A/N In my last fanfic i did a type of flash back and i asked if people wanted to read an extended (better) version of it. So here it is.

I hope you like it.

AJ

The moon sat high in the sky and the snow sat freshly laid on the ground. Up in a window of a tall building stood a blonde woman with deep blue eyes. This woman had everything she could ever want…well almost everything. She had a beautiful 3 month old baby boy, a job she loved most of the time and a group of colleagues she saw as family, but there was one thing the woman didn't have that up until 5 months ago she did. A man. She thought he was a good guy, she loved him and she thought he loved her and their unborn baby. Until one day she came home from work and he was gone, his cloths were gone and on their bed was a note saying 'I can't be a father, I'm not ready'. There was no 'I'm sorry' or 'I will come back when I'm ready'. He had just gone and hadn't been heard of since. She didn't understand why he had left. He had taken the news of a baby better than she had. Him up and leaving had caused so much stress she went into early labor. The baby was small but healthy but she hated him for causing it to happen.

The blonde woman stood looking out her window at the freshly laid snow and hugged the framed picture of her baby she had in her arms. She wasn't likely to admit it to anyone but she was scared. She didn't want raise her baby on her own and she didn't want to spend the holidays in her house alone either.
Her phone rang pulling her out of her thoughts.
"Agent Jareau" The blonde said wiping the tears away that had fallen
"Hey JJ its Hotch. The team want to know if there is anything else that has to be filled out before they go home and have you got you're final report for the Florida case? "
"Erm…" JJ sniffed trying to pull herself together "Yeah I'll bring it to you now."
"JJ" Hearing JJ sniff down the phone Hotch grew concerned "Are you ok?"
"Yeah I'm fine. I'll be there in a few seconds"
"Ok. Were all in the Bullpen"
"Ok" With that said JJ snapped the phone closed and tucked it into her pocket. She took one last glance out the window, sighed, and grabbed the files that were needed then walked out her office.

The team were sat in the Bullpen waiting for JJ, so she could give them the all clear so they could go home for the Christmas holidays. Morgan and Garcia were going to spend the holiday in Chicago with Morgan's mum and sisters. While Hotch, Rossi, Reid and JJ were going to spend the morning at home and go to Rossi's home for dinner. The team were sat around chatting about what they were going to get up to over the holidays when JJ walked in. Being the last ones in the office the team knew that the only person going to walk through the door would be JJ.
They all stopped talking and grew concerned for their friend, her eyes were red and puffy from obviously crying and she had missed wiping a stray tear that was on the bottom of her cheek.
She walked over to Hotch who was stood by Reid's desk not making eye contact with anyone.
"Here's the report" JJ reached out the file for Hotch to take "and the rest of you are finished, so you can go home."
JJ waited a few more seconds for Hotch to take the file from her hand, when he didn't she glanced up at him and could tell he was about to say something she knew she didn't want to hear right now. So JJ put the file on the corner of Reid's desk and went to make a sharp exit out the room.
"Have a good Christmas everyone." She said turning around. JJ was stopped when a hand wrapped round her tiny arm.
"JJ are you ok?" Morgan asked looking overly worried and the rest of the team took a cautious step towards JJ.
"I'm fine" JJ said pulling her arm away.
"JJ" Morgan wiped the stray tear from JJ's cheek with his thumb "What's going on princess"
"God! I hate working with profilers sometimes." JJ snapped and regretted it straight away. She knew it wasn't their fault for the way she was feeling but she couldn't stop it from coming out.
"Jayje you've been acting off since we got back from Florida, what's wrong?" Emily could see the tears filling her eyes.
"Nothings wrong! I'm going home. Merry Christmas." Before anyone could stop her JJ practically ran out the room.
Garcia went to go after JJ but Morgan stopped her and shook his head.
"What was that all about?" Reid asked looking at the spot JJ was just standing in.
"I'm not sure." Rossi said joining Reid. Emily turned round to face the worried group of people.
"I think I know what's wrong."

It was 24th December at around 1pm and JJ was sat on her couch with Henry asleep in her arms watching the last credits of her favorite Christmas movie 'Miracle on 34th street'. When the credits stopped JJ looked down at the baby in her arms. He was no longer asleep but was staring up at her with his big blue eyes.
"Hello sleepy head. How was your nap?" JJ asked Henry tickling his tummy. He replied with a little giggle and a gurgle. JJ nodded her head like she understood him.
"Teddy bears and bunny rabbets? Wow" Henry let out another giggle and grabbed for a few stray strands of JJ's hair. She let out a small 'ouch' when he pulled and released her hair from his tiny little fist.
"That's naughty; I thought we agreed you only do that to Auntie Pen?" JJ kissed Henry on his head and when to get up as the timer on the oven beeped.
"The cookies are ready!" She lay Henry down in his travel cot "Maybe next year you'll be big enough to decorate them" Henry smiled up at him mum and she walked into the kitchen.

Once JJ pulled the cookies out the oven and sat them on the cooling rack she want back to check on Henry. She peeped over the side of the cot and sighed in relief as the baby was fast asleep again. That meant she could get on with the things she needed to do to get ready for Christmas day.
JJ spent the next few hours listening to quite Christmas carols and doing the normal things that needed doing round the house like the laundry and cleaning bottles as well as wrapping the rest of Henrys Christmas presents and baking a cake for Rossi's Christmas dinner. Just as she was about to start wrapping the presents for Jack and the team a screech came from Henrys cot. JJ got up from the floor where she was sat and sprinted over to Henry. She reached over to pick him up and her heart broke at the sight before her. Henry was crying hysterically, was as white as a sheet and had tears running down his cheeks. JJ scooped the small bundle into her arms.
"Shhh shhh its ok baby, mummies got you. It was just a dream." JJ gently rocked him as she sat on the couch. Henrys cries stopped after a few more minutes "That wasn't such a good dream was it big guy." Henry just sniffed and put his thumb in his mouth.

When 6 o'clock came JJ put Henry in the bath and got him ready for bed. An hour later JJ had Henry in one arm in his new Christmas baby grow from Garcia and his warm bottle in hr other hand. She walked into the nursery and over to the book shelf. She ran her finger over the spines of the books till she found the one she wanted. JJ pulled it off the shelf and walked over to the rocking chair that was stood next to the window. She made her self comfy, then Henry. JJ pulled Henrys thumb out of his mouth and placed the bottle there before she opened the first page of the book.
"Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse." JJ stopped reading suddenly when the sound of someone knocking at the front door filled the house. JJ looked down at her innocent baby; he looked as confused as she did. "Who the…" There was another loud knock at the door.

JJ walked out the nursery and down the stairs. She reached the bottom step and put Henrys now empty bottle down on the table. JJ looked down at him he had this thumb back in his mouth and his other hand was holding on tight to his little blanket. There was another knock at the door. "OK! Ok I'm coming!".

OHHH who could be at the door? i wonder?

Please let me now what you think. It gets lot better trust me, but i will only get someone to Beta it, if people want to read more and i will keep writing if people want to see more. if i get enough reviews the next chapter should be up in a couple of days.

Let me know lovely people.

AJ x