Just a word from lil ol me! So I don't own Blue Exorist and i definitely don't own Rin or Shima. Btw, how exciting is this? I'm the first to post/write a ShimaxRin story that's matur! =D 3 Anywho, there are a few things I talk about that i will elaborate on later!
They were these urges. These indescribable, inhuman urges.
The first time it happened, he'd taken it out on Yukio. Taken all of his envy out on his younger brother that seemed to have everything he didn't have.
The second time, he'd taken it out on Bon. His entire wrath consumed him as he screamed at his former friend for betraying him. For going back on his word after finding out about his other half.
The next came in quick succession and it was beginning to consume him the more he attempted to push them away. He didn't feel like himself. He didn't feel like he could go on some days, and it terrified him.
It wasn't like Rin was unaware that his demon blood was coursing through his veins at higher speeds, killing his former self. No, he could feel it. Right now he didn't quite feel human as he sat in the room he shared with his twin, trying to study. He glanced at his brother who was busying himself with work at his own desk, when a flash of carnal desire and rage spread through his system.
Inhaling deeply to keep himself calm and collected when he opened his eyes again he saw his brother watching him with confusion. It broke the elder's heart.
"Otouto-chan…" It had been years since the older twin referred to his younger twin in such a way. "I'm scared…"
Yukio stood and examined him thoroughly before making his own remark, "Of what?" his face was stoic and composed as usual, however his voice showed trace amounts of worry.
"Myself!" he took a step away from his brother and stared at his own hands, "What am I supposed to do? I can't keep fighting these….urges anymore," he drifted back to his brothers face, "I'm becoming less and less human, and I'm afraid I won't be able to make it." The tears that welled in Rin's eyes were enough for Yukio to make his decision.
"We will make an appointment to see Pheles-san and see what he recommends. I know we'll be able to help you." The determination in Yukio's voice almost didn't match his expression; however, there was no telling what Yukio could have been hiding.
"So what are my favorite little twins of the True Cross Academy here for today?" the flamboyantly dressed purple haired demon principle asked.
"Rin is experiencing uncontrollable demonic urges and we wish to know if there is a way to ease them or make them stop completely." Yukio stated in an almost demanding way.
The grin that spread across Mephisto's face sent chills down both of the twins' spines and through to the tip of Rin's tail.
"What you're talking about is the seven deadly sins of Satan's hell. All demons have to deal with them at some point, and some of them never go away." The tall man shrugged his shoulders, "However there is a way to at least get them to subside," he waved a hand nonchalantly.
Rin stood with a grin, "Alright! Tell me what I have to do and I'll do it!" the half demon bounced vaguely on his feet until Yukio pulled him by his tail down to be sat in his seat again.
Mephisto giggled and clapped his hands together, "First you need seven willing subjects!"
"I have called you all here because, regretfully, Rin is desperately in need of help." Yukio adjusted the glasses further up the bridge of his nose as he stared at the odd assortment of friends and possibilities. Mephisto even bringing in the Earth King unwillingly to the table.
"Like I give a rats ass about Rin!" Ryuji spouted automatically glaring at Rin, who looked down ashamed.
"Um, with what? If it's possible to help I…I will try my hardest. Ni will try hard too!" Shiemi cautiously noted. She still wished to make it up to Rin, but she couldn't exactly hide the fear she felt for the half demon.
"Rin is suffering from an entourage of demonic urges and Pheles-san suggested that we "assign" so to speak, one urge to one person to calm them." Yukio answered and turned to the chalkboard behind him as he began writing a series of Latin words. "This is also a lesson for my students, though I don't normally teach these things," the younger twin turned back to the room and examined the plethora of students and took a deep breath before starting. "In mo—"
"If this is a lesson why'm I here?" Shura noted crossing her arms and pouting. She was obviously tired of standing there already.
"Because we need subjects and options…Just please listen." Yukio scolded before continuing. "As I was saying, in modern terms we have come to call these the Seven Deadly Sins," a gasp resounded a few of the students, "Luxuria is otherwise known as Lust and is top priority on the list as the most dangerous. Gula is otherwise known as Gluttony. Avartia is commonly known as Greed. Acedia is easily recognizable as sloth or lethargy. Ira, Wrath. Invidia, Envy. And lastly, Superbia is Pride.* If you would please volunteer for a sin…"He motioned to the board and was about to add to his statement when Ryuji butted in again.
"Are you nuts! We're training to be exorcists! What is this, making us indulge in some of the deadliest sins. Heaven wouldn't be reachable at all for even an exorcist if we were to partake in one of all of these! Like hell I'm going to subjugate myself to this bullshit." The punky monk ranted and walked out of the room without another thought.
Konekomaru skittishly followed, murmuring a slight apology, "I'm sorry but I agree with Bon…" and he was gone as well.
Rin turned towards the chalkboard and wrote down Bon next to Ira. Yukio simply nodded, "It'd be better if he didn't know for now."
Shiemi squeaked and inched towards the door, "I-I'm sorry. I just…I can't do anything like this!" and then she as well ran from the room, "I'm sorry!" she called.
Rin simply sighed and looked at who was left in the room, "Well…If anyone else wants to go…you can. But if you have any sense of hope for me…could you sign your name next to one?" Noticeably the loud spunky exorcist in training was not quite himself. He truly seemed desperate for help.
"Awe, Hon! This is just too much, Fine. I can help, not like I don't help you enough but hey at least I'll have an excuse to be lazy." The southern busty chick wrote her name next to Acedia. "Obviously, just bug me kiddo." She waved and left the room to get back to whatever 'business' she had to deal with.
Mephisto was next to walk up with Amaimon in tow. "This will be such a fun little game!" the tall man goaded and wrote his name next to Avartia and Amaimon next to Gula. "We will be seeing you!" The tall man left with a grin and Amaimon followed, poking his head back in, "If you're hungry after this lets go somewhere." Was his monotonous remark before following Mephisto.
Yukio sighed, "That leaves Invidia, Luxuria, and Superbia." He glanced at the board and at the remaining students left. He figured Lust would be the last to go and sure enough, the only girl walked up to the board, yet began writing her name next to Superbia.
"I'm not about to be undermined to having sex with a demon. But I have no problem keeping my pride." Izumo huffed and walked out the door.
"Fuck, thanks a lot Eyebrows…" Rin muttered not entirely sure how he was going to deal with Luxuria now. Considering his only friend left was currently writing his name next to….Luxuria! "Whoa, wait Shima! You really don't have to, Envy is…not left?" he looked at the board and noticed for the first time that Invidia was circled and marked beside it was Yukio's name.
"Hey it's not a big deal, Rin. We'll just call it a bromance," the pink haired monk chuckled. "Besides, I can't leave you hanging. After all, we're friends!" he shrugged and walked to the door, "Just call if you need me!" he stated as he walked out.
"How can he act so casual! This shit is binding! You put a curse on it!" Rin began to panic as he saw the finality in the list. It didn't entirely turn out the way he'd thought it would. Bon of course, but the rest? No. He couldn't subject his friends to something like this. "And why the hell did you put your name up there under Envy!"
Yukio simply took his glasses off to clean them with his glasses wipe. "Because it's obvious you envy me for everything I am, I thought I would help you out." He smiled as he put his glasses back on his face.
"Yeah right you fucking mole face!" he growled and walked out of the room. "I just hope I don't hurt anyone…" he sighed as he walked the entire way back to the dorm. "I wonder where Amaimon is…"
After a week, Rin began to understand what triggered what sins. He could tell which ones needed which person. Surprisingly he found himself being able to cope with them much better than before with his friends in tow. Mephisto did a lovely job showing him how to get what he wanted without being too precarious about it and becoming satisfied with greed. Bon unknowingly helped him get any and all rage out. Yukio definitely was the right person to take his envy out on. When Shura wasn't training him, they spent a lot of time lounging and doing nothing together until Shura needed to get a job done and he would follow her example. The most surprising need was Amaimon's ability to shove food into that tiny body of his for hours and still be hungry and skinnier than a twig. Eyebrows even let Rin walk around with her as if they were a couple to be the proud little beings they were.
However, Rin did everything in his power to resist and push away his carnal desire. Naturally though, it was growing more persistent. After two weeks, he didn't know how he was going to go on.
It was two weeks, three days, and approximately ten hours since his friends were assigned sins. And today, Rin was going crazy with lust. He could hardly focus in his classes and he dreaded his next class with Shima. He spied a little white dog that waltzed up to him and simply stated, "You seemed to be having a hard time today. Which sin are you ignoring?" the dog, aka Mephisto, barked.
"Shut the hell up….I can't…deal with this one." Rin looked away awkwardly positioning himself so the slight bulge in his pants didn't show.
"Ahh. Little Rin is afraid Luxuria, eh? You really shouldn't ignore that one, Rin-kun," the dog shook his head and looked towards the exorcist classroom. "You know, Renzou-kun is in there. He could—"
"No! Shut the hell up and leave me alone," he kicked the dog away in frustration as he walked into the classroom. He made a point to sit as far away from Shima as physically possible, which also meant farthest away from the door. Damn. And of course Shura was teaching today. Even shittier combo. That southern bitch could read him like a book.
"Oi, Rin-kun. Yer late. And my my my, looks like taday yer a bit frustrated….Maybe flustered?" she winked at him and nodded at Shima before waving a hand in the air, "Anyway, time for a lecture." And the room couldn't have gotten more tense for Rin as Shima glanced at him with a raised eyebrow before turning to listen to Shura's lecture, more like rant, about certain weapons.
The next hour and thirty-two minutes ticked by worse than ever before for Rin. When the bell rang, the class booked it for the door, including Rin. However, it just wasn't his day and just as he was about to put his foot out the door Shima blocked him and Shura kicked the door shut. Leaving the two alone in the room that already had more tension than a stretched rubberband.
"Alright Rin, what is wrong with you? I'm supposed to help you. Stop running away. You're a mess…" Shima's words were sincere but definitely laced with some nerves.
"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with you! We're both guys! We can't…fuck each other just 'cuz…'cuz I need it." Rin backed into a desk and refused to look at the other.
Shim set his hands on either side of the desk to trap the young demon. "Rin…It doesn't matter. I'm positive that I'll still be accepted into heaven even if we were to do something we shouldn't. We're exorcist, we fight for God. So…I'm not worried." The pinky-orange haired male whispered and leaned in to kiss Rin's jaw. It was gentle and hesitant, almost betraying the determination in his words.
"Sh-Shima…" Rin bit his lip and tried to move away from him. "It's fine, really. I'm not even worrying about Lust right no-oooww," Rin's last word turned into a slight moan as Shima's hand cupped the bulge in Rin's pants, gently rubbing through the clothing.
"You're lying." Shima stated simply. "Please Rin. We won't go too far yet. I want to help you." He pleaded, begging Rin to look at him. When the other stayed shamefully quiet and turned away from the strawberry blond, Shima took his free hand and moved Rin's head to look at him. "Please let me help you…" he searched the others eyes for an answer until the smaller male clenched his eyes shut and planted a kiss on Shima's lips. It was rough and hesitant and completely wrong. Primarily due to Rin's sharp teeth and his lack of ever actually kissing someone so intimately.
Shima pulled away from him for a moment, "Rin…Relax. Let's go slow…" he murmured and changed the course of the kiss. Shima had a secret hope that if he kept the lust to be more human and more intimate. Essentially, he wanted to turn it from fucking to love making. Their lips moved together in a sensual movement, slow and delicate the same way two slithering snakes would coil around each other. Shima moved the kisses down from Rin's lips to his neck gently nipping. Though Shima was of a holy family, he was a ladies man for a reason. Every body is essentially the same with respect to nerves that make people go wild.
Rin on the other hand was too terrified to completely feel every sensual act. "Shima…I need…"he gasped and clenched his hand on the desk that was supporting him. He sighed when Shima worked to unbutton Rin's pants and delicately ghost his hand beneath his boxers to touch the skin that was so sensitive. Raven hair shaded aqua eyes and he bit his lip, "Shima…" he groaned.
Said strawberry blond looked down at him and kissed the skin just below his ear and whispered, "Call me Renzou…When we're like this." He hesitantly ran his fingers along the tensing organ that Rin's member. A red flush dusted Shima's cheeks at Rin's little pants of approval.
"R-Renzou!" Rin choked out and clutched onto the others shirt. Shima bit his lip in reply and worked at the hard member. Alternating his movement between stroking soft and slow and hard and fast. He'd never done this to another male before, he just knew what he liked, and figured it would get him somewhere. Which by the panting and exasperated little moans of his name he had to have. "Oh god, Renzou!" he felt the others cock twitch in his hand and release.
Rin's breathing was ragged and almost like gasps for air. "There! Don't'cha feel better now?" Shima commented drawing his hand from the others boxers and grabbing a tissue to clean it off. Ignoring the half hard problem in his own pants.
The raven haired boy looked up at him in surprise and hastily resituated his clothes to be appropriate. "That's it?"
Shima raised a brow at his friend, "Well, yeah. I'm sure you're fine now and like I said, we can go slow." He shrugged his shoulders as he tossed the soiled tissue in the trash. "Just call me please when you need me, okay Rin?"
Rin nodded and smiled, "Yeah, yeah I promise." He walked towards the door and waved, "Thanks Shima."
The other stayed in the room for another few moments. He glanced at the door a few times with a sad smile, "Back to Shima…Dammit. What is wrong with me?" he laughed and shook whatever weird feelings he had off until he got to his dorm where he sketched out a plan.
A/N: Thanks for reading! I hope you will review! 3
Btw, All of the names i used for the seven deadly sins are the original Pope Gregory the I Latin names for each. Some have slightly different meaning to them too.
Luxuria is essentially the same as lust. It's just a little more exaggerated. And paticularly notable to be used for prostitution or sodemny. In Dante's "Inferno", unforgiven souls of the sin of lust are blown about in restless hurricane-like winds symbolic of their own lack of self control to their lustful passions in earthly life.
Gula is Gluttony in which there are different types to commit.
Praepropere - eating too soon.Laute - eating too expensively.Nimis - eating too much.Ardenter - eating too eagerly (burningly).Studiose - eating too daintily (keenly).Forente - eating wildly (boringly).Avaritia is like avarice or covetousness forms of greed. This especially deals with money. In Dante's Purgatory, the penitents were bound and laid face down on the ground for having concentrated too much on earthly thoughts.
Acedia is a little different than Sloth, but is essentially what we refer to as it. This is basically the neglect to take care of something that one should do. (Fits Shura pretty well ne?) Acedia also has "despair" thrown into it. Which is essentially suicidal and hopeless thoughts. Dante refined this definition further, describing acedia as the failure to love God with all one's heart, all one's mind and all one's soul; to him it was the middle sin, the only one characterised by an absence or insufficiency of love.
Ira is the exact same as Wrath. Dante described vengeance as "love of justice perverted to revenge and spite".
Invidia is very much Envy. Dante defined this as "a desire to deprive other men of [what is] theirs."
Superbia is Pride. Which in this case it is actually the deadliest sin you could possibly commit. Pope Gregory defined it as Vainglory. Dante's definition was "love of self perverted to hatred and contempt for one's neighbour."
I found this information from my own Dante's Inferno and Biblical writings, as well as Wikipedia. I hope this helps you with references i make later on.
ALSO! I WILL be referring to my faith (Christianity) a lot. Simply because I understand it's teachings. I promise it is only to further the story since they are all of holy faiths and jizz. But please don't let that deter you! There will be lots of sexy Shima x Rin smutty goodness. I won't impose my faith upon you!