This just a short story with two chaps. All Human.

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I Can't Lie

Part 1

(RPOV)

Today is the day.

I'm going to confess my feelings for Dimitri, the older brother of my sister's boyfriend. He was seven years older than me. He was twenty-four and I'm almost eighteen. He was a god. He was really tall, that my head just reaches his chest. He had a lean body because he was also practicing martial arts. He had compelling brown orbs, almost full lips and his hair was always tied up in a small single pony tail. He was a college professor in a University. He was smart, funny and nice to talk to. He was always nice to me, and we were close, but it was not how I wanted him to treat me.

He was often hanging out with us when he was free. Those were the times when I got to know him. Those were also the times that I started falling for him. I realized that I was in love with him after six months since we met. I was feeling a little bit uneasy whenever we were close to each other. Every time that he would look at me, I would feel my knees weaken, my heart beating abnormally fast and I would even blush. I realized that the changes in me were because of him, it was only him that made me felt that. I was tired of him, treating me like I was his little sister. I was tired of controlling myself whenever I wanted to tell him that I love him. There were times that my control almost slipped.

It was when I got drunk during Lissa birthday party. They all told me not to drink since I was still not in the right age, but I didn't listen to them. I snuck a bottle of vodka to my room and I downed the bottle in about an hour and a half. I was drunk before I knew it. So many things were running through my head.

I changed into a very skimpy outfit. I went downstairs and I started searching for Dimitri. At first I had no clue on what I was doing, but when I saw Dimitri flirting with another, my blood was boiling. There was nothing more that I wanted than to get rid of that skank. So like an angry girlfriend, I rushed to them. I pushed the girl and then I crashed my lips to Dimitri's.

He just froze. I knew that he was shocked with what I had done, but that didn't matter to me at that time. He slightly pushed me; I knew he was being gentle so I wouldn't be hurt. I could see annoyance on his face. He was angry at me, he was angry at what I did. I could feel people's gazes at us, including Lissa, and her boyfriend, Christian, who was also Dimitri's younger brother.

Before I knew it, Dimitri was grasping arm and we were heading upstairs to my room.

"What were you thinking? We told you not to drink, but you still did. Don't you know that girl is my student, what do you think her parents would think of me? Rose, please think before you do something," he chided me, obviously controlling his temper.

When I felt anger radiating through him, I felt traitor tears building in my eyes. He was never angry at me, it was the first time that he had ever talked to me in this tone.

"You are angry at me," I said, my voice was trembling because I was containing my tears.

His face softened when I said those words. He was acting like a concerned big brother again. I was really tired of that.

"I am not angry at you, I am angry for what you did. You shouldn't have done that," he told me, this time he was gentle.

"I'm sorry," I cried.

"It's okay, just don't do it again." He ran his hand through my hair, but he took it away too quickly, as if he was burned.

There was nothing more that I wanted than for him to hold me and comfort me. I knew it would never happen, as I told you, he just liked me as his sister.

…

Today, I was determined to change everything. This could either make or break me. By confessing to him, I would really need to sacrifice a lot of things. Our two years of friendship was one of those. Oh well, I'd better take the risk than regret this someday.

I actually kinda lied on why I wanted to meet him. I asked him to help me review for my college entrance exam. He agreed when he learned that I actually wanted to study. I was not the kind of student who was aiming for good grades. My grades were about to jump off a cliff. Just a few points and I would be failing. That was why he was shocked. Rosemarie, the ever-lazy-easy-go-lucky-student was actually interesting in going to college. Well, I really needed to go to college even if I didn't want to because of my parents who really treasure education.

So we were here, in his living room, sitting in one of his black leather couches. He was explaining me something and I would just nod when he would ask questions. My nerves were killing me. I just wanted to say it now, so that I could finally let go off the chains in my heart.

"Rose, are you listening? You look preoccupied with something." He looked at me confusedly.

When I met his eyes, I quickly looked away. He moved closer to me and then he tucked my hair behind my ear.

"Rose, is there something wrong? You know you can tell me everything," he said thoughtfully.

"I…I wanted to say this before I leave for college. It's just…oh my god, I'm stuttering," I said and then I laughed nervously.

"Just tell it please. They way you act these days were actually bothering me. You changed, you were somehow distant," he admitted.

"Fine, I have feelings for you for a year already. I didn't mean to fall for you, but I just couldn't stop. Every time that I try to stay away from you, you were the one who comes closer to me. I actually hate how you make me feel, I hate how you treat me as just a friend—a sister. I want something more, but I'm not sure if you can give it. You know it's just so impossible," I said. I breathed in and then I continued, "Well, I'm actually feeling lighter now. I'll be going home now. Thanks for your help. I know it's impossible, but I hope nothing changes between us after this."

I started placing the books inside my bag, when I felt him grasp my arm.

"Roza, wait," he said.

To be continued…

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