!" Misaki cried, the sobs now uncontrollable.

This image broke Akihiko's heart and he tightened his grip on Misaki's head. "Shh," he whispered once again. "I know you love me," Akihiko said with a sad smile. "And I love you to! So don't cry."

"I can't help it," Misaki said as he closed his eyes, he didn't want to see them man. "I just miss you so much! I can't take being alone! I'm sorry Usagi. I justmissyou alot." Misaki whimpered, his words now running together.

"Misaki," Akihiko said in a gentle tone, but with force, causing the youth to look up at him. "I'm right here, Please don't cry!"

"But!"

"If you ever need me, and I'm not here...you can always find me here." With that the writer let go of Misaki's face and placed one of his cold hands over Misaki's heart. "I'm always with you here."

The youth just looked at his lover for a long moment with his wide green eyes. He seemed to be a little shocked. After a moment of silence, though, Misaki continued to cry. "Okay," he whispered at one point.

With that Akihiko put his arms around Misaki and drub him to the head of the bed where the pillows were before crawling under the covers with Misaki. Both of their body's where now molded into each other, both of them facing another as they held on to one another for dear life. "I'm so glad you're here," Misaki cried softly. "I miss you."

"I miss you to," Akihiko said as he looked down at Misaki who continued to cry until he fell asleep. Now Akihiko just had the privilege to enjoy holding his tiny lover as much as he wanted. This, of course, felt wonderful for Akihiko, and he knew that somewhere inside of Misaki, he was enjoying it to.

Akihiko felt absolutely terrible about not being there for Misaki, but there was nothing he could do about it...except to hold him all night long and not let him shed another tear.

Well...this was an interesting chapter for me to write. ;u; I'm SO SORRY if this was a pile of shit. T.T Again this is my first lemon chapter ever so forgive me! Please, tell me what you think of this! I'll be waiting to hear back from you!

Also...I know there are some incorrect words here. D= I used a spell check thingy and it made it the wrong word and It won't let me fix it! So, I am very sorry if something does not make sense.

~ OH ho ho! I graduate in less than a week! With that said I will probably not have anything up for about two to three weeks. I don't' know though. :T Whatever happens happens I guess.

R&R please!

Anyways, have an awesome week!