Authors Notes: Hmm … Enjoy?

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[Chapter Five: Set into Motion]

Literally, I felt like my heart was about to stop it was beating so fast. I was completely frightened at this very moment. My feet wouldn't move, although all I thought was "Run, Namine! Run!" but I didn't do anything but stand there and look frightened. She flicked her smoke, and walked in. Slowly examining everything, bit by bit. My brothers only jumped on the bed and played with Kira. I watched her cautiously. However, she did nothing but snort and walk out. I exhaled and looked at Kairi, and she was doing the same thing too.

We both stared at each other for a moment, and laughed. "That was close!" Kairi giggled, and sat on the bed. "Do you think she saw?" She asked, and I shrugged.

"I have no idea." I sat down too. "But if she did, she would say something and she didn't say anything, So I have no idea." I turned my body around and grabbed one of my brothers. "This is Alden, and the other is Allen."

"How can you tell us apart, Nami? We look too much alike for you tell us apart! So you're not allowed to tell us apart." Alden tells me, and I smile. Tears fill my eyes. "Why are you crying? You can't cry when we are here, because we are happy and so are you. You have to be. I'm happy, so your happy."

"I am happy." I tell them.

"Then why do you cry?" Allen asks, sitting beside me, looking at me curiously.

"Because that's how happy I am." I smile, wiping my tears away and I look at Kairi. "This is my friend, Kairi! She'll always be around, so get used to her!" Kairi laughs, and sticks out her hand. Allen and Alden grab both of her hands, shake them and run away with Kira.

Me and Kairi were left laying on the bed, thinking. Well, I was thinking I don't know if she was thinking or not. A lot has happened this day, and it's not even near being over. However, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I thought my mom would cause a scene and be all psycho. But it didn't turn out that way, now all I had to do was attend to this party tonight. While I was thinking about it, Sora walked in with a huge grin and I couldn't help but smile at him.

"What's up?" Kairi asked.

Sora digs in one of his pockets and pulls out a photo. I stare at it, then blink, it's us ! I see me, with long hair, I see Sora with a spike or two, I see Kairi with Short hair, I see Riku with Short hair too and Xion with long hair too. We were so young and small, and I look up at Sora with a huge grin. He only grins back. "I kept it all this time, I show it to the guys once in awhile." He says, and Kairi nods.

"It's the only picture of us." She says.

"We should take another one, and make copies on them all." I smile, and they return warm smiles. "So, what time are we leaving to the beach?" I ask, suddenly remembering we have the end of the summer party about to happen.

"Well that's why I came over too." Sora grinned, placing his hands behind his head, swaying back and forth nonchalantly. I grabbed a sweater, gave Kairi an extra one and we walked out the door. The three of us walked down the dusty roads together. Then I suddenly felt embarrassed, I'm walking with two people that like me. I feel my cheeks to burn, and I hope to god I am not blushing. A boy, and a girl like me. That's insane, I tell myself. Kairi is a sweet girl, and Sora is a charming boy. They're both good people. They're both attractive. I wonder.

"Say, Namine who was that lady on your porch? Look real mean …" Sora says quietly.

I burst out laughing. "That's my mother … She's sick, I guess, so she came home so we can look after her." I smile at him, his pops into an "O" and I nod. He scratches the back of his head, looking away awkwardly.

"Sorry…" He mumbles.

I shake my head. "There is nothing to be sorry about it." He smiles at me sadly.

We stop at Kairi's' house, and pick up booze she bought yesterday. Mostly coolers and beers, which I don't mind, because I don't like hard stuff. We also stop at Sora's house to pick up hot dogs, buns and three bottles of vodka. My stomach does a flip at the sight of it. Then I gasp, and realize I haven't bought anything. I groan, feeling kind of useless now. We make our way down the trail and towards the fire pit they've made throughout the summer. It's on an edge, and you could see the lake as far as the eye went. It was cool out this evening. There was only me, Kairi, Sora, Riku, Xion and Roxas here so far. We made the fire, and gathered red tree twigs to hold our hot dogs.

"So when does everyone else show up?" I wondered out loud, we each had a cooler or a beer in our hands.

"Anytime." Sora answered, looking at his phone. "Actually, they're in the trail right now." He grins at me, and I grow nervous. I hear rustling and could obviously tell it was them. Then out from the shrubs came a wave of people, more then what Kairi named. I stood up and shook everyone's hand, hugged people. A pink haired boy seemed to liven up the party a bit, he seemed to get along with Sora very well.

"FIREEE!" He yelled excitedly and to be honest, he amused me. The blonde girl who followed him seemed to watch over him, and laugh at the same time. He threw more logs into the fire and we were all getting along before you know.

"Hello, Namine … I don't suppose you remember me…" A shy girl, with emerald eyes and light short brown hair said. I smiled sadly.

"Sorry … I don't remember much people to be honest."

"I'm Sakura!" She smiles, and I couldn't help but smile too. Then we started talking, then all the girls started talking.

"How many boyfriends did you have Namine, in the big cities?" A blue haired girl asked, she had short layered hair and light blue eyes.

I blushed. "Not - not - not m-many!" I stammered, they all laughed me.

"Don't be embarrassed!" Sakura said, with a smile. I nodded.

I sighed. We continue our conversation, and then the pink haired boy, Natsu, got up and yelled. We all went quiet and stared at him.

"We're out of logs! We need to keep this fire going!" He took a shot of something, and grinned. Rolling up sleeve, grinning. "C'mon men!" He yelled and ran into bush like a maniac laughing.

"NATSU!" Sora yelled, then sighed and ran after him. Riku shook his head and followed. A red headed hair man shared his interest in fire and was gone before we knew it. Syaoran, Sakura's boyfriend, only sighed and lazily followed. He seemed more mature then the rest of us.

"Our men are insane …" A blonde haired girl said, and sighed. "Especially that boy." She sat down beside me. I couldn't help but notice she was very curvy in all the right places.

"Oh, shut up Lucy, I think you should tell him how you feel already." Kairi said, drinking from her cooler. Lucy blushed.

"Don't say things like that!" She yelled. We all laughed at her. The redheaded man and Natsu came back with logs.

"What happened to the rest of them?" I asked, standing up.

Natsu blinked. "Who?" I sighed.

"No-one followed us." The redheaded man answered.

Kairi growled. "You left after them!" She yelled.

"Did I?" He asked, scratching his chin looking up in though.

Kairi sighed, got up and stumbled a little. "C'mon Namine, we're going to find them." I blinked, and agreed. I followed her into the bush, stumbling over branches and rocks. We weren't in the bush for very long, and I lost her. I sighed, as I realized I was by myself. I was feeling a little bit light headed, so my vision wasn't the best right now.

I squinted and looked around as much as I could. Stupid drunken boys had to run off, stupid Kairi for dragging me along, I laughed to myself. This was too much fun though. I stumbled forward and ended up falling forward. I grounded loudly and got up. Then I heard some shuffling and hurried towards it, stupid blonde woman follows the noise … classic. Under the moonlight, I noticed two people. I could only see shadows at first, I slowly approached them. I couldn't hear them talking, which was odd, I could only hear what felt like moans? I don't know.

I got a little closer, and saw Kairi's red hair. I smiled and was about to call out her name until I saw, she was locked onto someone. I stopped in my tracks, and slowly slid behind a tree. I could see the tips of spiky hair, and I knew it wasn't Roxas because he had a girlfriend whom he was dedicated too. It couldn't be his brother, because he didn't come tonight. I looked closer, and saw it was Sora and Kairi. Kairi had her arms around Sora's neck, while he had his hands on her ass.

My mouth fell open, and I saw Sora lay down Kairi on the ground. I turned away, and I could hear them quietly making out. My heart was pounding in my chest, and my breathing was heavy. I leaned up against the tree, and tears welled up in my eyes. I felt frightened that they would catch me, and I felt betrayed in some small way. I sigh, this was none of my business. I had no right to be witnessing this, yet, here I am, not wanting to move because I'm such a pussy and scared of everything.

"WHAT!" I heard Sora suddenly scream, my body jumped at the sound of his voice. I heard them rustling around quickly. Did they notice I was here? I closed my eyes and held my body. "I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS YOU!" He screamed.

"WHO DID YOU THINK I WAS?" Kairi screamed back. My eyes widened.

"YOU ONLY MUMBLED "MHM" WHEN I ASKED IF YOU WERE NAMINE AND IF YOU WANTED TO DO THIS!" He yelled at the top of his lungs. My heart stopped, my breathing stopped and I felt absolutely nothing. Luckily, I was drunk and believed I could keep this on forever. This numbness. I didn't want to be here, I didn't want to hear any of this. What the hell!

"Kairi … we're over, get over it." Was all Sora said and walked off. He stomped past me and he didn't notice I was here. Kairi soon followed after and didn't notice I was here either. Worst fifth teen minutes of my life. I waited a little longer until I couldn't hear anything, and I got up. I dusted myself off, took a deep breath, wiped my eyes and walked in their direction. I spotted the fire soon enough and I ran towards it for deal life. I burst out of the forest with relief. They all got up at the sight of me, sighing with relief.

"SEE! ME AND AXEL TOLD YOU ALL!" Natsu yelled. "She saw the fire when we made it bigger." He laughed loudly. I smiled.

"Where'd you go?" Sora asked first, I couldn't keep my eyes on his. I shrugged.

"I got lost … and then I just turned around and tried to listen for you guys, then I saw the fire." I admitted. I sighed, walked towards the bottles the boys were drinking and chugged as much as I could. I wiped my mouth, and sighed. I needed that. They all looked at me with surprise, and I only sheepishly smiled. Lucy and the blue haired girl got up with excitement and joined me. We took three shots each and Kairi took one.

After a few hours, I was feeling really good, drunk to be honest. The fire was dimming but I barely could see it anyway, not with my vision. I smiled drunkenly at the fire, with no thought or feeling. Only happiness. I looked around dizzily at everyone else. Sakura and Syaoran were both leaned up against each other lovely, and obviously wanting each other but too drunk to do anything. Natsu was teasing Lucy, as usual I learned, very closely, their faces were almost touching and obviously something was going to happen between the both of them. Axel was past out cold, sleeping against a log with an empty bottle in his hand. Riku was talking to the blue haired girl calmly, I learned her name was Aqua. Xion and Roxas were holding hands leaving, well not really, they were leaning on one another to leave.

Then there was me, Kairi and Sora sitting beside each other, me in the middle, listening to the music that quietly played. The song that was playing was, "Don't Stop the Party" by Black eyed peas. I could very distantly hear it, I closed my eyes and started bobbing my head. I got up and started dancing a little, trying to keep everyone going. My head was spinning, and I couldn't see anything clearly. Lucy, Aqua, and Kairi joined me. We were all dirty dancing, and someone turned up the music. That's when we really went.

We were all giggling and enjoying each others company, then I go and trip over my own two feet and fly forward. I knock Sora to the ground, landing on top of him. We stared into each others eyes and I grinned.

"God, your cute Sora!" I slurred and he laughed.

"Thank you!" He slurred back. He grabbed my face and pulled my forward. I try to reset at first, but then I notice I'm sinking into it. A deep drunken warm kiss, his tongue in mine mouth and my tongue in mine. Our lips moving in motion together, then he stops and I look at him. To be honest, I liked that kiss. It was strong and deep.

"I've been wanting to do that since I seen you standing in your grandfathers yard."

I smirk, feeling evil and devious. "Well too bad it doesn't count!" I giggle, kiss his lips quickly and climb off him. He chuckles and helps me stand up. "I am way too drunk for that to count." I admit.

"Me too." Everyone says, and we all laugh.

"Should we all head home?" Riku asks. "Xion and Roxas left already."

"Someone help me carry Axel!" Aqua says, and Riku runs to her aid.

We all stumble through the bush together, laughing and joking around. We all come to the crossroad where everyone goes their separate ways. "Thanks for the good time everyone!" I say, waving at them almost falling back. They laugh and we all go our different ways. I'm trying to keep one foot in front of the other, and finally what seemed to be years, I see my house. I smile and walk faster towards my little home. Kira is outside, laying on his back snoring away. I smile at him, and fight my doorknob and finally push it open. I stumble to my bed and fall on it, feeling the spins right away I get up and get a grip of everything.

"Why did you kiss him?" I look up, and see Kairi standing at my door, kind of swaying back and forth. She looked angry at me, I shrugged.

"You kissed him too." I admit. Shit. Shit. I should of said anything. I stand up look at her, trying to show her I wasn't scared of her. She walks towards me, shutting the door behind her, and grabs me by the collar angrily. Looking me in the eyes, she shuts them and kisses me angrily. I don't kiss back. She forces me back and pushes me down on the bed. I stare at her, and she kisses me again.

My head is spinning. So much, that I feel like everything is going black. I force my eyes open, and we're making out angrily and deeply. He her hands on my face. One of her hands slowly graze down my side, groping one of my breasts. I feel myself grabbing the ends of her shirt and rolling it off her, and she does the same. We are in bras now. I close my eyes again, and again everything is black. But I can feel everything that is happening. Everything is distorted, I feel it happening, but at the same time I don't and I'm doing nothing to stop it. She is feeling my bare breasts, she stops kissing me and starts to kiss my breasts. Her hands slowly graze my leg.

I moan.

Then … we do something. Something that sent my future into motion, something I never imagined, something I never dreamed but something that also didn't last very long. Something I look back at every now and then. I was seventeen years old when I slept with a girl, I was seventeen years when I fell in love for the first time, I was seventeen years old when my life would go on crazy rollercoaster ride for the next year of my life.

Back then I didn't know, back then I was carefree and young. However, even now, right this moment … I don't think I would change any if it. Even if it caused me pain, deep hearted pain.

Kairi went home in the morning, and I sat there on my bed wondering if everything was happening too fast. I didn't know if this was right or wrong, but I know it's what I wanted. I didn't understand a lot of things, even this, whatever this is. But I know I trust it, and that's the feeling I went on. I sigh deeply, hoping I was making the right choice. It felt so right, so maybe it was the right choice. But at the same time I knew I couldn't share this with anyone, not anyone at all.

Next time I saw Kairi, her was short. She still looked cute, but I was wondered why she did it. Was it too prove something? I never did know why.

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EN: Hmm… I never know what to write here. But, Sorry for long the wait! I moved into my new apartment and had to get things settled in… then my computer went stupid, but now he's smart again!

PS: I love Natsu, haha .