Hi there guys!

It's me, Kamo-chan! I'm back! Back from my writing break or whatever you wanna call it...^^"

Well, frankly I was just writing this story, and I'm still not finished with it,

I'm stuck with the last chapter, but don't worry...:)

At least I can upload the first chapters for you, my dear readers!

I'm sorry that you had to wait so long for me, the lazy ass to write,

and I want to apologize for it to everybody. *bowing down in guilt*

Now, after months of writing, having to endure the fu*** school and whatever stuff at home I finally put up the first chapter of my sequel!

The sequel of "Wish of love, wish of sin" you have (had?) waited for...

I'm not really satisfied with it's title, but I can still change it later...More important is that you'll hopefully like the sequel as much as the first part, this has been giving me worries all the time while writing it...i tried my best with my inspiration, but well, who knows, maybe you'll think it'll be boring or whatever...

But I gotta stop my useless blabbering now, cause you'll surely want to read^^"

Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not own -man or any of its characters, otherwise I would put on two chapters at once for all the poor fans outside there!

Aaaand...one more thing...for me, this is something special this time, cause I wanna dedicate this story to a good, dear friend, a special friend :)

This story is dedicated to you, Pandy-chan! My special fanfiction-net friend! (And more if you want)

One month. One fucking month. He had waited one month and his patience was now dangerously thin, worn of by what the seemed like eternal waiting. For an answer. For his answer. Damn it, one month was to much! Kanda felt like he had to bang his head against the wall, again and again. He had been waiting for an answer for four weeks now, since that day Allen and he had their...encounter with Aren, the once suppressed desire inside the white haired which- or better who had rather forcefully taken what he wanted. After trying to get Allen out of his room where he had locked himself Kanda had promised him time to clear his feelings for him. That was one month ago, and the dark haired couldn't wait any longer, fuck, not more then four weeks! Since that time the white haired had kept avoiding him, he didn't stay in the same room, he didn't speak more then necessary, he practically fled out of the bath as soon as he saw Kanda and had run out with all of his clothes on, he didn't spare with him anymore, he didn't even look at him anymore! Angrily Kanda walked to the kitchen, ignoring the frightened finders stumbling aside to let him through and took his usual meal, soba noodles with green tea, carrying it towards an empty desk where he banged the plate onto the wood, nearly breaking it. In his anger he didn't notice that said white haired was there as well, sitting together with Lavi and Linalee on another desk. "Say...is it just my imagination or is the aura around Yuu-chan even darker then usual?", Lavi asked carefully, slightly nervous while he glanced to the soba eating exorcist, then he looked at his desk neighbors. "Oh, I don't know...well, I think he must be angry about something, but what?", Linalee said thoughtfully, twirling one strand of her hair while she looked as well to their friend and turned towards Allen, who chewed absentminded on a piece of bread with ham, asking him: "And you? Do you have an idea what it could be?" She stared at the white haired who didn't react, his look still far away somewhere else in his mind. "Allen-kun?"", carefully she nudged him against his shoulder, the white haired jerked back in surprise, frightened looking around. "W-what?" "Haven't you listen? I just wanted to know if you had an idea who angered Kanda!", Linalee said slightly confused, staring at the silver eyed who's eyes widened shortly, before he immediately looked away, replying: "No, I don't know..." The black haired girl shook her head, exchanging a glance with Lavi who sighed deeply and leaned back with his arms behind his head. "You are acting weird, Allen-chan! Sine that day you aren't yourself anymore, plus Kanda isn't in the best mood as well, even more then usually. Are you sure this got nothing to do with that...event? Look, we just want to help you, so why don't you just tell us what has-" "No Lavi! I'm...I'm sorry, but I really don't want to talk about it. And I'm sure Kanda just has his usual bad mood, this got nothing to do with that...day", the white haired murmured, smiling weakly at Lavi and Linalee who didn't looked convinced. The silver eyed sighed, eyes wandering over the big plate of food he had in front of him, they wandered ahead, further away, over the talking and eating people, through the many desks before they fell on a certain dark haired exorcist, who just looked up at the same moment.

Silver eyes collided with sapphire blue eyes, which widened in surprise, their eyes go caught themselves in each other, for a moment nothing else was important, all of the other noises disappeared, his skin started to tingle, then Kanda was standing up, abruptly Allen ripped his look away, feeling dizzy. He saw the dark haired quickly walking towards them and stood up as well. "Huh? Allen, whats the matter?", Lavi asked surprised, his green eye scanning the white haired's strange expression, who just murmured: "I'm not hungry anymore, sorry", then he ran away, leaving his two friends with open mouths behind. Then, after a short silence, Lavi found his voice again, trying to say something, just when Kanda walked past, leaving his bowl unfinished, every step he made showed a suppressed anger and something else, though Lavi didn't understand why. Both stared after the disappearing dark haired, not knowing what to say, the red head coughed and said confused: "What was that? I don't understand what's wrong with Allen! There must be something seriously wrong with him, he never loses his appetite! And what's with Kanda? He may be most time in a bad mood, but not like that! Seriously, they are both having a problem and hiding it, but what? What happened?" Linalee sighed, looking at Lavi with worries in her violet eyes: "I don't know, Lavi. As long as they don't tell us we won't know..."

/ Try to breath normal, calm down! It was just a look, just a look...you still have time.../, Allen chanted in his head, chewing on his lower lip without noticing it until he suddenly tasted blood, the copper and ivory taste ripping him out of his messed up thoughts. The white haired trembled, feeling totally confused. The look he had exchanged with Kanda...The rage and desperation, mixed with deep desire inside had been clearly visible, frightening Allen who had immediately broken the contact, not feeling ready to face him directly. He knew the dark haired wanted an answer, but he still couldn't give him one, in his mind the thoughts were upside down, different voices screaming against each other, battling for different decisions. What should he do? Just what should he do? Allen groaned, slowly sinking down the wall he had been leaning against and buried his face into his hands, then bit onto his lips until he tasted more blood and licked the few drops off absentminded. Damn it. Again he hid his face, hands burying themselves into his white hair and pulling at it, trying to distract himself from thinking about it any longer. / Forget it...forget it...you still have time.../, he thought desperately. Right at this moment a sudden, new sound broke through the chaos in his mind, his head whipped around frightened. Steps. Someone was coming into his direction, quickly. Soft and barely noticeable, yet with a barely suppressed anger and something else which he couldn't really name, swung in their sound, steps which were too familiar. Kanda. Hastily he stood up and started to walk away, the steps behind him stopped shortly, the became quicker as well, clearly determined to reach him, and now the feet owner's called out angrily: "Oi, Moyashi! Stop walking! Wait!" Trying to ignore the dark voice Allen quickened his steps until he was running, and finally, finally he saw his door and with one, two more steps he ripped it open, falling into the calming safety of his room, the darkness laying itself over his scared and confused mind like a protection, a thick blanket which would keep out all the demanding thoughts away. Although he knew it wasn't for long, they would come back, attacking him even harder then before, pulling and ripping on his mind like a pack of hungry wolves, howling at him in the voices of his bone-breaking thoughts. Quickly he twisted the door knob, closing and locking the door before he sunk down in shaky relief, to not have to face Kanda again. Labored he crawled to his bed and threw the blanket over his body, hiding himself under the comforting, warm darkness, his breath hitched when he heard someone banging against the door, growling impatiently: "Moyashi! I know you are there inside, so open the fucking door! You know what I want, so come out!" Only silence answered him, Allen stubbornly kept his mouth shut, not wanting to answer him, his heart beating fast in his chest. "Fine", Kanda bit back after a moment of waiting, disappointment and anger in his voice, "But you know that you running away from me won't bring a thing. You'll have to tell me after some time." With that the dark haired turned around and walked off to his own room. Inside his room Allen bit into his pillow, trying to suppress the scream of desperation in his throat while tears welled up in his eyes, listening to the sound of the disappearing steps of the one he loved. Dear lord, what should he do? What was he supposed to do?

/ Fuck that damn Moyashi! Keeping this stupid distance to me all the time and not even answering when I'm standing in front of his door!/ Kanda cursed inwardly, gritting his teeth he made another attack with his sword, attacking invisible enemies while he performed graceful yet deadly forms of fight arts, pushing his body to its limits, to release some of the anger which had grown inside him, frustration why Allen avoided, he was simply pissed off. Again and again he moved, hitting and kicking, the impact of his hits made his body tremble, he practiced hour after hour until his whole body was wet with sweat. Only now then he finally stopped, with a grunt he grabbed his stuff and walked off to take a shower. Carefully he opened the door to the bath, looking around to see if anybody was there, but luckily there was no sound of talking or laughter, which meant he had the onsen for himself without dealing with annoying finders or an hyper active rabbit. Carelessly throwing his towel into one of the baskets he started to carefully peel off his sweat drenched clothes, scrunching his nose he walked into the last shower and put it on. Immediately the hot water poured down onto his body, he hissed slightly when his cramped muscles started to unwind in the heat, his hair now clung to his skin, now soaking wet. Fuck it. Fuck everything. Kanda was never restless. Never. He was always cool, controlled in his actions, barely loosing it, except when people started to annoy him like Lavi. No one was allowed to touch, reach his heart, he didn't let anybody come too close to his inner self, keeping his distance to stay in control. No one had ever evoked a feeling like this, he was a lonely wolf in his fight against everything. But then Allen came. The Moyashi broke through every barrier he had built around his heart, simply and not even knowing it first, when he had looked at him with those big silver eyes, a wave of unknown feelings had shot through his heart, the shock was so big that he had barely been able to keep his icy mask. He moved him, confused him, made him unstable, every time he met him he couldn't help but feel mesmerized by his beauty. And now he was nearly freaking out because Allen kept pushing him away, avoiding him as often as possible which felt like a hit straight into his face. It was all the Moyashi's fault, with his rosy lips, the silver eyes, the soft white skin, his slender body.../Stupid Moyashi.../ Kanda thought, his eyes slowly started to feel heavy and closed half, the heat crawling under his skin, his hands slowly glided down and wrapped themselves around his cock, starting to stroke it, imaging once more he had Allen under him like at that time, moaning and writhing in pleasure, the pictures flashed in front of his eyes like a colored kaleidoscope. "Fuck...Moyashi...", he breathed out, arching into his own hand while he moaned out loud in a husky voice and pumped harder, the fire of desire burning in his veins like a storm.

/I hope nobody is there inside.../ Allen thought, nervously peeking around the corner and looked into the dark, but no one was there, the hall way was empty and quiet, so he sneaked to the bath door, quickly slipping through it and closing it. Right in front of him was the onsen bath, illuminated by soft lights and giving it a ghost-like, almost dreamy resting look, he carefully listened just to be sure, but since it was late at night he should be alone. With a sigh he walked to the clothes baskets and started to take off his clothes, without really looking stuffing them into the first basket brushing his fingers before he wrapped a towel around his hips, then he took his shampoo and soap to wash himself under the shower. After days of hiding more or less successfully hiding from Kanda he felt totally sticky and dirty, fearing of meeting the dark haired at the bath he didn't even come with Lavi anymore and finally made the decision to come at night, which seemed like the safest method to avoid Kanda here. His naked feet made soft, wet sounds on the water splashed tile floor, then he chose one of the last cabins and walked in, taking off his towel. Suddenly he noticed something, a wet sound, something liquid pouring down onto the tiles. Right next to him. /Oh shi...no, there is someone else here?/ Allen thought frightened, pressing himself against the cool tiles in fear, immediately thinking about what he should do, he had been so absentminded that he hadn't paid attention to anything else then his messy thoughts. Should he just run out? Or should he look who it was? But, what if it was a woman? One second later he nearly screamed in shock when he heard a moan, followed by a name which was only too familiar for him. "Moyashi..." Kanda's husky, deep voice, moaning his name in such an arousing way, not knowing that the object of his desire was right next to him in the next shower cabin. Frightened the white haired pressed himself against the tiles on the walls even harder, his heart beat inside his chest hard and fast, the blood pounding in his ears. Another moan, heavy breathing which tingled on Allens skin, making him feel uncomfortable hot in his body, a feeling which he immediately discovered as the hated, wanted lust. The urge to flee, to escape the sounds of Kanda's moaning in his ears battled with the need, the heat in his body, to listen, to give himself into the imagination that the dark haired was touching him...

With a pounding heart he continued to listen, and slowly his hands went lower, gliding over his stomach and navel before they wrapped themselves around his half hard cock. His whole body shuddered in pleasure, he almost moaned but was able to suppress it, slowly his mind filled itself with the fog of heat and arousal, listening to Kanda's voice he stroked himself harder, panting while he whimpered, throwing his head back. He could feel Kanda so close, like it were his hands on him, caressing him, stroking him, rough, calloused skin touching his own, rubbing over it, playing with his hard length. Allen's mind sunk into this imaginations, captured by the seeming eternal moment while his hands went faster, like Kanda who also breathed harder, so close and yet so far away, although they were only separated by the shower cabin's walls. The heat was too much, Allen moaned, which was thankfully swallowed by the shower water running, unable to suppress it any longer he came hard, in the same moment like Kanda because he heard the dark haired growl out loud as well, moaning his hated nickname loudly, the white haired breathed hard, trembling he sunk to the floor, collecting his breath before he stood up and fled out of the bath, shame and heat still laying on his body like a heavy weight.

"Kanda-san!" "What?", the dark haired hissed, looking up from his lunch to shoot the frightened finder a murderous glare. Although he had released some of the stress and frustration with the hard training and the sexual need in the shower he still felt like he could explode at any moment. The finder paled and stumbled back in fear, trembling like a leaf, then he finally managed to stammer: "Ah..uh..uh, K-Komui-sa has a new mission for you and wants you to come in half an hour to his office to discuss the details..." "Understood", Kanda replied, already not interested anymore in the sweating finder, but then he remembered something and asked bored: "Do you know if it is a single mission or do I get a partner for it?" The finder, who was already sneaking away froze in shock, he turned around, and stammered after thinking a bit: "I-I'm not sure, but i-i think its...uhm...i think Komui-san said it was Allen Walker..." With that he ran away, quickly diving into another group of finder to escape a possible fit of rage from Kanda's side. The dark haired's hand, which had been lifting a cup of green tea to his mouth stopped, he froze in surprise. Allen Walker...Slowly, a dark smirk started to form on his lips, his blue eyes flashed with determination, glinting with the power of a wild animal catching the trail of it's prey. Oh yes, that was a good information. This time he wouldn't let the white haired get away, to hover himself around the answer. This time not.

"What? Is...is that right?", Allen asked in a weak voice, staring at the finder who had brought him the message and now looked slightly confused. "Oh well, I'm sure, but why are you asking? I mean, I know you don't like Kanda-san, but its just for one mission...and we all know you are the only one not afraid of him, who can take him on! Plus, its only for one mission- Walker-san?" Irritated and surprised the finder looked around to only see the white haired running away into the super visor's direction, he had simply left the finder standing there who now called after him in confusion: "Walker-san? But the meeting is only in half an hour!" Allen didn't hear this anymore, too absorbed of his thoughts while h ran to Komui to prevent this from happening. No, he couldn't do this! He didn't want to have a mission with the dark haired, not with their current...problem they had, since it was already difficult enough to work with him together at normal missions. He couldn't deal with Kanda so close, not when his mind was just a chaotic mess, unsure about everything including the dark haired, not in this state he was. Allen stormed through the door, barely able to stop before he could crash into the paper covered desk, but there was no sign of the sometime really crazy scientist. "Uhm..Komui-san?", he called in confusion, wondering where the black haired man could be. No one was under the desk, the scientist also wasn't hiding behind one of the book shelves, but where else could he hide? Slowly he wandered around, past the couch where the exorcists usually sat to get the files about the missions when suddenly something grabbed his ankle and he fell, screaming in surprise and shock: "What the-?" He already feared it was some of Komui's crazy experiments somehow turned alive, but then he heard a voice call out: "Allen-kun, it's me!" He looked down, just to discover that Komui was the one who had grabbed him, the scientist was hiding under the couch. "Uh, Komui-san? What are you doing there?", he asked perplexed. "Oh well, I'm hiding from Reever-san, the supervisor said nonchalant, explaining everything with it, "He wants to give me new work! But I need a break, I wanted to show my cute little Linalee baby sister the new dress I bought for her!", he whined, releasing Allen's ankle and standing up, dusting his clothes off and flipped a few pieces of papers away. "So Allen-kun, what brings you here? The talk about the mission is only", he looked down onto his watch, "In twenty-five minutes! Aren't you a bit too early?"

"Oh, that...", the white haired exorcist nervously fumbled with the seam of his shirt, then h said hesitantly: "Its because...because...uh..." "Yes?" "its...Komui-san, I don't want to go on this mission together with Kanda." The super visor looked up from his coffee cup in surprise, asking: "But why? You and Kanda always worked together quite good, frankly you are the one Kanda works the best with, despite your...problematic relationship." "Yes, I know, but...", the white haired murmured, then he looked up and continued: "Its because of that...'day', you know it already...And no, I don't want to talk about it", he added, stopping Komui who already had opened his mouth to ask. "I can't work with him together, it would just make everything even more difficult and problematic! So please, let me work with someone else together on this mission-" "But Allen-kun, that's impossible! You and Kanda are the only exorcists for this mission currently. Marie is with Crowley in New Zealand while Linalee will soon set off to go on a mission with Lavi and Bookman. And the generals are away as always", Komui answered with repentance, the white haired became quiet, looking helpless. "So...no one could at least accompany us?", he asked, staring at the floor. "I'm sorry Allen-kun", Komui said, feeling a bit guilty, "I mean...i knew that something had happened between you and Kanda, so I tried to pair you two up with other partners, but it didn't work this time. " For a moment the scientist was quiet, then he asked gently: "Are you sure you don't want to talk about that 'day'? It must have been something terrible for you two..." The silver eyed male looked up and smiled a bit, though he didn't look very happy: "Thanks for the offer, but I don't want to...its too...to personal." "Well then...seems like I can't do more for you. But, its just one mission so I'm sure it won't kill you! And Kanda is always a bit rude, so I'm sure it will be like every mission you two had before", Komui said smiling, trying to cheer up the white haired. In the next moment there was a knock on the door, but before Komui could call "Come in!", the person stepped in, letting the door fall into its frame, then he looked around, his blue eyes widened almost unnoticeable at Allen's sight before they fixed themselves on Komui. "Oh hello Kanda-kun! So now that you and Allen-kun are already here I can start with the explaining about the mission", the black haired scientist said, walking to the desk to take two files before he picked up a paper with some notes on it.

"Well, about the mission...One month ago the finders heard strange things about a village in Germany. They say people have been attacked, that something dangerous is in the woods, like a monster, which takes away something of them. The people were like dead, although they were still alive at the same time, though I cannot explain what they mean, the rumors are not very clear. Anyway, it doesn't sound like akumas have been there, but still, if its the cause of innocence you should better be prepared, the earl never sleeps. I trust you two that you'll fulfill this mission as good as always." He grabbed the two files with the information and gave them to the two exorcists. "Please just don't act like two idiots, okay?" Komui sighed, looking at the two pleadingly, Kanda just glared at him with a As-i would-fucking-care-if-something-gets-broken-I-won't-pay-look while Allen looked away, his hair hiding his face. "Well then, you two can go now", he said and turned around to sort a few papers, sighing in annoyance. The white haired immediately stood up and quickly walked out, not even looking at Kanda who stared after him and growled, slowly walking back into his room to prepare himself and some bags for the journey. In this night Allen wasn't able to sleep and stared out of the window, into the silver moon, while the voices inside his head became louder again, yelling and screeching, louder and louder until his head started to throb in pain. He curled up into a ball on his bed, pressing his hands on his ears in desperation while his heart felt like breaking through his chest, hundreds of emotions ripping on it until he thought it would rip, and finally the exhaustion was too big and sleep had pity with him and sent his trembling body into sleep. He fought against it first, not wanting to sleep, but his head was hurting so much and his eye lids were getting heavier and heavier, escaping his control until he finally gave in, falling into sleep which took away the nausea and pain. His last thought was whatever would happen tomorrow and the following days...it would be like going through hell.

Soo, that was it...the first chapter of the sequel...

I'm really not very satisfied, it kinda seems lame to me and...

aagh, I'm just badmouthing myself...*sigh*

Really, it could be way better...the feelings aren't described very good, the characters seem OOC to me, everything's weird... and you will probably all agree...but I promise that more 'action' will come, really! I promise!

I don't want to disappoint you guys,

(especially not you, Pandy-chan, since this story is dedicated to you!Oh my god, I'm such a failure as an author...*depressed*)

who were so nice to me with your reviews for the first part...

…...I don't know what more to say,

so just...just try to cheer me up a bit and give me a honest review...T.T

your-now-feeling-a-bit-depressed-author Kamo-chan

REVIEWS PLEASE...pretty please?