Notes: Merry christmas everyone! Forgot about me already? Yeah, I know I deserve it, but it's been really a crazy couple of weeks. But, for your eye's safety, I got myself an awesome beta that fixed all my mistakes so, I hope, this last chapter is better than the others. I begun this as a diehard kaine fan, but now...I gave in to the dark side, I know, but seblaine has taken over everything. I think I'll take the risk and write something more about Sebastian, we'll see.

Special thanks to blueandhazeleyes who offered to be my beta and helped me soooo much! And for Moreplease, who reviewed chapter 2 and it's on board for some seblaine!

Also, remember the song by Freddie Stroma, listen to it, it's awesome. And thanks a lot to everyone that read (even if you didn't review, what I would have liked a lot) I hope you enjoy the end.


Don't give me hope if there's nothing to this
Don't let me in if you're not there
What I'm feeling doesn't happen every day
So baby please play me fair


¨Your first time.¨

Blaine raises an eyebrow at Kurt and shoots him a warning look.

"Stop it, Kurt. You know this game is not going to end well."

Kurt shakes his head and sits beside him on the edge of the bed.

"It's the last question. Just this one, and the game is over. Please?"

"Do you really want to know?" Blaine asks, sighing.

No.

"Yes." Kurt answers, smiling slightly. "Come on, I'm all ears."

Blaine takes a deep breath and falls back onto the matress, closing his eyes.

"It was the first and last time that I ever had sex. I had changed a lot, but I changed even more after that.

He remembers it like it was yesterday. He remembers the soft touches and the bruising kisses and the whispers and the moans. He remembers everything, though sometimes he wishes he didn't.

"Are you really sure you've never kissed anyone before?"

Blaine smiles slightly and nods, his eyes focused on the boy on top of him.

"I don't believe you. C'mon Anderson, it's impossible to be this good with no practice..."

"Oh, I've practiced" Blaine cuts him, hislips curving into a knowing smile.

Sebastian laughs slightly, his eyes sparkling with pride and something Blaine could swear looks a lot like joy.

"Yes you have" and he kisses him, slow and soft and sweet, hand sliding up and down his body as their legs interwind.

Blaine knows he's not the only one with whom Sebastian does this. He knows because Sebastian goes out almost every friday and comes back on saturday morning wearing the same clothes from the night before and smelling of alcohol and tobacco and sweat.

He doesn't mind. Of course not.

He does.

Sebastian's hand slides under his shirt, travelling downward.

"Wait" Blaine murmurs, pulling away from the kiss, beathing heavilly "I...I think, this...we're..."

"Too fast?" Sebastian asks, arching an eyebrow and staring at him with a grin.

"We're going too fast" Blaine nods and bites his lower lip "I don't think I'm..."

-You are. You weren't five months ago but you are now.-

Blaine pulls himself up, resting on his elbows as he stares at Sebastian, unconvinced.

"What makes you so sure?"

Sebastian rolls off Blaine and falls on the matress next to him, facing the ceiling.

"Five months ago you didn't know how awesome you were. Now..."his lips curl into a smile as his mind seems to wonder someplace else "Now you're here, in this bed, with me. You've changed."

"I'm still the same guy." Blaine objects, gazing at him.

Sebastian shakes his head, smile never leaving his lips.

"No you're not. You used to be just some guy who didn't have the guts to fight back. And now...now you're Blaine Anderson. And no one stands a chance against Blaine Anderson, you know? You're that guy."

It takes a minute for Blaine to process what Sebastian has just said.

He hadn't thougth about that, but it's actually been a long time since the last time he was scared. Here, at Dalton, with the Warblers, he feels strong, he feels powerful. And here, in this room, with Sebastian, he feels invincible. He knows he's not the same guy he once was. Because a guy like Sebastian wouldn't waste his time on a guy that runs and hides. But he did waste his time on him, and now he's here.

"That's all thanks to you, you know? You changed me" he says finally, with a small smile.

Sebastian shakes his head with a smirk.

"Dalton and the Warblers changed you. I just helped you open up and let them in."

Sebastian never talks like this. Voice soft and bright sea green eyes focused on Blaine. Sebastian is always rough and dirty and teasing. But this is something entirely different. Blaine thinks that this is the first and probably the last time that he's going to see Sebastian like this.

"I love you" he whispers, suddenly, and it surprises even him.

"Don't say that" Sebastian closes his eyes and sighs "You know nothing about love."

"But I..."

Sebastian kisses him before he can continue, and the kiss is too deep and too demanding for Blaine to even try to stop it.

But he want's to tell him, he want's Sebastian to know. So he does the only thing he can think of that requires no talking.

The first time Blaine tries to unbuckle his belt, Sebastian almost jumps in surprise, but this is what he's wanted all along, so he let's him do.

'I'll teach you everything" he whispers to Blaine's ear, as they move together, rubbing against eachother "I`ll show you something that is way better than love."

Blaine want's to complain, but the only thing that comes out of this mouth is a strangled moan, as Sebastian's hands move up and down his torso, yanking of his shirt.

Blaine want's him to know. He want's to show him. He knows Sebastian doesn't feel the same, he knows this is never going to have a happy ending, but this is the first time in his life that he feels that something is worth risking his heart for. He knows he's stronger now. He would be able to take whatever comes next. He just needs Sebastian to know what he feels, before he looses him to someone else.

So he lets Sebastian do whatever he wants. He let's him touch him, kiss him, bite him, he lets him teach him, so he would never forget.

"You are special, Blaine. You're not like the others" Sebastian whispers, once it's over, kissing his forehead and laying on his side, facing him "They will take care of you"

The next morning, when Blaine wakes up, Sebastian is gone.

"What do you mean gone?" Kurt asks, staring at him with wide eyes.

Blaine shruggs.

"He was gone. Wes told me later that he had gotten a two years scolarship on France, so that was that."

"And did you...were you okay?" Kurt asks, suddenly more concerned by Blaine's feelings than by the fact that he had sex with another guy.

"Sebastian was right. I knew nothing about love. I had just begun loving myself, I was not ready to love someone else" his lips curve into a sad smile, and he leans a little to stare closely at Kurt "That's what I've been trying to tell you all along. Sebastian might have been my first butterflies in the stomach and my first kiss and my first time, but he was not my first love. You are."

Kurt remains silent, unable to speak. Tears begin forming behind his eyes and he has to blink several times to keep them from falling.

"I love you too" he whispers softly, trying to keep his shaky voice from betraying him "I loved you from the beginning."

Blaine smiles and leans his forehead against Kurt's.

-You will always be my first love, Kurt, and nothing can change that.-

Oh, but just imagine the possibilities.

"Are you sure they won't mind me coming with you? " Kurt asks "I did snatch you away from them."

"That's nonsense Kurt. They adore you. You were once a Warbler too, remember?"

Blaine stares at their surroundings as they walk down the halls of Dalton, unable to suppress the huge smile that plays on his lips. This place is home. He arrived here small and scared, and here he became Blaine Warbler, strong and confident and unafraid.

As much as he likes McKinley, there's nothing there for him but Kurt. But here... everything he loves is here. Out of this walls he is just another guy, but here he is big and strong and unstoppable.

He hears the Warblers before he even reaches the hallway that leads to the rehearsal room, and his pace grows faster without him even noticing.

He peaks into the room and Uptown Girl fills his ears. His smile grows bigger as he watches his former teammates dance and sing, and the memories flow through him like water.

"Woah look, they survived without you" Kurt says, winking at him.

-Of course they did -Blaine smiles, unable to look away from the figures in the room.

And then he sees him. Sebastian Smythe. He is smiling at him from the other side of the room. And suddenly Blaine's breath catches in his throat. The world stops, his heart stops beating.

¨But I will wait until you're stronger to break your heart¨

Kurt doesn't need anyone to tell him who he is. He sees the look on Blaine's eyes, and he sees the ridiculously handsome guy aproaching them and he sees the way he looks at Blaine.

He knows he lost the fight before it even started.


And it feels like there's something more

Than those crazy little crushes I've felt before

When you move in closer I can feel the rush

And now we're so close we can touch

All these possibilities

So many little possibilities

Right in front of us

Close enough to touch

And far enough to have some time to see

All this possibilities