Well, here is another story for you. Angst warning! Heavy angst coming! You will need kleenix!

This was my offering for the 2011 Fall LuRe Big Bang. A video was created to go along with this story and I put together a fanmix as well.

The video is on youtube; just take out the spaces out of the address. www . youtube . com / watch ? v = tdMDZo9lF9I

Going here will take you to my fanmix. I had never done one before and I think it turned out ok. Just take the spaces out of the address.

ditzybea . livejournal . com / 11861 . html

Enjoy!

Prologue
How did this happen?

"Where were you last night?" Luke asked as he went through the stack of mail on their kitchen table. His husband had just come in and Luke was already jumping all over him.

Reid hadn't come home again last night; that made three nights this week. He had been promoted to Chief of Staff nearly four years ago. Almost as long as they had been married. At first it was easy, his workload tripled, but they were expecting that. This was Reid's dream job and they knew that things were going to get tough for them, but they were making it work. There were many of nights that they shared dinner in Reid's office or lunches spent in the cafeteria or Al's. Luke would bring him his latte and bagel in the morning when Reid had to work the night shift. Just seeing the blonde would bring a smile to his face and Casey was the first to razz Reid when he got that dreamy look on his face.

They used to text each other during lulls in their respective days. Reid grew to love that slight buzz that his phone would give off to signal that he had gotten a message from Luke. At times he would lose his chain of thought when he felt that buzz. Many a conversation had been interrupted by Reid's Blackberry. Luke would send him a fluffy or sexy text and frazzle Reid for a few moments. He would send back a snarky response or twist it into something wholly inappropriate. He just knew Luke would roll his eyes, laugh out loud, or blush profusely; the latter was Reid personal favorite.

Eventually, Reid started to miss family functions. He had an extremely important job and Luke knew that, but that didn't mean that it didn't hurt when he never came. Luke would make sure he brought home leftovers from Emma's kitchen, which Reid ate right up. Luke fussed at first, letting Reid know he was disappointed; especially when Reid missed Ethan's birthday. Luke had to see that look of hurt in his baby brother's eyes. It felt like a knife twisting in his stomach.

Slowly the text messages and the lunches dried up, at first they both noticed, but then they were both busy with their individual lives. Luke had sold Grimaldi Shipping to a distant cousin and rolled over the profits into his foundation. He would fly off to New York, Chicago, or Los Angeles to pursue donors or sponsor events. Helping others were big parts of their lives and they gave into it. Both of them figured that they would have time. There was always tomorrow. But tomorrow came with more of the same.

"Are you going to answer me?" Luke demanded as Reid dipped his head into the fridge to find something to eat.

"Luke, I'm tired. I didn't sleep well last night. I came home for something to eat and shower before I go back to the hospital," he said in an exhausted voice and looked at his watch. It was almost six pm; he had been at the hospital for almost 36 straight hours.

"You don't even remember, do you?"

"What?"

"Ethan's play is tonight. You missed his last birthday and you promised him that you would be there tonight to make up for it. He has been counting on this for two weeks. He's playing Jack in "Jack and the Beanstalk". You know, sometimes I wonder…,"

"What? Finish your sentence!" Reid was getting just as upset as Luke was. He was a doctor and ran not only the most advanced neuro facility in the United States, but its hospital as well. He couldn't just drop everything because one of Luke's family members has something going on. If he did that, he would never be at work.

"Sometimes I wonder why we even got married," he said it. He had been secretly thinking it for months, but it hurt whenever it entered his head.

"What did you say?" Reid asked; the shock evident in his voice.

"We're apart more than we are together!"

"That goes both ways Luke. You fly out of town on business at least once a week. Sometimes I don't know it until I get a message from you or your secretary,"

"I would give all it up if you asked me to," Luke said and he knew what was now hanging in the air. Reid didn't respond. Being a doctor had been his dream since he was a small boy and now that he had his dream job, he didn't want to give it up. Another thought was coming into his head as he looked at his husband and seeing the tears in his eyes. He knew this was going to happen eventually. Luke would see Reid for who he really was and see that it wasn't enough.

"Why didyoumarry me then? You knew this coming in!" Reid spoke in a rush of anger; not really meaning to ask it. Luke could feel himself shaking and he was sick to his stomach. He was realizing something and his body was reacting to it.

"So, that's it? There's nothing I can say, nothing at all," Luke asked in a ghost of his normal voice.

"No," Reid forced out. He watched the realization of his words flow over Luke and his face. His eyes darkened, his shoulders slumped, and then his head dropped; taking his gaze from Reid.

"Ok. Fine," Luke said in a soft voice and turned to go upstairs.

Wait,hewasgivingup?Lukenevergaveup.

"So that's it?" Reid was angry now and he was not sure why. He heard an almost tired laugh come out of Luke before he turned to face him. What Reid saw on his face nearly destroyed him. Seeing Luke hurting was always the hardest thing that he ever had to endure. Luke wasn't even trying to hide the tears. Reid watched as two more fell down Luke's face before he spoke to him.

"Well, to hear you tell it, there's no point. Nothing I can say remember," Luke sniffed back slightly and turned to go back upstairs to their bedroom, well, their now former bedroom. He wanted Reid to stop him. Make him stay, but his husband let him down again. They had been pulling away from each other for so long; they were in two different time zones now.

He stepped across the threshold and saw the room the same way they left it this morning. Luke left a towel hanging over the storage bench at the end of the bed. Reid had folded his sleep clothes and they sat at the end of the bed. It seemed like they had separate sides of the room. As if someone had drawn a line down the middle. Luke could see that his "side" was messy and disorganized while Reid's was straightened within an inch of its life. They really were different. Luke always knew that, but to see it. It was like the shade had been pulled back and he was really seeing their relationship for what it really was.

Luke grabbed a bag out of the closet and started to pack his clothes. He grabbed a few things that he knew he was going to need. He could always come back for the rest. The rest. That made it all sound so final. Luke figured that it really was now. He was about to leave the room when he looked over his shoulder. He walked to the bed, bent down, and picked up the bath towel. He slowly folded it and hung it back up on the towel rod in the bathroom.

He walked down the stairs and saw Reid sitting in at the kitchen island with his back facing the stairs. Reid was absently stirring at a bowl of cereal in front of him. He didn't want to do this. He never wanted to do this. When he and Reid married he thought that was it. There wouldn't be anyone else. He never thought that this would happen to him; after everything that he had to go through with his parents. He put his bags down by the door and went to grab his messenger bag off the kitchen table. He passed Reid and picked up his bag. He walked past the older man and stopped halfway to the door. He had been carrying an envelope in his bag for the last two weeks. He had gone to see Tom Hughes and told him to wait until he could talk to Reid. He never found a time or maybe he hoped that he wouldn't have to. But he was wrong.

Luke slipped his hand into the front pocket of his bag and pulled out the envelope. He held it for a second and felt his heart break. He set the manila envelope next to Reid and stepped away towards the door. Reid glanced down and he knew what it was. He felt his stomach burn and ache. He couldn't believe that this was happening to them. He didn't know what to say or do. Something so small and unnoticeable held something so powerful.

Luke looked at his husband's back one more time and went to get his bag. The sappy romantic in him was hoping that Reid would fight for him. Grab him, kiss him, and carry him up to their bedroom. But none of those things happened. He didn't look or say anything to him. Luke took one more breath, picked up his bags, and walked through the door.

Reid heard his husband let out a breath, but when he turned to say something, he saw the door softly close.

He never thought that they would end this way.

Well, whatta think?

Next time on Reconstruction - Reid has a weird awaking.

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