Chapter 12

The days seemed like years but eventually they were over. My execution was announced over a world meeting, one that I obviously did not attend. I heard about it though through a packet of information which was delivered to me by a guard, he meant well, not that I would really have any use for it. I knew that even with the announcement of my impending death, no one was going to visit me throughout the three days are here, but when I actually let myself feel, I stilled hoped to see one person.

The one person I wanted to see was the one person who had no reason at all to visit me, Canada.

The morning of the execution was a lot like the morning of the trial, only it was only the guards who came to collect me. The handed me my clothes and woke me up telling me to get dressed.

They knew it was my last day here, they knew it was my last day alive, and they knew that no one would believe me, so they didn't hold back with their comments and grab-ass-ing as I got dressed. At this point I was used to it, men seemed to act like this when they saw breast bigger than a double D, I used to think all men were like this, until I met Mattie, then my entire world seemed to be a million shades lighter. When I was dressed I approached the guards and one of them tried to grab me and I slapped him and punched him in the face. The guard screamed out in surprise, and the other one grabbed me by the arm, slammed me against the wall and handcuffed me. The walk from there to the execution was then done in silent.

The execution was done in two rooms, the actual execution room and the viewing area. As soon as I came into view, I looked desperately for the face I had been longing for, for the last week. I looked and looked, but there was not a set of warm eyes in the small crowd that had attended. They sat me down, undid my handcuffs, and strapped me into the chair. The execution read out the charges I was sentence with, and then a priest stepped over me and said a prayer, begging God to show mercy on my damned soul. I waited in the chair, my eyes following the doctor as he prepared the lethal cocktail, mixing chemicals together and then hooking an IV to me, which was connected to the machine that would dispense this venom.

You see it take quite a lot for a human to kill a country, however it is much easier to have a country to do it, however, in this case it might just be a bit more humane if it was done by a doctor, and with all the poison the doctor combined, I'm sure they will get the job done. If not, I suppose it was convenient that the chair I was in could also be used as an electric one, again if not, if it really comes down to it beheading usually does the trick, though it is old fashion.

As they finished up the executioner looked at me and asked if I had any last words or reasonable requests.

I looked down and answered no, and I heard the door as it burst open.

Matthew stood there, his face looked tortured and he had stubble on his face. "No, no, no, Kat, they…they can't …kill you, no…I can't lose you too." Mattie walked to the glass and put his forehead and hands on the glass.

"Matthew, settle down," England shouted getting to his feet. "This woman killed your brother!"

"I…I know," he said. "I know…but…but what about the other woman, the one I used to love with all my heart, the one I dreamed about one day marrying," tears fell from his eyes.

"I have one last request; I would like Mattie to hold my hand…as the chemicals run through my veins. I want him to be with me, and I want to die in his arms," I said.

"I…I don't know," the executioner said, he looked at me and must have seen the pleading and desperation in my eyes, it must have been enough for him to get past what I was and forget about what he was hired to do, because he agreed.

The guards allowed Matvey to enter and he rushed next to me and sat at my side.

"Katsuyasha, why…tell me why," he said as he took my hand, tears streamed down his face.

"I…I wanted to protect you, I wanted everything that tried to upset you and our perfect life to just disappear…and something just took over, and I was wrong, I…I wish with all my heart that I could take it back, but it is too late now. I am sorry, and…I wish… that one day you will find the woman you are supposed to be with, someone who will protect you the right way. Someone who truly loves you," I told him.

"I had her, I really did, and now I am about to lose her," Matvey said. The executioner moved to my other side and took my wrist and inserted the IV.

"Please is this really the only option?" Matvey asked desperately.

"Yes," the executioner said. "I am sorry, but she is unstable and is a risk to society, this is the only way."

Matvey's eyes looked empty and he turned to me, he took my face and he kissed me. "It's really insane, that after everything you have done…I still love you…I'll never be able to forgive you…but I'll never forget you either."

"I…I love you too," I said. "And even in death, I will do my best to make sure you are happy and safe. He held me close as my eyes began to fade. Death had a grip on me and the last image I saw before I died was Matvey's face, covered in tears.

I love you Matvey…and I always will…

Now…and …forever….

The End