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Chapter 1: Time to Think

Bella's journal...

Week 1

Well, I've been home for a few days now. The Volturi let me go as long as I'm changed soon. Before, that's all I could think about, but now I'm not so sure that's what I want anymore. Edward told me that he still loves me; that he left to protect me. What the hell? I've ordered him to stay away. I need to think. I'm confused. He put a hole in me and someone else filled it...someone I care about. I need to see Jake.

Week 2

He won't talk to me! Ugh! I'm frustrated as hell, but I understand he's hurt. I just wish he'd let me explain and then I think he'd understand. I wrote him a letter today and sent it over with Charlie. I just hope he'll read it and not just throw it away. If he doesn't respond in two days I'm going to see him. I'm done being patient. Charlie grounded me from seeing Edward and Alice, but he never included Jake. I don't even care if I get in trouble...I'll take any punishment if I get to see him.