*Updates chapter and then runs away because she's ashamed of the long hiatus*

Something Like it

Chapter Fourteen

"Hey." Leah responded to Jacob after what felt like a lifetime.

Jacob turned completely to Leah, revealing the small baby in his arms. Leah almost gasped at the sight of her little Harry. He had thin, black hair and was as dark as Jacob. He wore a small, blue pajama she remembers buying over in Chicago.

Leah closed the door behind her and started walking towards Jake and the baby, her eyes only on Harry. When she looked down he could see him start making a fuss, moving his little arms and legs, as if he sensed her there.

There he is; my kid… my very own kid.

She couldn't believe she had actually given birth to the small human in Jacob's arms. Before she could help herself she felt tears at the back of her eyes. Leah couldn't believe she would be one of those Moms that she'd make fun of who cried incessantly when they would see their newborn baby. She never understood why they would cry and actually thought they were kind of stupid. But now, she definitely knows why.

She's actually got the chance to be a mom. A chance she thought was forever stolen from her when she became a wolf.

"Here, take him." Jacob whispered. He must have seen the tears falling down her face but she didn't care. Leah was taking in this moment. He put the baby in her hands and for the first time Leah felt the weight of her own child in her arms. She leaned him against her and saw Harry open his eyes slightly to look up at her. He had dark eyes, like her and dare she say he was the most beautiful thing she ever encountered.

Leah suddenly had a complete feeling in her heart. It was like finally finding her reason to be in this world. This little baby in her arms had finally given to her something she's longed for a long time… a purpose.

"How could you love someone so much you just met?" Leah whispered, more to herself than anybody.

"I keep asking myself the same thing." She heard Jacob whisper back to her as she looked up at him. He had the same look of complete and utter amazement in his eyes and she remembers that Jacob and she were on the same boat; two teenagers, first-time parents, carrying their first baby in their arms.

Their eyes locked and soon enough Jake's glance turned a little bit more serious until it became narrow. Jake straightened his head up and crossed him arms in front of his chest. Leah knew exactly what was coming; the inevitable conversation.

"Were you ever going to tell me?" Leah heard him whisper harshly. She looked down at Harry in her arms, sighing. So many times she's pictured this conversation in her head, how it would go and right now she didn't know what to say.

"Leah." Jacob said a little louder. She walked around him rocking Harry in her arms, he was a little calmer now but he was starting to cry again. She sat down in the bed and for the first time noticed the cradle that she built beside it. They must have brought it from Chicago, too.

"Damn it Leah answer me! I deserve an answer!" Jacob exclaimed startling her. They locked eyes again and this time Jake was breathing hard, his chest was heaving rapidly, Leah knew he was starting to get pissed off. Harry started crying, loud this time, as if sensing the tension in the room. Leah tried shushing him and noticed that Jake took a deep intake of breath and started pacing, trying to calm himself down. Right then, a thought occurred to Leah and she slowly started unbuttoning her dress on one hand.

"What are you doing?" Jake asked as he stopped pacing.

"Down, boy, I think the baby's hungry." Leah answered while opening up the top half of her dress and about to put her tit on Harry's mouth.

"Leah, could you warn me before you do that!?" Jacob quickly turned around, his back to her.

"Come on, Jake, it's not like you haven't seen it before. May I remind you that that's how Harry's even here?" Leah heard Jacob scoff while Harry started feeding from her. The sensation was unreal as she felt his baby lips sucking her breast, very hard, might she had.

"Looks like Harry's got your appetite." Leah said, trying to lighten the mood but Jacob's mood wasn't about to change. She could see how tense his back was.

After a few long seconds passed, Leah sighed, and decided to be completely honest.

"No, Jake." Jake's head turned to the side as he heard her answer.

"I wasn't planning on ever telling you. I left La Push and I was never coming back." Jacob turned around completely to face her, his eyes staring at her own with anger.

"You mean to tell me that you would've run away with my kid and never even tell ME but you were able to tell Edward!?"

"I didn't mean to tell Edward, He read my mind!"

"I shouldn't have to read your mind to know Leah. You should've told me! Why in the hell would you just leave like that!?"

"Really, Jake, you're asking me that!?"

"Of course I am Leah! I think it's a very logical question which I have a right to an answer!" Leah saw Jake start pacing again. She was surprised how pissed off he was getting, she could even start to see his hands slightly shake like when he's about to phase. She decided not to keep raising her voice, to see if he would calm down.

"Relax, Jake. Look, I was never going to tell you because… of Renesmee." Leah said softly.

"Nessie? What the hell does Nessie have to do with any of this!? Did Edward say something to you?!"

"No of course not Jake."

Leah said noticing Jake's voice was still raised and he wasn't getting any calmer.

"I'm not going to keep talking with you unless you calm down." Leah said firmly. Jake glanced down at his hands and saw their slight shaking. He glanced at Harry, still sucking lightly on Leah's breast and took a deep breath. It seems he noticed the danger, like Leah did, with Harry there. After a few calming breaths, Jake stopped pacing and looked at Leah.

"Okay, I'm fine. Now, what does Nessie have to do with this?"

"Jake, Renesmee is your imprinted. She's your soul mate, the person which you will dedicate your life to now. I couldn't stay here and let my son go through what I went through. I wasn't going to let my son get rejected by his own Dad."

"What are you talking about?"

"There will come a time, when Nessie is of a certain age, that you'll want to be with her. You'll want to ALWAYS be with her. You'll want to marry her, have kids with her and everything else is going to be in the background. And I'm not going to let Harry be one of them!"

"Is that what you based your leaving on? On a choice I hadn't even made? Leah, you can't blame me for something I haven't even done yet; something I can't control."

"That's exactly it, Jake. You can't control it but it will happen. I know, because I've seen it a dozen times and I've been on the wrong end of it when it happens. And Harry doesn't deserve that and I won't let him go through it." Leah's voice shook at the end of that sentence. As she felt familiar feelings sneak up on her. Even though, she's well over Sam, the memories of being hurt by him are never going away. That will always be there. And that kind of hurt is the hurt she wants to spare her son.

"I don't want him to feel… unwanted. It's the worst feeling in the world and I want to spare my son that." Leah whispered as she closed up her top and walked over to the crib and laid down Harry inside it. She felt Jacob take her arm making her turn around and look at him.

"I am not Sam." Jacob said, slowly and clearly, as if wanting the message to sink in.

"I never will be. And I'm not the kind of guy to just walk away from my responsibilities." Leah scoffed.

"Says the guy that didn't want to be Alpha to his own tribe."

"Hey, I am now."

"Yeah because you finally grew a pair."

"And when the moment comes I'll grow a… bigger… pair." Leah couldn't help but laugh and she saw Jake smile. The mood momentarily lightened.

"Lee-lee, I promise you. You are not going to be alone in this. No matter what happens with me and Nessie, I'm not going to leave you or Harry alone." Jake's eyes softened and he took both of Leah's arms.

"Don't make promises you can't keep, Jake." Leah whispered and Jake's hands tightened on her arms.

"You have my word." Jake whispered, accentuating every word.

"Okay, then I want you to know that the moment you break your promise, I'm not going to remind you of it. You'll know… because both Harry and I are going to be gone. And that time… we're not coming back."

Jake let go of Leah's arms, slight surprise in his face. And then his face became serious and he stretched out his hand in front of Leah for a handshake.

"Deal." It was Leah's turn to be surprised. She looked down at Jacob's outstretched hand and knew that the moment she shook it, her whole life was going to change forever. Now if it was going to change for better or worse… she didn't know. She also didn't know if to take a chance on Jacob's word. Leah knew that in the end, if the deal goes wrong, the one who will be broken (again) will be her. Nevertheless, she took the chance… she took the chance for Harry.

"Deal." Leah shook Jake's hand softly.

"So, I guess this makes us a family now?" Jake asked with a small smile in his face.

"I… guess it does." Leah sighed.

"The Black Family."

"Don't push it." Jacob laughed but it was interrupted by the sound of the door opening.

"Finally, you're awake!" Sue Clearwater exclaimed as she almost ran toward Leah and embraced her tightly. Leah felt her mom crying in her ear, it wasn't uncontrollable sobbing (her mom wasn't the type) but she could feel the drops of her tears on the side of her face and on her shoulder. Leah returned the embrace just as warmly and tightly and couldn't help but let the tears run down her face freely. Leah was not at all ashamed to admit that she missed her Mom.

"I'll leave you two to it." Leah heard Jacob whisper as he softly left the room. Leah opened her eyes and looked over her Mom's shoulder and Leah and Jake locked eyes one final time. In his face was a look she couldn't decipher, almost one as if he hadn't said all he wanted to say; that the conversation wasn't necessarily over.

But Leah couldn't think too much on it because Jacob quickly looked away and shut the door.

TBC

Review? What did you think of Jake and Leah's confrontation?

This was the hardest chapter ever, I wrote and rewrote it a million times and I was never fully satisified with it, part of the reason the hiatus was so long. I hope people are still interested in this story :)