I'm BACK! You miss me? So yeah, I'm posting up the first chapter far earlier than expected. The story still isn't finished! It's taking up so much damn brain power... I'm writing out the 51st page, and it's only just starting to get into the plot! (No, the story isn't dragged out, it is all necessary.) I was just so excited to post up the first chapter/prologue/time skip thingy, I couldn't help it. Because of my impatience, though, the updates won't be nearly as fast as those for Don't Let Me Go were, I'm sorry :( Limited to once a week at the very best, until I've finished the whole story. Oh, and if you don't like lemons, please do not read this story, as there will be a fair few of them :) (I swear I'm getting so much better at writing them XD) Anything else important will be put at the end of the chapter :)

Disclaimer: I do not own the number one, knuckle-headed ninja named Naruto :D

I'll Never Say

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Prologue

My heart is shattering,
I cannot breathe,
His shadow fades,
For eternity.
I love him so,
'Tis never enough,
I wish he'd love me,
It hurts so much.
Knowing what I've lost,
It's all my fault
Without his love,
My heart does halt.
I was in his arms,
What we felt was love,
But I fucked it up.

And now? Now I feel nothing.

September 14th.

Dearest diary.

I don't know what to say. My chest hurts. I feel broken, like I'm about to shatter into a thousand pieces. I feel like I've been betrayed by everyone around me. It wasn't meant to be like this! After I found out about my father… How could he have done that?

Dearest diary, I love him so much. I don't think I want to leave anymore. The idea of being without him… It's more than I can bear! To never look into his eyes again. Feel his butterfly kisses, his gentle caresses on my skin, my name on his lips when we make love… It makes me want to vomit, knowing that he'll never do that again after tonight.

Does this make me a traitor? I was never supposed to love him. He was the enemy… He is the enemy! Gods above, he was plotting to kill my best friend! And yet, whenever I'm in his arms, whenever he holds me, whenever he kisses me… I feel like I can see heaven. And I don't even know if he returns my feelings! I am so afraid that he doesn't. What if I'm merely a novelty to him? I don't want to say goodbye without telling him how I feel. But how can I say goodbye? He'll know that something is up.

Gods, all I've wanted was to go home. Now that I have the ability to, I don't want to. I want to stay here, with him, and love him. Wait for the day that he may love me in return...

I hate her. She tried so hard to steal him from me, and she still tries. I know that she is plotting with those two. I bet you anything that she's involved with Yue's death. She'd do anything to sink her claws into Sasuke. I wouldn't be surprised if she tries to kill me.

Dearest diary… What the hell is wrong with me?

The girl raised her gleaming emerald eyes, before softly closing the book. She stood, her gold coloured silk slip whispering around her body as she picked up a carefully folded note and tucked it into her bra. Surveying her room one last time, she sighed, before leaving.

Yes, I know that it is really short, but I swear that every single other chapter will be a good ten times longer than this one :) But yeah, I'll try and update soon. I'm going to try and make every Thursday my update day. Yay for updating! My writing style has changed heaps since Don't Let Me Go. It's... Matured, I suppose. This chapter is a time skip, and the actual story starts back in January. A big thanks to Amy, for reading some of the parts that I was a bit iffy about, and a shout out to ShinobiLin, because your MASSIVE comment in DLMG made me laugh so. Freaking. Hard. It was fabulous, and if I do put something resembling that in the end of one of my stories, I solemnly swear to give you a shout out :D Oh, and I loved your bunny :)

P.s. I've recently realised that out of all the ways I could be grammatically incompetent, it's the secret behind how to use apostrophes properly that evades me.

P.p.s. REVIEW! Because you love me :)

-MusoninjaRAWR xox