Thank you Mercedes Wolfcry for the wonderful idea of dieing and coming back a sparkling only with all your memories and faculties. This bunny was driving me crazy for those of you wondering about resuming life I'm still on it just got writers block. But I've been contemplating it. So here goes the bunny from hell. LOL

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In life I was insignificant, though when living I had people that would have argued adamantly about. But my life was unspectacular and probably I was glad to have it over with. Abuse of ALL kinds is never a fun thing growing up. A failed marriage from consisting of an abusive asshole but from which I bore 2 beautiful boys my only reason for continuing anyway. Then there were three years of bliss remarried to an angel he adopted my children and treated like a queen when I was so damaged I so angry and controlling that I'm surprised he stayed but then an illness hit that affected my body for two years. We didn't know what it was until I was hospitalized for 3 weeks only to find out it was my own immune system killing me. But finally a year later my children are older my life is smoothing out and the medications are working. And then what, after all that after all the surviving and clawing my way to something close to normal and happy, a car crash?

"Are you kidding me?" I yelled standing in a place that was familiar that felt like home but I bulked at also. God in all his glory was standing in front of me. He was magnificent. I should be on my knees thanking him for everything and every breath I took but I was mad. "A car crash? Really? After all the other creative things I've had to face almost EVERYTHING a person can go through and a car accident is responsible for my death?" God looked at me shining almost to bright to bare but his visage wasn't angry at me. He nodded regally and seemed to have his I'm being patient with you because you are my child look. The wind was taken out of my sails when I thought about the kids being in the car and my husband. "What about my husband and my boys?" I asked scared of the answer.

"They are here too. There is only so much a person can take and your family couldn't take your death. There were to many other factors to allow them to stay. But they are here and they are happy." He said with a gentle smile. " Always defensive or living for others my child." I sighed. It was true. I guess no one for a long time valued my life except for my precious angel husband that it wasn't worth living for just myself. I shrugged. A dark looked swept over his face he knew all my thoughts. "Those who hurt you will be justly dealt with my daughter," he rumbled. He reminded me of a mad Optimus Prime suddenly all good but don't piss him off. He laughed reading my mind.

"So what's the deal now? We walk on into the pearlies and live happily ever after?" He looked at me with a contemplative expression.

"My child, I've watched you all your life and kept you though you have wondered at times you remained true. But I cannot give you your hearts desire as we are now and here." I was taken aback.

"But I though you could do anything!" I was floored.

He chuckled that indulgent laugh again, "I said not here and now but I can and will give you your hearts desire but I know you will find that it is not all that you wish it to be."

"And that means…?"

"Child I am not only here am I?"

"No You're everywhere," I answered automatically. I knew the answer to this pop quiz question.

"But do you know where everywhere is?" I looked at him. I knew there was some type of intonation I was missing.

"Um no?"

"Let me tell you this. There are times I let some of my creations view other timelines, worlds, dimensions as all outcomes are possible however I guide every single one. You are almost preoccupied at times with the glimpses that people have taken from another reality similar to your own however with a large difference." He stopped talking and the light bulb went on in my head.

"Transformers?"

"I am many things child I have many names and Primus is one of them."

"OH MY…well lets not go there…uh since You're already here," I blushed.

He gave me a stern look, "Yes child that would have not been to your benefit." But his slightly amused and indulgent look crossed his face again with a slight twinge of regret, "You feel your life would have been better in the hands of Optimus Prime rather than those parents you were birthed too?"

"Well duh,…I mean yes…sir?" He chuckled again.

"I will give you your hearts desire child and do not worry about your family for they will not even know you were gone. Time is different here as there is none. Once you return, which is not a common occurrence. This is your heaven or so you think. I will allow you to experience this I will steer your path as I always have and I will allow you to retain your memories of your current life so that you can appreciate your life before and the gifts this will grant you also. Your memory will be fuzzy for a while and you will be a child again. Be that child you wanted to be and accept their love they give you although it might be alien to you." I nodded. "I send you now in the form of a sparkling. You will be the first in a long time. I have already guided my child Optimus Prime to ready him for your arrival. He knows not much but that he must be ready."

"Just a question, Um why couldn't we get some kinda Optimus Prime in our world? A cool nice guy who could talk to you?" HE laughed actually almost guffawed.

"Because my daughter you had my Only Son. The Transformers are not ready yet. They will be but there life times are so long that I have not decreed my Only Son to fulfill his bridge to them yet. The War must cease first and that is coming to an end soon. Now you will not be able to speak to another about this or about your passed life. But you secret will be shared in a spark bond if you find a mech." And with a wave of his hand the world was suddenly dark.