A/N: This story is a work of fiction. This story will be very explicit at times. It is a slow build up and eventually time jumps will take place.

Now on with the story...

Ch 1 Nervous

EPOV

Man I hope I'm not going to screw up 10 years of friendship. I really want this to turn out right and it to be more; more than friendship, more than team mates and more than best friends. I am so nervous; I can tell because I am visibly shaking. Oh God, please let this turn out right.

I remember when I first moved to Forks, just a week after my parents died in a car accident. I was so scared about coming to live with my mother's best friend, Esme, and her husband Carlisle. I never got to meet Esme before the accident. She left Chicago after her then husband almost killed her and in the process killed their unborn child. Esme left him with the help of my parents and Carlisle, whom she met in the hospital, when he saved her life. Her ex-husband went to jail and nothing has been said about him since.

When Esme and Carlisle came to Chicago to help me, I was seven and both my parents were gone. Esme held me while I cried and Carlisle said that I was more than welcome to live with them. I had no other family. Esme and my mother kept contact after she and Carlisle left Chicago for Forks. I knew of Esme and Carlisle, but never had a chance to meet them. Meeting them the day after my parents died was a little weird. I didn't know them though they comforted me like they knew me for my whole life. My parents had put in their will that if they passed Esme and Carlisle were to be my guardians. We left two days after their funeral going to Forks; I was barely functioning, staying quiet and not wanting to do anything.

After moving to Forks, I didn't leave my room for a few days. I was not looking forward to going to school in this rainy little town until he moved next door. He lost his parents in a house fire, so we had that in common. I met him when Esme asked if I would like to meet the neighbors. I did not expect to meet someone who had just gone through what I did, but we hit it off well. We comforted each other in sad moments and horsed around in happy ones.

We have been friends since that day and I am so thankful that he came into my life. I didn't know it then, but things would change over the years for us. I have fallen in love with my best friend and he doesn't know it, yet. We will be starting senior year in a few weeks and I can't keep this to myself anymore. I have known for a while that I love him, but every day it just gets harder to keep from him how I really feel. This will be the best year or worst year of my life depending on how he takes the news.

We are going to the movies tonight alone; the rest of our friends backed out. I can hardly wait to tell him, but am so nervous on what his reaction will be. Either way I have to tell him. I decided to tell him after dinner and before the movie. It isn't the movie I really want to see although I will because I want to be as close to him as possible.

Looking at my clock on my dresser I see its 5:15p and will have to leave to pick him up. Here goes nothing. God, please let this not ruin us!

JPOV

Boy, am I sweating! I can't believe that my stomach is in knots so bad. I hope this goes well; I have to come clean with him, no more hiding. Oh, I feel like I'm going to throw up! Please don't pass out, please don't pass out! Whatever happens happens. I just have to be honest and see how it goes. Oh, brother!

I remember when we meet, just a few days after I moved here to Forks, he was quiet, but so was I. I just lost my parents in a house fire that I barely made it out of. I have a scar on my side with smaller ones on my back, legs and arms. I get embarrassed wearing short sleeves and shorts. He made me seem whole somehow, unlike how I felt being alone. My aunt Sue came to Texas to be with me after the fire. She was who my parents gave guardianship to if anything was to happen to them. I liked seeing her when she came to my home in Texas. She was fun to talk to and be around. When I found out we had to come to Forks instead of staying in Amarillo I was not happy. Being an only child had its ups and downs; I had a great relationship with my parents, but was missing something in my life I didn't realize until moving here.

He came over with his parents, or so I thought, it was family friends he came to live with after his parents died. It was kind of weird we both lost our parents within a day of each other. It gave us something to share that not many others knew how to feel or react to. We cried together and talked of good and bad things of our lives before our parents died. He became my best friend as I was his. We actually moved to Forks on the same day.

It's been 10 years and we are closer now than ever. We have played ball together, had each other's back in fights and double dated even, but I never could get past kissing Alice. It just didn't feel right. Alice has been a great friend even though we aren't dating anymore. She realized that what we had was only going to be friendship and told me that what I was looking for wasn't her. She opened my eyes to a few things and I didn't really think about otherwise. Like how I search for him when we are not together and constantly do the same things he does. She has and always will be a great friend to me.

When we doubled with him and Bella I felt like something was off. Alice said, "Jasper, don't feel so anxious, things will turn out." After our last double date Alice and I decided friends was best; he and Bella had stopped dating a week later and I never knew why or questioned it.

I just want this night to go as I hope. I'm just going to be honest and tell him after dinner before we go to the movie. However it turns out, I wasn't going to really miss watching a movie anyway. Oh, that is some major wishful thinking! Calm down, don't get worked up.

I'm ready though sweating like crazy. Looking at my clock on my night stand I see its 5:25p, he will be walking up any minute. Well, no more hiding!

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