I went into a small clothing room that my computer built quite some time ago, although I wear the same uniform I never wear the same one twice. I should ditch the uniform though…

When I came out the cool air hit my green skin and I breathed in. I was a bit shaken at what that stupid human said.

There's nothing dirty about making love.

Why must he say such things all the time to Zim? It was rather confusing sometimes even though I knew he didn't mean them, deep down in this defective heart I had the misfortune to own…I wish he did mean all the things he said.

No matter how much I said the human was mine, I knew that really, I was undoubtedly his…fate was a twisted thing wasn't it?

I decided to sit in my large computer chair and just chill I suppose. Zim had a new habit and that was sitting in this big black chair and hugging my knees. Perhaps, I should let the human go…No! It was dangerous out there and I couldn't afford to lose my last piece of sanity or my last piece of happiness. Demented happiness for the demented hearted.

I sighed and soon after so did my computer.

"This is stupid. How many times you going to do this?" The technology groaned.

"Zim did not ask for your opinion." I groaned back.

"It's not an opinion, it's a complaint. I've never see so much nudity since I was programmed…"

"Oh shut up…" I grunted. "Zim does not care about your problems, he has his own."

"You can fix yours, I'm cursed as long as that human keeps attacking you, why don't you kick him out!" the computer suggested.

"Zim doesn't know what you're talking about, hush up and sleep or something, Zim is trying to think!" I said as I shoved my face between my knees.

"I'll just tell him you love him and we'll-" the computer was cut off, by me of course.

"Zim feels no such thing!" I hissed.

"Why so defensive?"

"you accuse Zim, that's why!" I kicked the dashboard.

"Ow…" the computer said sarcastically.

I just hmphed. Satisfied.

After some time of silence I decided to make my computer useful.

"Why does Zim want to be with the Dib human…?" I asked in a quiet voice.

The computer sighed. "I don't know, you've known each other for a while?"

"Is it because Zim is defective?"

"Probably."

"What about the Dib?" I looked up at the blank screen to see my reflection. Sad little Zim sitting in a sad little posture.

"Uh, I'm not a mind reader!" The computer yelled at me.

"Guess! You seem to know what Zim is thinking!" I yelled back.

"Urgh! He seems confused…he probably likes you or whatever but human are complicated!"

"Humans are stuuuupid…" I whined and got off the chair to walk away.

"Sure, whatever." The computer drowned.

I went upstairs to make food and found Gir already making something.

"Hiya mastah!" He said loudly and excitedly. I gave him a small wave and examined the mess he was creating.

"What are you making Gir?" I asked in disappoint, this stuff was yellowish, a very unnatural yellow might I add.

"Noodle cheese!" the robot squeed.

"Riiight…" I said as I sat at the table.

These mood swings, alone or with the human, were becoming quite annoying. Zim should maybe find a way to release the tension, but I had no idea what was between us that made us so…

"Hey gir." The human came walking in.

"Hiiii, Dib."

Gir stopped called Dib big headed boy since he spazed at him last time.

"Is that kraft dinner?" Dib asked with excitement.

"Mmmhmm!" Gir answered with joy. I just groaned at the table…to maybe get some attention over here.

After a few seconds I felt arms around my neck from the back. I jumped instantly.

"Dib!" I screamed. This was not the attention I wanted.

"What?" the human laughed, clearly amused by my reaction.

"Do not touch the Zim!" I growled and in a second the contact was gone and the human was on his way to the other side of the table.

I watched as he stared at me until he finally spoke.

"Do you really want to have sex with me?' He asked in a confused voice.

I growled and looked away from him. "Is that all you think about!"

"No…" Dib said slowly.

I just rolled my eyes and shook my head. I wasn't in the mood…

"Fine, maybe I do, so what?" Dib said, offended.

I shrugged my shoulders, talking would just fuel the fire.

We sat there and Gir gave us that yellow stuff and we ate, after some time Dib spoke.

"I'll stop touching you." He muttered and I looked at him. He looked serious so I nodded.

When Dib headed to his room to sleep, I followed him. The human was surprised to see me at the door.

"Do you still need me to sleep with you?" I asked. Dib stared at the floor before for he looked up at me and nodded.

I turned off the light and headed to the bed. We both crawled and lay with our backs facing towards each other. We said our goodnights and Dib was passed out minutes and soon after, so was I.

The rest of the week or so droned on and at one point my computer announced its great joy for our lack of intimacy. We both blushed and shrugged it off. Every now and then we'd talk about random stuff, like ordering pizza or if we wanted to watch tv together. We still slept together and kept our distance.

And the more we did the more I didn't want to and the more Dib seemed to twitch. Every time he saw me, I saw his eyes do this weird flicker. I don't know what it was and the more I saw it the more tempted I was to ask about it.

"Dib, when will you want to get new clothes?" I asked at my work desk in my main lab. Dib chilled in there now with me. Sometimes I wonder if was just to watch me but it never felt creepy. Through this distance we've made, I felt like we're also making a connection. Why were we so messed up?

I watched Dib shrug and come to sit on the stool next to me. "I never go out so why bother?" he said distractedly since he was playing with a tube full of liquid.

"Watch it human, that could kill you." I warned him as I zapped a few wires back to life. Making inventions were my pass time, a hobby I called it.

"Scary…" Dib put it down and I looked at him, noticing, he looked at me.

"What?" I asked.

"You started staring first alien." He pointed out and I pouted a bit.

"Cheer up Dibby." I told him.

Dib went tense and looked at me wide eyed. I gave him a worried look and sighed, turned on my stool. My whole body facing his.

"you know, I said I'd fix you…but I kinda forgot…how are you feeling, you look kind of down?" I said to him, and he seemed confused again then he looked away.

"You…forgot?" I could hear the pain in his voice, making me jump.

"Well, no! Zim just got distracted…" I looked at my gloves and back to Dib. "Are you ok, Dib human?"

Suddenly Dib's face scrunched up and it was the look he always made before-

"Dib!" I gasped and the tears flowed from the human's eyes. As I expected. This was the third time this week…

Dib wiped his eyes and bit his lip. I moved closer to the now crying human boy and rubbed his back.

"W-W-Why?" Dib asked.

"Why what?" I asked calmly.

"…Gaz…Dad…they never came once! Why didn't they come look for me!" Dib began to sob uncontrollably. My eyes went wide, how long as it been? Months?

Dib threw his head into his arms folded on the table. "Why didn't they come get me!"

Last time, Dib cried about the bullies at school and once about being ugly, which was very unexpected. I had to tell him how attractive he really was and that was harder than I thought it would be.

"That's why you are here Dib. Zim cares." I said as I pressed the side of my face against the table.

"Do you have any idea what it feels like to have your family hate you!" the human sobbed angrily and I huffed.

"As a matter of fact, I do. My tallest hated me this whole damn time! And yes, Zim knows of rejection so can you just believe me when I say I care! It's not the easiest thing to say for Zim!" I said as I poked the human.

Dib lifted his face from his arms and looked at me through his watery eyes. "Why do your leaders…hate you?"

I gave Dib a worried look. "Zim…failed to take over earth."

"Right, and whose fault is that? Mine. So why do you 'care'? I ruined your life didn't I?" Dib questioned me and I sat up straight again.

"I…never saw it that way…" I should have been pissed, kicked the human out immediately but I had no intention of doing that. "This would explain why I'm defective…" I mused. I was used to the label.

But apparently, Dib wasn't since he looked at me weird.

"What do you mean?" he asked, the side of his head resting on his arms with his dry tears. The human seemed interested now.

I gave him an unsure look. "Well, I'm considered a defect to my society due to my constant mistakes and failures…also, I have emotions that no other irken should have."

"Like?"

"Urm…caring?" I gave Dib a nervous smile.

"I guess you and Gir are all I have left…" Dib sighed.

"That's right, Dib-boy, now let's go make food, Zim is starving." I patted the human on the back and hopped off my seat.

"Yeah, I've known you for how long now?" Dib turned around to look me and I thought for a minute.

"Approximately…6 years." I said with a nod.

Dib shook his head and chuckled. "And you never once tried to probe me." He said as he hopped off his seat too.

I narrowed my eyes at him and waved my hand dismissively at him. "Too much of an honour for you."

"And here I thought you cared." Dib chuckled as he elbowed me.

"Caring and experimenting are very different things human." I pointed out.

"Make Zim spaghetti again!" I ran after him to get to the elevator.

"Naww, I'll make…stir fry this time. I found a good recipe." Dib sighed, this time in happiness.

"Do you like this cooking activity?" I asked as the doors opened and we stepped in.

"What else can I do." Dib shrugged his shoulders.

I pressed my finger to my lips in consecration. "But it makes you…happy, yes?"

"Yeah, for the most part." Dib said.

"Ok." I said back with a smile.